Invisible

Over Again

2009-08-19T03:31:00.000-07:00

Over Again is a 'No One Else' production.
and this song really speaks to me about how much we need God in our lives.
He is the center of it all.

First my DnT went really wrong after i did 50 pages of research.
and Teacher said i only can get a B4. I'm aiming for an A.
wads more, submission date is tmr dear frens.

Secondly, MT results are out.. 'zhi ern, C5.' thats wad the teacher said.
A wave of sadness and disappointment came crashing down on me.
I wanted to cry. I wanted to protest. I want to wake up from this nightmare.
too bad its reality. I studied. I really did. why? i dunnoe..
I put in everything i have. this is the results i have. i may not show it but i really did.
I may appear to be slacking, but im already pushing myself.

Over Again

I'm on my knees,
I feel like i can't,
I can't go on anymore.
There's nothing left,
I gave it all,
I need someone to get me restored.

I'm running to catch my breath
I'm reaching out please be there.

Call your name come save me,
I know you're out there hear me,
As I see your face,
Over and over,
Through the moonlight burning,
Till the dawn is rising,
I am longing for you Over and over again.

I need you now,
My heart cries out.
I'm yearning for something more.
I'm incomplete,
Unsatisfied.
I'm faced down at your feet.

I'm running to catch my breath
I'm reaching out please be there.

Call your name come save me,
I know you're out there hear me,
As I see your face,
Over and over,
Through the moonlight burning,
Till the dawn is rising,
I am longing for you Over and over.

I see the scars engraved on your hands,
Upon your grace i will depend,
Your love consumes me so i can see,
that You're all that i need.

Call your name come save me,
I know you're out there hear me,
As I see your face,
Over and over,

Call your name come save me,
I know you're out there hear me,
As I see your face,
Over and over,
Through the moonlight burning,
Till the dawn is rising,
I am longing for you Over and over.

i really need you God..
I'm longing for you..

4th August

2009-08-07T03:08:00.000-07:00

Hi.
im very tired now... anyways came to blog about 4th august..=D
cos its my birthday and i was really touched by everyone.
thanks alot to everyone that made my birthday a very memorable one.=D

i went to school... then after assembly it was Dnt/FnN/Art
however, the girls wanted everyone to go back to class first.
i was puzzled...i really am and honestly din expect anything.
after 5 mins of waiting, the girls came in with a cake and everyone including Mr Lim sang the birthday song for me...So TOUCHED!!!!
was a perfect surprise...success=D

Dear 5n2'09 wished me a happy birthday.
then during recess, they sand the birthday song very loudly in the canteen for me again!!
so sweet of them=D
thankyou ppl.
and lastly, they blindfolded me, make me wear a hat, tied a balloon to my hand and brought me to the canteem by an alternative route and once again sang the birthday song..
love yall so much.=D
the cake they bought was oso coincidentally my fav. so ya, was really touched.
even Nigel came to school to wish me. and i gave him a piece of cake cos his birthday was the day before mine.=D

Leon, Gordon and joseph also passed me a present which they bought tgt with danny and heelon.
wow, so happy.

went to CO to have photo-taking.
also Paulina, Genesis, Tianshou all wished me happy birthday.
so nicee of them=D
then lastly went dinner at causeway with Eunice, Isaac, Joel, Kahsheng, Joseph at sakae sushi.

we had the buffet dining so can eat more..
when we first ordered, the waitress was shocked. lols...
7plates of this, 10 plates of this and 6 chawamushis...LOL..
eat until so happy=D

so altgt these are the ppl who wished me happy birthday and i really thankyou guy for making my day=D
not according to first or alphabetical order.
Eunice, Deborah, Joseph(church), Kahsheng, Joel, IsaacSoh, Paulina, Genesis, Tianshou, Weizhan, Huiern, Tsingmin, Debbie, Cassandra, Tricia, Yiying, Shermain, Yekai, Rauf, Johnathan, Nigel, Fuddin, Noella, Jake, Tiffanie, Peijin, AdlerKoh, Phuisee, Caleb Kay, Caleb(brother), Gerald, Heelon, Sheena, Jessica, AuntySheryl, Karin, Adora, JasminChua, Nicholas and my fav group of ppl, 5N2'09=D which consists of,
Aslam, Djalil, Khairil, Tajuddin, Jegthes, Xingyan, Nicole, Gordon, Ruoning, Shirley, Danny, Joseph, Hongming, Zhihui, Anisa, Kanagesh, Razmil, Jiewei and Daniel
still have MrMicheal, MrLim and the english relieve teacher...lols.
yea i want to thankyou ppl for making my day.=D thanks alot.

now i really need to rush my DnT.
its going well, but i still need alot of time. ugh...bleh.
tmr is joel's birthday, my youngest brother, haha...
chubby little pig=D
ima continue to do my dnt..
tataz=D

The Zone 2009

2009-07-26T07:15:00.001-07:00

its been a long time since i posted...
well..

YTD, was a memorable day for me.
why?
cos there was this hillsong concert at Max Pavilion.
it starts at 7pm till 10pm.

well, i thought i was going by myself.
cos Denise, my cousin, got a ticket for me to go.
so i tot hmm, since i had to usher, i wouldn't be able to go with caleb and since i tot that darren will oso be going, i went to church while caleb stayed at home, meeting jedi, matthew and darren.

i dinnoe how to get there, so asked deborah how to, she stays near there..
and learnt that kenneth they all are oso going!
so exciting! wadsmore, they are meeting in G2 first!
so yess!!! got ppl to go with me.

altgt there were 12 of us.
and we bought our food and brought it there.
when we reached there, we missed the dance already.
and wow it was dark and it was really crowded with ppl inside.
O.O!!
so we just randomly find a spot at the side of the hall and settled down and just go crazy..
at first everyone was stiff and slowly.... WOOTS!!!!
haha, was just singing, shouting and nobody can hear you cept God,
cos the music was mind-blastingly loud!!
so really had a time of my life there...
ima go again next year!=D

haha..
today, had physics tuition in the morning.
its the first time i had physics tuition.
i got out of bed relunctantly...and was grounchy..LOls..
and had physics tuition... dint turn out as i expected, rather it was a good thing! haha
only aslam, djalil, Gordon and XingYan will know.=D
haha.

i met them and studied with them till6 and then started chatting...
haha=D its gonna be a weekly thing for me, Aslam, Gordon and Djalil=D
love all you ppl out there...=D
haha
i wanna go watch tv already, bye=D
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..............

The Reporter

2009-07-21T05:26:00.000-07:00

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i know your here.....
please dun be such a pervert.....
if i get scolding from anyone.......
im personalising my blog for good....
and who knows wad i'll write then.....
to all who are ALLOWED to view my blog=D

ClassDump

2009-06-29T00:48:00.000-07:00

Hello ppl...-.-
very sian manzxczx

why? cos its the first day of school?
Nah... its cos of my classroom luh...or should i say classdump..-.-

Today, i went into the classroom and guess wad, first impression... its not so good..
firstly cos there isn't any more air-cons..
Next i noticed that not all the fans are on...and the tables were like peeling and producing the powder like dust.. dunnoe how to explain... and the metal of most tables are rusty!
so i went to a desk and put my bag down and headed to on the fans..
i turned on the rest of the switches and one fan is not working while 2 others had irritating noises.. noises like as if there are sand inside the fans... sian..
next the chairs.. i went around looking for a better table but to no avail and so i sat down.. i pulled out my chair and there was the metal sound of the legs of the chair...
so i look for another chair with plastic covers on the legs... and found one but like 80% of the chairs were in that pathetic condition... luckily i came early to get a good chair...gah!!!

then it was 640am and the clock shows 1045am...-.- it stopped..
Lessons started with 2 free periods and then mother tongue... was playing bejeweled all the way through =p..
after mother tongue was SS and two relief teachers came in.. did SBQs and then recess...
after recess, lols... my chair was gone and i had to then sit on the pathetic chairs... nice-.-
nvm luh, bless others with that good chair lor..haha=D
Next was english? and two teachers came in, relief again...
they din teach anything luh... cos they are new teachers, NIE second year teachers in their attachments... then one of the teachers wrote 3 questions on the board... she wanted to interact..-.-
how lame?
these were the questions:
1)Where did you go during the holidays.
2)What skills did you pick up
3) i forgot-.-

well the thing is, when i saw the second question, i smiled to myself...
then like i told Gordon, if ltr she ask you, second question you reply her,
Oh! i din drop any skills, so dunnid pick up..LOLS!!!!
then if she called me, my answer to second question would be, i din find any on the floor!!LOLs!!!
too bad, the whole class wasn't cooperative and so, failed..

then FT came in for CD.
guess wad, he wanted to use the projector in the class...
yeayea, it is spoiled too!!
really a rubbish class...
i mean, yea my class could be like the worst class, but still i do not think they shld put us in a "dumpster" luh!!!
and like most teachers were happy about it too.
I really wonder which teacher really care for my class deep in their hearts... care so much to help us ask why are we treated like that..
izzit cos we're noisy? well, live with it luh... its been like that for 5 years already... laughter is an everyday thing in my class, class 5n2!!
well, i have nothing to say...really... for laughing, we get a dumpster...nice!

ltr went to westmall after school with leon.
he bought his book, and i got my notebook..=D
then headed home.. bought 3 whitechip cookies from subway.
when i reached home, i placed a fork in my life!=D
share with my two bros, means each of us one or eat them myself.
=D yayness, i shared!! dunnoe bout them but i feel good? haha..

overall, today maybe i still need to be more careful with the way i talk.
need to really take caution when talking... its like words just fly out and i might hurt someone.
need to work harder to control my tongue...
yupps, so thats my day today.=D
bye ppl=DD

Youth Camp G2

2009-06-17T06:52:00.000-07:00

This is gonna be an orange post=D

ahaha!!! cos its my group colour luh!!!WOOTS!!!!

we're the Orange Cowboys=D

had this Fantastic Youth camp since sunday till today.

yea was in the group first known as Orange team...

our leader, and members are:

Wenhao(ldr), Me, Sarah, Melissa, Daltone, Keith, Grace, Elicia, And Elissa=D

1st day,

reached church at 3pm.

registered and assembled in praise room..

then we got the rules and regulations part over and got into our groupings.

then str8 away, we played dirty games..

with new groups and ppl you nvr talk to before, its like bobian need to communicate lor..

so got first part to the game, first they had this big sheets that those pasamalam shopkeepers use to cover their stores in the morning those blue colour sheets... ya, we were suppose to wrap ourselves in those and caterpillar crawl across the field and run ten rounds around a pole and spastically run back...LOL

so when the first members went, the commitee had their time of fun by throwing water bombs at us... it wasn't any water bombs, it was water mixed with flour bombs..!!!!

so wenhao went first and he was bombed...aha..

then ltr one by one

elicia was clean, daltone was oso clean, sarah i cnt rmb, but i only know after i caterpillar walk, i din get bomb... its during the running around ten times that i did sth different from the rest...

cos the others they put the sheet down and run, like that easy to get bombed... so i just took the sheet and cover myself and run!!! WOOTS IMBA JOSH!!!AHAHA!!!

BUT TOO BAD, THE COMMITEE they threw flour into the opening of the sheet which was whr my face was and had a good mouthful of flour...-.-

then after the whole team completed that, we gotta use spoons to scoop ice cream and put it in a pail across the field whr the pole was...

my team, i was the runner... lols... yea so i was the one that kept running to the pail and back to get more ice cream from my members...LOLs...

then ltr when time's up, we had to EAT the left over ice cream...-.-

it was disgusting... melted and had some pieces of grass in it at the bottom still have tiny black balls de...-.-
disgusting...

so eat finish then went in to clean up..

had dinner with the group and then service..

ltr on we had games at night, actually not quite games, we had to make our banner and a group identity and a cheer=D

Sarah is good at drawing ok..=D

and while the girls draw and colour the falg, the guys were makeing the identity and me? i came up with the cheer=D

cos the others groups names were, Red indians, Blue Kamikazes, Green Ninjas, Yellow knights, Purple samurais, and ours is Orange Cowboys...

now think, wad thing does a cowboy have that the others dun?

well we have a gun!!=D ahaha...

so i made the cheer and this is how it goes:

Wenhao: Pang!!!(gunshot)

Us: AHHH!!!(Frightened and shocked)

Wenhao: Howdy, we've got guns..

Us: And you have none (tauntingly)

Wenhao: We come from the west!

Us: and we're the best( Proud)

Wenhao: Ta da da da da, (tune)
Us: PANG PANG!!(Gunshots)

All: Blows guns=D

ahaha... yea and then we had supper and lights out..

the floor was hard that the next day i woke up with neckache... like really neckache...LOLs

2nd Day,
wash up, then went down for morning games...

First we did the My name is Joe.

then after a few rounds we had breakfast...

and then wervice... after that was morning devotion with our DG, discussion groups..

my Group consists of,

Matthew(DG ldr), Kahsheng, Me, Samuel, Daltone, Alan, Jonjoe, Ian, and Chunming.

then after that was lunch and after lunch was workshop...

Guys and girls splits up cause we are talking about growing up stuff which are personal, like for guys, we discuss the things we dun say in front of girls.. and girls, likewise...yea.

after that we had games... today, we went sentosa!

like ya and we had to start of with four 1.5litres water bottles..

each team starts with 4 and like you cnt lose them.. and we had to run like long distances to the next destination whr we will get another 2 more bottles... so if you dun drink the water, you will be slowed down by the bottles... yea i carried as much as i could for my team to be faster luh... wenhao oso did..

and that day was tiring luh... the bottles had words written on it like Fun, Coolness, Popularity...and etcetc...

the morale of the game was... like the long distances we travelled represents our life...

we're running this race for God in our lifes and many times we want to have Fun and like to stay cool... these are things which slows us down and because of that we might not finish the race faster... so wad we need to do? if we wanna reach faster, its either we drop the bottles which we couldn't and so we had to just drink up the water... we finished 4 bottles i think..
yea.. this is so because in life, we cnt avoid all these things which slows us down.
However we can like not spend so much time and energy on it.. so we have to like just empty the bottles lor...

when we were done, our group finished last.
BUT its ok cos we tried our best and got to know each other more... plus we all stick tgt and everyone had tried their best so well done guys=D
and since we came in last, we were the lsat to bathe...lols..
its quite a good thing somehow since we're the last, then nobody would like hurry us to finish bathing..and so i took my time and i and was really clean..ahaha.

we had service and today, Pastor simon was invited to Preach..
its a sermon i heard before and that is about Jacob...
Jacob-means a deceiver and a cheat.
He stole his brothers birthright and was running from his brother cos his brother wanted to kill him... after a long time he wanted to meet his brother but the night before meeting, he had a wrestle with God.. he wanted God to bless him and so God asked for his name... and he replied Jacob and he was then blessed... the Wrestle signifies Confrontation and asking for his name is like asking wad are the things he had done... and Jacob Confessed.. Pastor Simon said with Confession comes Healing... and so he was blessed...

Next was night games.. this night game today had a few stations and objective was that we had to go to those stations and try to win stickers... group that wins the most stickers win...
Ya so i went first to elissa's station and i needed to clean up the carpark to get my sticker, so not worth it.-.-
then i went to the dart throwing station... they had pictures of the commitee's faces up there and we had to like hit the faces to get 2 stickers and we get 5 throws... next went to matthew's station. His station he has a box and he put his hands into the box from below and you have to throw as many number of balls in in 1 min. every five balls 1 sticker.=D i got in 20 but elliot came at the last min and knocked it out and so i only got 3...zzz aha
then went to throw darts at his face. =X lols... then got 6stickers ahaha....
there was a record breaking station which we have like to break record luh... for in 1 min how many situps, or how fast you can drink 1.5litre bottle of water and holding your breath.. i broke the holding your breath record by 3 seconds got 6 stickers? ya..
then had the marble trouble station. there were 2 bowls then gotta pick marbles with chopsticks and put them into the dry bowl... got 3 stickers for that...

at the end there was the morale which i wun tell cos ltr ppl dunwan play next time..LOL...
it really troubled me luh after the morale was told...ugh!!
then supper and nights=D

3rd Day,
wokeup and did morning exercise...
Jake was leading and todays game we had to find a partner, dun care your gender cos in the end you might be holding on to a person of the opposite sex... so yea we had to hold hands and then there was a catcher and a runner... the runner has to run from the catcher and if he wants to stop, he has to go find someone hands to hold then the other person holding on the the persons hand must run now... and so ya it was fun watching them run
=p

ok then we had our breakfast and service... and after that lunch and workshop!!!
its about addictions and Kenneth told us his life addictions and yea.. he researched on dota!!
He said if you buy a guinsoo for ursa, and you guinsoo the opponent and empower then your furyswipes does 2x the damage... and after that, we had games...

today our game was de den... we had a boxman... and keith was the boxman and then we had to protect this boxman from the commitee. cos if they touch the boxman, the boxman will have to go to the dungeon and the team must stop wad they are doing and go rescue their boxman..ahaha...

everything was alright till the entangling station... we had to like hold hands or another person not standing next to you and then twist and turn and form a circle...
first circle we got a knot... second time we had 2 circles...lols..
Me, Sarah, Wenhao and elicia, and Keith, Grace, Daltone and melissa.
LOLs...
wah and then, you see sarah those quiet quiet type...
during that game she was like.. ok you go under and your hand go behind him and blahblahblah...
she was like the brains during that section...LOL...
spent alot of time on that section and in the end we had 50 plastic bags...

then next part was the final showdown...
we had to fill the plastic bags and then go out to the field and each team has a spot and the box, was like their territory...
so objective was to try to throw the water bombs into another teams box... and when the game started, sarah, me, keith, elicia, daltone and melissa was drenched in 1 second...LOL
i was protecting the box mah and so got bombed on the back many times...
then melody from the red indians she threw a water bomb and hitsmack straight into my face luh... not once, twice...-.-
the second time she threw my specs flew into the box and the plastic bag was left on my face...
at least it din go in to the box...
so i saw a water bomb on the ground and i took it sprinted to the red indians box and threw it in... they were like all out attack and no defend...LOL...
in the end we had like 3 plastic bags in our boxes while the redindians had like 17...LOL=D
so we won luh and we were the first to bathe...
it was oso good cos you can have like the whole toilet to your group only and dun have to worry about others rushing you still..

and then dinner and service... it was on samson and how he won his external battles but lost his internal battles...
next was games again and we had to travel to CCK park and play it there... we were the first team to reach cck park and had to wait for the rest... Again Sarah was like oh this place, its there and it there and blah blah... why? cos her house was nearby so she knew that park fairly well...
and then we played till we had 9 clues and then we had to stop cos it started to drizzle and then we went back to church...
ltr we had a debrief? in our group like first to see if anyone pissed someone elses off or not...
and i was so cranky at that point of time, i said sth and keith heard it and go confronted daltone...and in the end it was settled but i knew it was my fault... i wanted to apologise luh but keith started crying cos he felt he din do his best... and so we comforted him... and i still hadn't apologise... So sorry for that conflict... to my group if ever anyone comes by here...

and then we had supper and everyone had to find this treasure thingy... but we were comforting keith and so we were again the last but hey, who cares? Personally i think, a team member is more important then winning or losing.. keith was great luh.. he was my motivation during the game at cck park...goodjob keith=D

then went to clean up and then sleep le...
4TH Day,
neckaches, backaches, thigh aches and a numb hand...

washed up and there was no morning exercise... breakfast was macdonalds...
and then service... and then we got back to clean up the dorms and toilets and i got everyone's contacts and those new friends i made.
then said our goodbyes and went home relunctantly... for me... i still want camp...):
lols... sorry, then i had to carry my bag and sleeping bag and shoebag all the way home...
it reminds me of the sentosa game but its not bottles now, its the bags and they're like 10x heavier...ugh..
reached home and i lie str8 on the sofa and it was like THATS SO MUCH BETTER!!!!!
suddenly can feel all my aches...AHAHA!!!

and so once again, thankyou to the commitee and even though the games were dirty and tiring, i still love yall cos youths are suppose to do this kinda thing... ahaha!!!
and to my Orange Cowboys, Love you too=D PANG!!(Blows gun)
ahaha!!!

thats my time at the Youth Camp...
Missing everyone now..
goodbyes=D

a week of reflections and a conversation with jeanie

2009-06-13T17:17:00.001-07:00

one week has passed=D
haha yea many things happened and mostly were bad things...
my last week was spent alone.
parents are overseas rmb?

i'm feeling fortunate to have some good frens to accompany me and to save me from the boredness.
thanks ppl
=D

however, even though i have been desperate to go out, wherever i was, i was reflecting.
when on the bus, walking, eating, in school and etcetc..
reflecting on wad?

Well, some of the things are about my actions. well i suppose is most of the things i reflected about are about my actions and the rest are about my behaviour.
during the week of reflecting, i found out i have been rather impatient, quick to anger and rough...?
and its not a good thing... feeling quite dissappointed about myself now.
before my parents went overseas, we had some conflicts.
Leon, Gordon and Heelon all agreed that it was their fault, and that they would do worst things if they were in my shoes. That means im right. well after thinking about it over a hundred times, i also think im right. Why? Because it was clearly their fault. Esp my mum.

But, thinking back, there was this uneasyness in my heart... as if it was going against my thinking... i guess it was the holy spirit..
because it also gave me a thought on how i shld have reacted.
and i was enlightened at why i was wrong... it was due to my actions...
Word of God said to submit to authorities....
I find that i have been running dry...in my spiritual walk with God...
all my empty promises...and white lies i made to him...
Please forgive me...

not only about this but about Arts Night too...
my previous post on that band guy....
its proof that im impatient and quick to anger...
i will not remove that post to remind and shame myself of my actions and to also change and learn from it, for the better...

Ytd i also had a conversation with Jeanie, my regional leader.
I learnt quite alot from her.
Many things which i though would be okay for teenagers like us to do.
Like getting a stead now?
She said things that made me think.. and ya, i feel like i, myself, am not ready for it even though i can claim to love that girl so so much...however its just not time yet..
Thanks Jeanie for that conversation.
She made me think like a grown up. like she gave me a little peek at myself from the eyes of adults... and it was amazing and made much more sense...
so thanks once again to Jeanie=D

thats my week... i'll change ppl, i promise that!
To you, to God, To myself... I will change from today onwards..
goodbye(:

another skin

2009-06-10T06:33:00.000-07:00

haha=D

saw that idiot ytd... lucky got 7/8 girls around him....

nvm change skin again... cos was messaging someone from the past,
suddenly talked about werewolves and vampires...
so haha found this skin...not bad=D

werewolves are so cool!!!!!!!!=D
and i got a new nick today...-.-
by karin... thanks uh....joss stick-.-
zzzz i not smoker...

am quite bored now...zzz
really nth to do, nobody go out with, dunnoe whr to go oso, no movie watch...
really am very bored...

so please, someone come and save me alright? for this week nia...
things you can do to save me,
1) jio me for movies
2)if wanna slack tell me
3) if your house got extra comp, call me over=D
4)come over and stay as long as you want=DD
5)lend me a lappy WITH DORTA!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok yupp=D
thanks those who pei me so far, and keep me entertained=D
Heelon, Leon, Karin, Brandan, Gordon in class, Sinyee and ™
yupps...

i go le, byebye......

new skin, dulan

2009-06-07T06:30:00.000-07:00

changed a new skin...
wad yall think? cool eh?
ahaa,
i guess i really have to cool down even though some things piss me off so much,
that sometimes i react without thinking, actually not so serious luh...-.-
when im angry i'll just think of ways to get my revenge...
makes me so hot!!!!ARHHHH!!!! BOOM!!!

thats why chose this blogskin... cool myself down de...
well you see, it was pn Friday night that our school has this Arts Night thingy whr all performing arts cca are suppose to perform...

yea, the Chinese Orchestra was presenting their SYF piece.
and during that time, we borrowed instruments from Swiss Band.
one snare drum and one bass drum.
well let me tell you the thing that pisses me off ok.
well there's this joker in the Band's Percussion section...
small sized all-talk-no-action imbecile SEC3 kid,
who was playing the drumset.

when Mslim was like talking to CO, she was already raising her voice and i, being at the back cnt even hear her already.
know why? cos that imbecile was playing on the drumset... how ignorant to his surroundings.
so wad if that worthless trash can play on the drumset?
wow, so band have a drumset and he can show off? means CO, who has no drumset means the percussionist cnt play the drumset? narrow-minded...
so it actually pisses me off when he was drumming away when MsLim was talking...
so ltr MsLim called me, ZC and WL to go get the drums from band first..
so we when with Mslim to borrow those drums... that imbecile was so quiet, dun dare say a thing..
coward, why i called him that? cos got teacher dun dare shoot us... how noob?

so after we ran through the songs one last time, we had to return the drums cos Band was first to perform, while we were the last.
so now i went to return the snare drum alone, and i had to carry it all the way in.
so that imbecile and his fren was sitting on the steps of the stage.
as i moved in to put the drums, i passed them and that puny moron said:"you suck".
WOW!!! his drums was in my hands and i could have hurled it at his drumset and destroy his drums, looking at him then saying yea i agree with you. i din do that i put the drum at its place and turned to walk back.
i passed them and this time both of them said:"hey, you really suck".
wow!!!! a bunch of nooblets!!!

Well that tiny peabrain's name is joshua too... SEC3.
whoever comes to my blog and see this post, please get him to read it.
cos this is wad i wanna say to him, show the world and when i see him in person, he is so freaking gonna get a hell of a lifetime.

Joshua, i dunnoe wads wrong with you, i think its sth that happened last year. well who cares, i forgotten, please refresh me on the events... why i forgotten, i think cos your too puny to be rmb..
smug little kid who doesn't know who your playing with..
and ALL-TALK-NO-ACTION kid who shoots his mouth off and still hasn't got a whacking..
well lemme tell you this, if you think your so good at playing the drumset, please lick my shoe...
CO doesn't have a drumset, but lemme tell you a few of us knows how to play a drumset, i think anyone else can too, its so easy...so dun think your good just cos you can play that shit!
You said i suck eh? well, lemme tell you this faggot, if I, a GOLD co member sucks, then wad do you call yourself, a SILVER band member?
Also, go tell your senior, God knows wad his name is, that malay fagg, he likes to play technology eh? still come to us and ask for the scores huh? please go perfect your own piece before coming to ask or beg for our scores luh... just because that time your gold band so can come take our scores izzit, that time it was already in our heads luh so ask for scores no use...now we found the scores, can pass it to you... cos when we play it, we were a silver CO that time... so now... AHAHAHA!!! yall can have it since your are a....... band=D
the Next SYF swiss winds will get GOLD... why cos band in the next syf do not have imbecile, pathetic showoffs like you already, with you and your section in the band, lemme tell yall, YOU WILL ACCOMPLISH NOTHING!

so your wanna show off again? lick my shoes...
and yeah, dun shoot your mouth off just cos you think you can take on anyone...
lemme tell you, because of your filthy mouth, someday you might get hurt...
the time just haven't come yet...so watch it...

Who wanna make a tunnel?=D

posb, happiest night ever=D

2009-05-16T21:08:00.000-07:00

hoho, im back...=D
now nothing to do so come here to kill time..

shall blog bout ytd bah...
in the morning went with parents to yewtee to make a POSB card.
-.-, i dunwan it.
they said i need to learn how to use my money wisely...-.-
so ok went to yewtee and went to the bank.
it was crowded and packed...
waited one hour and 45 mins...
a waste of time if you ask me..
and tahdah!!! got my card... and it worries me alot..
wad if i lost if? wad if i forget the pin, which will nvr happen but still, paranoid >.<

then went home and forgot wad i was doing but i know i wasn't studying.=p
get ready dressed up and went to church.
svc just started when i got in.
so found a seat and isaacsoh laughed at my hair..-.-
i know, it sucks. Paulina oso laughed at me....
nvm...
then had sermon and svc was over.. went for cell.
it was combined and Elliot was teaching=D
haha he's so funny=D
but if it were to be abit more serious, i think it would benefit the lesson..
but overall i give a 9/10 for elliot=D

cell ended early and Natboy found out the the roof was open!!
woots so we went up to the rooftop and OMGOSH!!!
it was SOOOOOOOOOOOO
nice!!!
it was a rooftop garden and it really is very nice!!!
first time i went up or shld i say we went up to the rooftop garden...
its so nice=D
and Elliot started to camwhore with us.

then i left halfway to report for ushering of this event hosted by our church.
the Pastor was Michael Battersby and he was the main char.
he is good=D grade 28 in piano LOL!

was ushering at the lift when i saw Eunice her mother and Deborah..
was wondering how come deborah was here when she stays across singapore..
its far and i asked her how she going home.
yea so usher usher then dinner!!!
chicken rice...
the uncle gave us all his left over roast pork cos altogether i think they bought 20 over packets..
haha and in the end there were 2 extra packets..

so went into the sanctuary and too bad worship was over...
wasted.. :(
nvm the rest was still cool.=D
so after it ended eunice parents gave us a ride to the mrt...LOLs..
the ride was...i dunnoe how to put it, wild? noisy? chaotic?LOLs...
took the mrt to jurong with deborah and back...
got seats=D nearly missed my stop but got off LOL...

ok now got a game =p
i'll promise i stdy ltr..
hahahaha=D byebye

bleh

2009-04-24T07:48:00.000-07:00

Wah... today veryveryveryveryveryveryvery suay lorh...
i've got nothing but complaints to blog...zzz

first during P.E... after like 10mins of games, the STUPID FIRE ALARM SOUNDED=.=
why? cos got stupid fire drill... WHY MUST BE DURING P.E???
no sense...

then school...
after school rushed to aunty dawn's house...
skipped history remedial....=.=
if i noe have i sure stay... but if stay AuntyDawn sure KP...
cfm say wah you wan come then last minute dun come, oways likddat leh...
own liao...

so i reached her house, she ask me go print some stuff thengo play with her grandson..
me leh?
obviously sitting there for nothing...
print finish those stuff i read 10 times over sommore...zzzz
after her grandson go, she came to me...
then dunnoe wad, then she flare up and scold me...
when all i ask was her to go thru the stuff she want me to print....zzz
cos its my homework mah...
then its the chinese da gang...
then the book is with her!
then she want to borrow so ask me print out my homework...
then she dunwan go thru nvm...
she say sat go her house sunday dun go...
i said but i sat whole day no free..
she scold me say was church more important or studies more important?
yes church must go, but you sure the pastor wun let you go studies when monday exams meh?

then i rmb last time she tell me must be flexible...
well, thats the darn irony...
here she tells others to be flexible, but she isn't...
so ppl must be flexible to her lah...
its kinda unfair you know...
ya she's good but still sometimes it just gets way overboard...

then ltr at around 530 sinyee called...
she say girlfren call you arh? cos they got one free tix, so they ask me go...
Aunty dawn say dunnid go one i wun let you...
so i told sinyyee maybe not going le...
after hang up, she said that girl wan woo you arh?
no link... absolutely no link...
then i say no... so she said make her give up chasing me....
really bth-.-
then ltr i msg sinyee maybe can go cos she that time just finished going thru the printed stuff...
then sinyee called back...
then i said i dunnoe if i can make it...
so after hang up, aunty dawn said, wah she really bu fang ni zou leh...
really ai shang ni liao... if not why got so many guys, must be her call?
i thinking, you darn ridicules...
then she say go thru one more passage....
go thru halfway she guai lan, how?
she tell me actually i purposely de...
i just disturb you.. aiya anyways here to bugis 45mins...
cos the concert was at bugis...
by the time she release me, nb dunnid go liao...
i went home...

stupid and nonsensical...
really horh... bth...
goodnights...

bo gey

2009-04-22T07:51:00.000-07:00

LOLs... i just came from nicole's blogg...
dunnoe why got the blog bug from her blog

thats why so late lerh still posting...
anyways... yea.
din go school today cos im on MC...
why?

i went to the dentist ytd...
same dentist..XD ahaha!
Dr Yap Li Chen Rachel =D
ahaha...

why i went to see her cos i felt that my filling has a small hole...
well got worried and go check...
first time i got there...
besides THOSE stuff...
yea she checked my teeth for me...
and seems that indeed food went in under the filling and decayed my tooth...
well, its not that i din brush my teeth but...
the filling have hole and if food go in, it will stay in there and very hard to come out...
so brush and brush and brush, the food will still be inside...
thats why decayed until so jialat...

thats why must go dentist at least 2 times a year to check your fillings...
well i din check so my molar at the very back on my right side...
decayed till there is a bigbig hole and when she checked, she say very jialat...
cos can see the nerve already...

darnit when she check it hurt badly...
first she gave 3 jabs into my gum to numb the right side of my mouth...
then she started to clean my tooth...
cos alot of decay was there...
lemme describe how the tooth look...
imagine a crater on the moon....
yup thats how my tooth look and picture a nreve in the center of it...
yea.. so she was like scrapping and scrapping... even though she jab 4 times...
still freaking pain... darn...
2 hours of suffering...
but those whom noe wad happen... worth it=D
(IM NOT PERVERT!!!!!!)
lols...

so she told me that i cnt go for crowning which is to put a gold/silver/titanium tooth on top cos there is no base to support the gold/silver/titanium tooth... so she said permanent removal is the only choice...

so in order to remove, might need to have gum surgery or just pluck out... which is torturing...
so gum surgery scares me... so just pluck out lorh...
cos if i survived the previous 2 hours of torture, wad can stop me this time?
summore she said it only takes 20mins...

so she gave me 3 jabs again... same spot and it hurt on the first jab...
tahan... scared to raise hand le...LOL...
then after the 3 jabs, she took the HOLY PLIERS!!!
clamp my molar and darn she pull it towards the left...
the feeling was like imagine bending your bone...
then nvm she hold there summore!!!
i was like... this was worst then last time...
str8 away she pull to the other side T.T
so it went on for 20mins...
can hear the tooth chipping... and can hear it being torn from the gum...
and she pul and pull tug and tug...
i tahan... near death exp...
it was torture man... one of the worst form...
and finally it came out... she put in the cotton ask me bite...
when i saw the tooth... i nearly faint...
seriously... and she said bite the cotton gauze for 30mins then change new one if still bleeding...
after 30mins i take out... i saw a piece of gum on the gauze...
nearly vomit...

so now the gum is heal but still very disgusting when my tongue go taste it...
its a big hole at the back...
sian... so ppl, brush your teeth and go check your fillings man!!!
go make an appointment now...
or you will face the torturous procedure...
now still on painkillers...
LOL...

i dunnoe... really... how you feel towards me?
well, i like... love you...
darnit!!!

scco got a gold =D

2009-04-20T03:29:00.000-07:00

=D (smiles)

its a really great day!!!
i blog about it now ok?
sry im cranky and blank, aiya just have lotsof mixed feelings...
dang!

ok, its great cos SCCO got a gold.
well there were its ups and downs for today...

the night before, Paulina called.
her voice filled with desperation and panic.
why? her grandfather passed on, and well her parents wanted her to turn up for the funeral stuff...
im from a different religion so i dunnoe wads going on... however i talked to her
she said: see how.
so later she messaged me telling me go as per normal.

we actually decided to meet at gombak mac at 4am...
yea so i fidget around in bed till 3 and got up to shower.
showering half way Paulina called...
i was like: yo, im batheing, wads up?
she din tell tell me wad happened, she just said: really?
and i said : yea send me your address i'll go pick you up ltr...
(i was suppose to flag a cab, pick up wailoon then paulina then jiawei and go to mac..)
she sent me her address.

ltr she called again...
she couldn't go... her parents wouldn't allow... could hear them in the background of the phone...
i talked to her mom, got "scolded" instead...
then i called mslim... she picked up and i told her the situation and she tried talking...
well the outcome was inevitable...

i called the others told them we need to meet at mac urgently...
broke the news to them and got them ready for worst case scenario...
jiawei analysed and broke her instruments to those who were able to cover...
we were all tensed...hoping for the best...
we called weiting after that and told her the news...
also tried not to tell others the bad news...
sorry for bluffing you guys, we dunwan to lower the morale of the orchestra, pls understand=D

when we reach C.O. room, everyone was there and like they were looking at their attire, getting ready for our BIG day...
well we went in and wow, we were all like opening the scores pulling out scores and writing and teaching and going through the parts...
it was awesome as i could see them like wow, all doing wad was neccessary and then even going through the scores... even weiting! haha, she performed really well for a first timer...
good job ppl=D LOVE you guys sooooooooooooo much!

yea and we went on as usual...
paulina sent me a msg saying maybe she can go... so i brought along her shoes...
carried it with me everywhere i went.
when we were in backstage, i was quiet... percussionist would notice...
well... i was hoping to see that run the corner, she would come running...
however that din happen...
so after the performance, i really would like to commend us...
love them all deep deep...
not bragging here but as a senior, the joy is there when finally you see potentials unlocked
in your section plus everybody trying their best and succeeded!!!
this is the kind of joy i am feeling, and not because we got a gold...

yea after the performance was also quiet, everybody was we did it!!! we did it!!!
while i was in a corner feeling sad and dissappointed that paulina wasn't here with us...

too everyone in co, even if we got a silver, i really dun wish anyone will blame paulina...
she tried her best to keep the section in order, almost felt like giving up being an SL...
she practised hard for this SYF, especially in her taifeng. her paizi for jiang jun ling...
i hope yall can see her efforts and understand how she felt when she cnt make it...
our success, for the percussionists today was because of her...
that we all did it and unlocked another level in our potential because we didn't want to dissappoint our SL...
from my point of view, everything i saw percussion doing, Paulina was the driving force for us and especially for me...
She's dear to me as well as the other percussionists...
up till this point i really hope everyone can encourage her...
and to Paulina,
Thanks alot girl=D
Thanks...

dental and 2.4km

2009-04-17T06:49:00.000-07:00

today at the start went for morning run...
gain weight leh...
maybe cos ytd night eat tang yuan... shld be...

then assembly
crap as usual.... then the shushi prefect was presenting on cheating anf integrity...
LOL!!
ok... then starting first two periods was P.E.
had our weekly run... 2.4km...
first round - ok
second round - breathing like mad... dunnoe why???
third round - about to die...
fourth round - i saw Aslam infront so i caught up next to him and i said im gonna walk...
he said dun josh... last round! slow jog...
so i was...hmmm alrite for Aslam and for passing...
so i continued to run... it was torture....
i ran like i was running for my life.
so pass the first round
and Aslam was go josh...
and he keep repeating that...
i was like ASLAM!!!! STOP SAYING!!!! BREATHE DAMMIT!!!
so i told him you oso go... at the lsat bend we ran in tgt
and i died...
12-13min... i died...

then recess and DNT and C.O.
it was ok somehow... then towards the end Ms Ma and a band member came in...
talk to her cos C.O. was boring and...
yeah went home...
cos i got a dental appointment

LOL.... the dental appointment has its pros and cons...
LOL!!!
Pros...
-Very Chio dentist
-Did some ***** stuff (110% accidental)
-shes got nice eyes
-2hours of pleasure
-May get an MC to excuse O lvl Oral =D

LOL!
Cons...
-Permanent removal or right molar
-2hours of pain
-3 jabs to numb your mouth...
-3days of pain...
-Might need to go surgery
-Unable to talk/ eat well

nice eh?
wanna know the details talk to me=D
lols... to paiseh to post liao...LOL...
so my mouth is hurting alot...

plus i dunnoe how to brush my mouth... crap...
ok i sign of today...
really thank God for Aslam=D

cross country

2009-04-10T07:04:00.000-07:00

LOL!! im bloggang

shall post bout ytd ok?
well was the X-country for our school...
suppose to meet at 6pm @BB interchange...
somehow i set the wrong alarm!!
LOLs... i set it to 5:15am...haha instead of 4:30am
sian so rush get ready and left home...

then when i reached saw djalil and gordon so walked with them to the bus interchange.
then when we got there saw daniel and shihui...
wow the sight at the 852 busstop was surprising...
because it was packed with ppl...
like sardines... and the time interval for each 852 bus was about 30mins?
yea so waited for the rest of the class to come...
then there was the irony about XingYan...
She wrote on the board the day before to meet @bb-interchange at 6PM SHARP!
lols... she reached at 6:45am... nicee=D
haha..

then ltr when the everyone reached, hongming came with jodie and peijin...
after that a bus came, decided not to board it.
so daniel went to queue up for the bus...
and when the next one came i waited for heelon cos he was behind in the queue.
so i waited at the sideline and lols heelon, hongming, jodie, peijin and me dint board cos too full...
lols...
so we boarded the bus at 730am =D
when reporting time was 7am... haha.. somehow we got there faster and there was so much space on the bus =D

then we assembled in some grassy area... so much ants!!! irritating...lols...
then a conversation started
Gordon: why only me and josh tio(irritated by the ants) why you(Hongming) and heelon bo tio?
Hongming: because i put insect repellent.
the next thing that happen hongming shouted F@#K LAH!!! then he slapped he leg!
LOLS.... cheap repellent i say~
then me and Aslam out of boredom began picking things up from the ground and started throwing them at other ppl...lols... jokes!

the run started and i was supposed to run with leon, gordon and heelon...
somehow lost them cos i went ahead of em...
then saw until Aslam and we ran all the way till the roadside...
then we started walking...
it was long and the route was going up and down up and down three times!!!!
so i told Aslam we jog uphill and walk downhill to balance the pace... tried it the first time and nearly killed me... cos when running through the forest trail my left ankle started hurting...
so manage to run to the first CheckPoint on the roadside. then we started walking and when we arrived at the next CP the teacher which looked like Mr Kamal was telling us to gogogogogo...
so me and Aslam counted 1,2,3 then we shouted and run...
Aslam was like Yea man YEAAAAA!!!! i was like STEEEEEEEADY ARHHHHHH!!!lols

we did the same for the third and last CP and the teacher i think was shahadah, she was like are they mad? LOL...
so 100m away was the turn in to the finishing...
Aslam suddenly had a pain in his back and so I helped him and supported him and we both ran till we saw the finish line and we sprinted over... let Aslam go in first XD...haha....

the thing i hated most is that the school this year so budget sia!!!
run finish only get a cup of water??!?!?!?!?!? summore from the tap in the toilet????
wads happening????WTH!!!!
really cnt stand it... was sulking for a minute till i saw the water cooler...=D
lols...

then after that got the prize presentation and stuffs which was so unneccessary...
Dismissed and off to lot1 and watch movie....
Caught "The Sniper"
was awesome... really veryvery good show to catch...
then towards the end Gordon went to the toilet and was stuck in there cos both his legs got cramp... we left the five of us in the theatre, Leon, Heelon, Gordon, Danny and me...
i was so facinated with the show i kept pointing my hand at danny imagining i was holding a sniper rifle and started "shooting" them. they all give the sian face...HAHAHA....srysry...
really too nice le =X

went home and rotted... uh huh... finally had my full game of dota...
after a week of un-finished or interupted games...haha....
anyways quite good already luh... not so much gaming already...
ok ima blogg till here, gonna sleep now tmr have CO...=D
nights ppl, stay beautiful as oways =D

unbelieveable

2009-04-04T19:48:00.000-07:00

LOLs!!! backky...
dun have the blog bug with me...lols...

anyways i just came from facebooking...
i did a stupid quiz on which CCA suits you best.
guess wad
that stupid lame shitty meaningless CCA said that the best CCA FOR ME IS.....
GIRL GUIDES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DANG ITS ON MY FACEBOOK!!!!!

C'MON CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
nearly broke my computer screen...JKJKJK XD.
anyways sorry if i dun update that often...
i mean i've got my wakeup call along with most students in history lesson...
so i felt guilty... not studying and revising...
so yea...
i am spending more time with my notes, books, worksheets...
Leon's oso got impacted by Mr Lim's lesson for life right...LOL
he's oso studying hard...like a rock!!!
this year is really crucial...

For me other then depending on myself, i oso need God's Guidence.
I noe he will guide me and help me pull through...
I came across two verses in the bible.
the first is,
"Seek first the Kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things(desires of the heart)will be given unto you. Matthew 6:33
and the second is
"Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength."Nehemiah 8:10

i thought about this for a moment and well i find it helpful to me now in this year.
many students are under stress due to work and often give up or are on the brink of it.
well thats why i think for me i really need God's help.
through the two verses, the promises of God says,
Seek first the Kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things(desires of the heart)will be given unto you.
the desires of my heart is to pass Os=D and so if you seek first his kingdom and righteousness,
then God will be happy, LOL~ then when he's happy there comes JOy and
from the second verse the joy of the lord is my STRENGTH!
strength to endure through this year to get good results...

i dunnoe bout yall out there but all the best for this year's O leavers=D
Next sat is my church's easter... i have a list of ppl whom i wanna invite, i shall ask them tmr... praying hard that they will be free.
ok i shall stop here,
till then, stay beautiful~

2009-03-30T05:41:00.000-07:00

Happy Birhtday Peijin!!!!
today's her birthday.=D

in the morning woke up late...
nearly forgot to bring the attire for the performance...
totally forgot to bring Peijin's gift...
Best!

then had lessons...
then recess...
followed by mother tongue... i somehow dozed off... -.-
then ltr it was chem... TPS came in...
she returned 2 tests...
YAY!!!!lols
i got 15/20 and the other i got 16/20...
haha=D
happy!

then after that Zan came in and talked about responsibilities...
thats when i left for the performance.
when i open te door, the handle came out...
heng it came out long ago.
and debbie thought i was too nervous till i actually pull it out.
LOL
went C.O. moved instruments changed
and performed...
haha
overall general command quite good.
but Ms lim said perc din do taifeng so was quite out.
SEE!!!!!
i tell lerh... need do taifeng!!!!
zzzz.... even though your doing it, you need to make it more obvious can?

ltr went remedials and homed.
around 7 left house and go Peijin's house pass her the gift =D
her house so easy to go. it was like just in front of the busstop.
but if you walk to the 188 busstop, haha... far like siao!
i walked mah just now...
poor her plus all the others staying there...
walk so farrrrrrrr!!!!
lols...
ok i go lerhs goodbye...
(feeling cranky as usual)

sat and monday

2009-03-23T02:59:00.000-07:00

Hahahahahaha! today im blogging!
lol? (im retarded)

nvm i blog about wad happen on saturday first=D
(random) i just feel like blogging, dun ask so much =D

Saturday:
today wokeup at um....600am?
i forgot.... but i only know that i cannot find my performance tee
so got into my black pants shoes and socks and with my P.E. shirt, dashed out of the house.
was late cos reporting time was 7.00 and the time then was already 650am
yup took a cab, called paulina and she was still at the busstop waiting for 188.
coincidentally, waillon too was late. so i cab to his house after that to school.
lucky got him can share cab fee =D
LOL!!!!!

ok so went R.I. realised that they had all the instruments there.
cept for my Yun Luo. ya so practically bring the instruments for nothing?
hmm... yea... we were supposed to be the last to perform but somehow a little changes were made. mmhmm... and in the end we performed and went out.
was told we are going back to the auditorium so my zhichuen and wailoon moved the Yun Luo down.
When i was sec1, a senior i forgot who told me, whenever got instruments around, somebody MUST take care!
so, see-ing that nobody wants to take care of it or even thought of taking care of it, i took care of it and was standing next to it=D
suddenly i heard msLim calling everyone to gather and somehow she scolded everyone.
from wad i found out, i heard that percussionists did not tuck in the shirts.
hmmm, we were moving the instruments duh...-.- how you expect the shirts to be in when we are stretching and carrying the instruments.( when you lift the instrument you have to stretch).
okok i act abit liao=D
wonder why i said"from wad i found out"?
haha cos when mslim was scolding the orchestra, there on the first floor was teeny weeny little me next to the bigbig yun luo=D
haha so 'pon' the scolding.

and when everyone came down, my everyone was either emo-ing, cursing or black in the face.
lucky tyco me =-D

ok after we returned to school, went to eat with debbie and cassandra at the coffeeshop.
then rushed down with leon to woodland civic. why?
cos i was having a drum 'competition' that day.
Lame one. waited and waited for my turn. cos there was violin section and then guitar section lastly drums.
LASTLY!!!!!!zzzz
anyway got some chiobus to see luh... other then that there was this little imp next to me.
he was a grade 3 drummer and he was just after me. then he tried to act 'pro'. LOL
my gosh cos i grade 2 nia. yah too bad for him, he dinnoe even though i am a grade 2, i had 4 years experience in an orchestra. LOL. he was irritating and keep telling me "i want to win~"
i was like... Tsk c'mon, got me how you win sia... tsktsktsk...LOL!
cos i predicted that me, jeremy and denise would win. guess wad, i was third jeremy second and denise the champion. err... to be exact, they changed denise position with mine.
My guess cos they dunwanna disappoint young girls.
why my guess? cos at the end of the song, she rushed!!!!! she ended 3 seconds before the song finish... yups... jeremy did ok, was on the dot cept one part where he hit the hi hat instead of ride cymbal and changed back. yup. as for me, on the dot no mistakes!!!!AHHHHHHH
nvm luh third jiu third lorh.... still got trophy and a photo with AYY inside.... right leon? LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!

after rushed to tuition... had tuition till 945pm and then dad came and fetch me... had dinner at 10pm and block 429 carpark... got new western and my brothers wanna give it a try...
then when i ordered, they each say lemme try and in the end one eat half the other eat half...
amazing! so went home and cook noodles...LOL... yea saturday nearly killed me...

the today, Monday... i shall skip to english remedials where YSM said every snap of your finger, someone around the world dies. um... its like because there is so manymanymanymany people out there that the deathrates are machiam as easy as snapping of your fingers.
Well... i was going home and as the lift began to go up, i was thinking, was happens if YSM snap his fingers and suddenly he kills himself? like he goes snap and then he stops breathing and falls down flat.LOL!!!!!
i will laugh till i die i tell you!!!
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
that will be joke of the universe... LOL!!!
okok borther tuition cher come liao, bb

class outing

2009-03-19T06:13:00.000-07:00

today in the morning.....
nothing to do lah!!!

all dad's fault. go keep the modem...
kinda shitty lah!

i mean he says i am oways on the computer playing games...
i study before he comes home and when he comes home i am already playing just started.
izzit wrong?
then if i play the whole afternoon, and do homework when they come back, they will oso scold me for playing the whole afternoon.
tell me is this crap?
well... YES!!!!!!!

and then during the holidays as i mention, dad kept the modem.
win liao lah!!!!
why i say this?
cos he keep the modem, and if he comes home and see me doing my homework
(i do my homework so when he come home i can go online)
then he think wah if i keep the modem, joshua will study.
do you think he will give back the modem? str8 in your face, NO!!!!!
then lets think from another angle.
if i din study and he comes home to see me watching tv, do you think he will return?
NO!!!!! why?
cos he will say you whole day watch tv how to give you back the modem, liddat you will whole day play computer.
so again he wun return even if i did study or did no study.

best!
today^^
went out with leon gh gordon danny heelon and myself.
went to watch mall cop at JP.
funny show=D
then head over to causeway to watch Coming soon.
that show dam scary luh.
but i've seen scarier ones. haha=D this show coming soon have impact when watching after left the theatre no impact liao.
haha.
then went home.

now finally got a few minutes to use the comp so blog first.
family went out for a movie.
so im alone.

yea shall blog till here yo.
goodnight=D

tired

2009-03-14T08:53:00.001-07:00

WOW!

ok, im very tired now!!
why cos the whole day was having activities, with CCA, CO
could say i stood for like 8 hours today?
legs tired...

anyways i was early for CO. reached at about 8?
and then was briefing by ms lim till 815 and then
Full Orchestra till 1100am.

i stood throughout.
why? cos im in Percussion!
i need to stand! during SYF Percussionist can nvr sit! unless they are playing a instrument that is very low!
and plus if you dun train standing up,
on the stage your legs will be tired and you will end up leaning on one leg which is very VERY UGLY!!!!!!
how get gold?

next is tapping of feet.
during the rehearsal today, i noticed alot of tapping of feet.
it shows that you need to rely on sth to count and tapping the feet is very very un professional too.
how get gold, once again.

Third, taifeng!
i dunwan to say other sections cos they did their taifeng.
but my section, jiawei and me are doing taifeng.
wailoon and zhichuen are oso making an effort to do taifeng.
but pls to tricis and paulina, i oso noe you are doing taifeng, but not really that obvious!
for tricia i saw you, you got do can see but need move more.
why? cos the other two schools today, the students who plays the vibraphone, all nvr do taifeng so if you do it, you'll stand out which is good.
next oso paulina, really need to work HARD on your taifeng.
when you play the muyu, move your head, as in nod it each time you hit and try to bend your knees a little, makes you look like your INTO the music.
tricia oso the same every time you hit a note, bend abit.
yup, that should do the trick=D

after that went baack to school, debrief-ed and guess wad, wailoon and zhichuen got praised, why?
cos they did a little taifeng.
so wad did i say? if you do taifeng, become shuaige le!!!
so MUST DO TAIFENG!!!!!!!!!

then walked with paulina to mrt, saw phuisee, caleb, serene, joseph, keith and nicole.
joined them for dinner at JP.
very long nvr see them, so need to meet up with them.
spent 16 for dinner!
but worth it.=D

talked to karin today!!!
sooooo happy~LOL
ya, im gonna sleep now, very tired le, goodnights!
=D

long time no blog

2009-03-07T05:21:00.000-08:00

haha!

im back for today.
cos currently at cousins house with nothing to do but blog.
rare chance=D

yups.
today had C.O. in the morning
was late but nvm.
then blahblahblah.
was reading the papers during practise before break.

then after break had full orchestra.
Is something wrong with my gong? cos i saw the bass instructor looking at me a couple of times.
maybe too loud?
too bad, my jiang jun come out must loud de, let everybody noe.
HAHA!

then later went westmall with the committee.
had some meeting on next years batch comm.
well, mac was full so i joined the SLs in deciding next years SLs.
so there was Jackline(dunnoe how to spell) huiying, debbie, genesis, peijin and me.
6 of us. went burger king to eat and discuss..
I'm like soo blur la. alot of ppl oso dunoe. bad senior. NO! anti-social senior.
yup, sounds better=D

then while discussing, when come to plucking strings section, peijin was sooooo blur la.
funny girl lor.
she like think of somebody then say the name.
and like those names she said are those we cancel out a few seconds ago.
LOL.
then later went back mac to meet up with the rest.
zzz. go there saw ms lim and the rest.
they combined a whole row of tables, machiam conference table liddat.
and really looked like they were having a conference at macs.

haha. later went home with debbie and peijin.
then they alighted at cck and i homed=D

till now din do much. tmr sure do homework.
yups... see yall soon readers, if there are still any.
goodnight.

LOVES 5n2'09

2009-02-26T05:15:00.000-08:00

LOLs... the only thing i can describe my class this year over the pass 3 days,
is LAUGHTER
lols...
okok, thinking back, hmmm maybe it would have been the start of last year where class 4n2'08 has been describe as laughter already. =D

haha over the last three days, its laughter in every period cept mother tongue.
chinese sucks...
zzz ilovechinese, ilovechinese~

yea and its like even after school there's bound to be laughter...
even when half the class is gone this year, the laughter remains...
i really wanna cherish this year with this class more then ever.

time flies and soon it would be grauduation day whr all of us would split and go different paths...
thinking about it makes me wanna cry... seriously...
i'm so glad i'm in this class, thank God for you all...
really...

so, ima gonna spend wadever time i can spare with this class...
all my frens...=D
all my laughing buddies... Uber combo gay laughters...
hahahaha=D

and today, one of the laughters that occurred was because LOL of khairil.
he shaved. ok this is part one.
then during chinese the textbook was about shaolin and its history and the monks and all...LOL
ok part 2.
then anisa has a orange jacket and as everybody noes, khairil is representing singapore in silat, a malay fighting sport.yup part 3. LOL
ok so during english he was trying to wear anisa'a jacket!!!LOL
then since its orange, and he is bald.....LAUGHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HE LOOK LIKE A MONK LAH!!!!!
SUMMORE HE NOES SILAT, WHICH MEANS REALLY MACHIAM SHAOLIN MONK!!!!!
LOLS. VERY FUNNY WAS LAUGHING FOR 15 MINS HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

and sorry about this random post... really lazy to try and rmb wad has happened over the lsat three days...
but thinking about the three days, there is only one similarity, there is laughter...
hahaha so yea, hence this post...
Gosh i feel like eating satay...
sry for the super random-ness...
haha

anyway nightnight=D

blogging from school

2009-02-23T18:14:00.000-08:00

I am in school now. =D
lol...

i think Mr Zan can see... i dunoe there is this programme.. dang!!!

anyway today is a fine day at school=D
no scoldings yet. shldn't have in the first place...

why its sucha nice day, cos Today is the Day that the lord has made...

blog till now..=D
ltr kena scolding lols...
byes=D

lols

2009-02-18T05:42:00.001-08:00

OK!

lols... today confirm must blog=D

haha
ok in school, dnt mother tongue, recess history, all boring subs.
but hey who was to know the last 3 periods...fun!

This is just a minor enjoyment,
during english, Djalil noticed hweeling wore her socks insideout!!!
both legs then he go tell Jaga.
then they were laughing lah, then ltr i ask jaga told me i a laughed so loud Mr Yoong ask us to share the joke. XD
then i said no obviously, it would be so embarrassing for her.
then djalil and jaga told tajuddin and sadesh while i told ruoning, danny and joseph
i tell you within 15mins the whole class laughing like siao until Mr Yoong asked,
wads wrong with 5n Classes? laugh for no reason.
then sadesh said Mr Yoong whole class noe already except you!
then Mr Yoong said then share it with me.
Sadesh said but first we need someone go in front. be model.
then Mr Yoong called me... -.-
then sadesh and jaga all said NO!!!
and they ask hweeling go.
then Mr Yoong gave a puzzled look and asked why her
then jiewei said cos she wear her socks tombalek
LOL! then dunnoe who shout opposite sides?
then Mr Yoong said its inside out!
everybody laughed louder and hweeling's face was red machiam tomato la!
LOLs... even Mr Yoong went to have a quick peek. *Laughs*

then after english i went to return Leon's book
then when i came back to class, Ms Wan
was standing in front with Mr Yoong=D
lemme tell you Ms Wan is hot man!
LOL...

then Mr Yoong was like, if you cnt control the class let me know and stuff liddat,
acting hero as oways...LOL
but when he left, everybody paid really good "attention"LOL
Jaga said some stuffs that made me laugh till i neaerly falled down!
LOLs.... so during her whole lesson, there were some occasional laughing due to sick jokes.
LOLs...and then Mr Ang came in.
LOLs

hes a funny teacher la...LOL
first when he came in we keep disturbing him.
then before Ms Wan left i noticed she a Hi to him...
haha, next time can disturb him already.
then i told him about heelon all the big tattoos he got.
LOL and he my boss and stuff liddat, very funny he oso said he scared of heelon.
LOL!
keep laughing la. then ltr after all that commotion, ruoning was behind the class screaming
and then oh, there was a tiny green worm crawling on the floor.LOL
then weihao picked it up say its jiewei's lunch cos he duck.LOL
then ltr he pass to the teacher and then Mr Ang put it on his marker!
LOL then in the end he say his going to throw it out of the window,
then everybody was like
AHHHH!!! NOOOOO!!!!! DUN KILL IT!!!!! HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF SOMEONE THROWED YOUR LUNCH OUT OF THE WINDOW!!!!!!!!
LOLs crap!!!!
hahahahaha...
then he was about to throw it out then ltr the aircon water drop on him cos it was leaking and he was like
hey! who throw things at me.
i chittao say NO the aircon water dripped on you!!!
Again the whole class roared with laughter!!!
omgosh... yea and after that he put the worm on the floor and then after a while he was like eh? whr is it.
then we OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
assuming he stepped on it... but nvr... =D
hes so funny.LOLs
haha, if he was our physics teacher, i think we'll all die,
die from laughing...LOL
haha.

yup thats my day today, goodnights=D

boo!

2009-02-17T05:27:00.000-08:00

haha=D

lols... back again at my blog...
got some things i wanna write about...

its about the class... like today um... someone was eating larhx...
i mean its ok to eat in the class but at least eat at the right moment mah...
some ppl nvr eat breakfast, but they bring their own bread or sandwiches to eat during recess
liddat eat will make them bth then oso tempted to eat de...

and secondly is i really dunnoe wads wrong with a few particular students in my class.
esp(b1, b2, b3) this three students esp.
i mean, a student's responsibility is to learn, and the teacher's responsibility is to teach.
well how can you blame the teacher of being lousy when he/she teaches but majority of the class cnt understand.
well yea, there might be a problem, but continuous requesting for a change of teachers is too much.
example maths.
Mr Clayton Lim, the class somehow or rather complains he doesn't teach properly.
Cos in class he oways have mistakes. and that majority of the class dun understand him.
Well if you wanna complain, why dun you ask yourself wad have you been doing when he was teaching?
why is it that i can understand the topic while you can't?
did you take down notes yourself?
huh? well i did. its all in my maths notebook.

another example would be for SS.
Why do you say Ms auyong sucks?
ok yup she does, lols, but wads your reason?
well your reason was particularly this, that she doesn't provide notes.
Wad is this?since when is it a teacher's job to give you notes?
WE, as students shld be the one coming out with our own notes and not getting them from the teacher.
Why yall dun like her when she din give you notes?
well cos your are just simply spoonfed to the max, undeserving.
and why is it that when there is a test on SS, just because you din study, does it gives you the right to postpone it?
and wad happens when she said it was SBQs?
well, you just agreed and said "chey can la"
WAD IS THIS???!?!?!??!?! HYPOCRITES!!!!!
you said you din study one moment and then the next you said CHEY?

somemore when a teacher comes in, she speaks really well and her method seems better by abit,
wad gives you the rite to call her superb and better then Mr Clayton?
How do you think he feel?
Have you put yourself in his shoes?
Still one of you summore wans to become a teacher...
Expect your just desserts then...
Mr Clayton Lim, even though he makes mistakes, nvr mark homework on time and sent me out of the class once, i still RESPECT him as a teacher.
Which human being on earth nvr made any mistakes before?
And do you think teachers are oways so free that marking your worksheets is a must?
you think he teach our class only arh?
WAKEUP PLS!!! GROW UP AND BE MORE SENSIBLE FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!!
you think nobody notice wad you do in class?
when he was teaching one of you were sleeping.
so why cant you understand? cos your in dreamroom, not classroom.

Seela!, make me so angry.
i could feel the anger stirring up in me lah.
i really dun care whether anybody see this post or whether THEY see this.
anyway my blog is like a town in the middle of nowhere, where visitors are few so i dun literally care.
well if you think that all i have said gives you the right to shout/ scold me, i still haven say about the P.E Groupings plus your arrogant behaviour in class.
continue being biased against teachers and see wad i'll do.
i'll tear up every petition requesting for a change of Mr clayton Lim.
unless you pay attention, absolute attention when he is teaching and really dun understand.
dun give the crap saying when Ms Ma teach you, you got A1.
cos i'll spit at that reason.

if B1, B2 and b3 EVER COMES HERE,
do some self reflection...

to all my frens, i am only pissed at those three, not you all k?
goodnights
(Sharon, i'll post your mogu another day)=D

zzz

2009-02-16T02:30:00.000-08:00

today was good except during chinese...
cher kinda pisses me off...
i just don't like her method of teaching.

what would you prefer if you were a teacher,
1) students hand in work on time without bringing it home but anyhow does it
or
2) students who hand in late by 1 or 2 days but does it attentively?

which one would you choose if your a teacher?
for me i would take number 2.
but my cher she just insist that one is the way...
one word to descirbe, Blockhead...=.=

then after that had to stay for MT remedial and then English...
crap~
ltr went lot1 with leon, debbie and Gordon but he went off earlier as his stop has arrived.
some stuffs happened..
But i wasn't involved, or shld i say i was not suppose to by involve, dun blame me.
Cos this time round, if i am the one to be blamed, i really got nothing to say.

And for us guys,
when we give presents to girls, i believe that the more the girl mean to me, the bigger the gift i want to give her on Valentines.
I know that sometimes parents wouldn't except gifts whose price are astronomical,
but still you do not necessary have to show it to your parents.

And yeah, i do admit that gift is really too expensive.
so it would be tough for her to keep it understand?
i mean if your a parent and one day your daughter comes home with a diamond necklace.
what will be the first thing you would think?
obviously like which guy stole that for you?
lols i noe maybe not "stole" lah but for me will be yea... stole.
Cos young students shldn't have that kinda money to buy one of those necklaces,
and even if they got that much money, a parent would nvr let their kids spent that huge amount of money.

Ok, i noe i everyone has their own thinking so do the parents.
but a 3 digit gift is really alot for me already.
so yea, not trying to take sides but thats wad i feel.
somehow or rather because of this, i think that friendships will be broken?
i really hope it doesn't turn out liddat.

yep so i blog till here today=D
gonna watch my galactic football, byebye

happy V day

2009-02-14T06:47:00.000-08:00

today is valentines....
i mean yea, hope yall have a good day tgt with your love ones.
but for me, as usual nothing really change cept recently met sharon=D
yea... had parent teachers meeting and then went off to church with elena=D

at least got ppl to accompany=D
and after svc had cell and after went grandmother house...
plain boring rite my day....

lucky got sharon=D lol.
this thurs going movies with her =D
Dun jealous and those who know the truth,
SHHHHHHHHHHHH
=D
thanks alot and goodnight LOL

how??

2009-02-14T05:57:00.001-08:00

This is sharon. =D

haha.... shes as nice as the sweetest and cutest thing on earth dun be jealous hor you ppl out there=D
haha LOL

since today nobody gave her anything,

i shall give her sth...=D
this is wad i'll give her=D

hee, a pink rose, wad she wanted =D this is our secret, me and hers and if you wan to find out, go find her...

hahahaha...XD

a day with sharon

2009-02-12T06:06:00.000-08:00

HAHA, imback =D

lols today had school as usual and....
TPS wasn't in a very nice mood today.
Chinese was just as boring, as usual...
Recess, ate in class=D woohoo saved money=D
english got back compre at least i passed=D
15/30, Mr Yoong said i did not put in my best...
well i guess i chose wrong topic...

ok then after school went for DNT remedial till 3 and off to aunty dawn's house.
i tot suppose to have tuition and in the end passed her the file only...
=D
and to much surprise, i met sharon
nvr talk for very long liao...
we went mac and i did my hist homework there while she read the book for driving...
Sharon, you taking the test must tell me leh, i cope the triangle from my school and mark the road for you... LOL haha
sunbian clear the way... haha=D

ok i think i go sleep le bah, goodnights
=D

chinese

2009-02-09T01:34:00.000-08:00

Chinese sucks man!!!
esp my chinese teacher.... but ohwell...
cnt do anything about it D=

i failed my chinese test la!
21.5/70
Im doing good in my other subs but chinese is just....
not my forte... if only i am allowed to say that...
(downcasted look)

anyways haha, im now in love with a chinese song la!!!!
it so suits valentines too, haha...
lols...
see what music can do^^
haha...
ok i am going to do my DnT case study already, byebye=D
i'll put the song up soon, promise ^^

Double Bubble=D

2009-02-03T06:11:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAHA!!!!

today confirm must post!!!
LOL~

guess wad, hahaha...
ok, it started when heelon bought us bubble gum from malaysia.
and ytd danny was chewing on his gum blowing one bubble, and then it pops and he blows another...

standard yea?
haha yupps, perfectly normal with that but why am i so excited?

GUESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~
hahahahaha~~~
bass boom drummas=D~
(sorry blog song) XD

cos i asked him to try blowing 2 bubbles one by one without bursting the first one, and he can't do it.

And cos today was my turn to chew the bubble gum, cos i brought it too school duh~
(scared ppl think danny chew until today then pass to me, GROSS!!!! bigtime)

anyways yea, was chewing and so i rmb wad i asked him, i tried and soon was wondering how to do it, WHILE LISTENING TO TEACHERS!!!!!(miraculous)
cos during 07 malaysia overseas trip, i rmb sinyee did that and there was two.
so i tried and I DID IT!!!!!

TWO BUBBLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha

ok i post until here bah....
my dad barged into the room and bellowed at me to go to sleep so that he can use the comp.
haha sorry was trying to put my vocabs into practise.

i really go liao, byebye=D
3254TP rocks my socks^^

sick =.=

2009-01-31T03:43:00.000-08:00

hellos, its been a while since i last post. agreed?
lols anyway no one comes around so nvm =D

anyway i here blogging is cos im sick...
got flu, fever, cough, dizziness, body aches and runny nose...

speaking of runny nose, lemme share with you a poem
Mr Yoong gave us about english...

title is THE IRONY

Let's face it
English is a stupid language.
There is no egg in the eggplant;
No ham in the hamburger
and neither pine nor apple in the pineapple.
And no one knows what is in a hot dog,
you can be pretty sure it isn't canine.
English muffins were not invented in England;
French fries were not invented in France.

We sometimes take English for granted.
But if we examine its paradoxes we find that
Quicksand takes you down slowly.
Boxing rings are square.
And a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.
Sweetmeats are candies, while sweetbreads,
which are sweet, are meat.

If writers write, how come fingers don't fing.
If the plural of tooth is teeth,
One goose, two geese,
So one moose, two meese?
Is cheese the plural of choose?
One mouse, two mice; one louse, two lice,
One house, two hice?
Shouldn't the plural of phone booth be phone beeth?
If the teacher taught, why didn't the preacher praught,
Or the grocer groce, or hammers ham?

If a vegetarian eats vegetables,
Guess what a humanitarian eat!?!?!?!?!??!
Why do people recite at a play,
Yet plat at a recital?
Park on driveways and drive on parkways?
Ship by truck, and send cargo by ship...?
Have feet that semll and noses that run?
How can the weather be as hot as hell on one day
and as cold as hell on another

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy
Of a language where a house can burn up as
It burns down,
And in which you fill in a form
by filling it out
And a bell is only heard once it goes!
how can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same,
while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?

English was invented by people, not computers
And it reflects the creativity of the human race
(which of course isn't a race at all)
That is why
You get in and out of a car, and on and off a bus.
When the stars are out they are visible
But when the lights are out they are invisible.
And why is it that when i wind up my watch
it starts,
But when i wind up this poem,
It ends.

Nice poem eh?
haha looks like english also has its wonders, like maths =D
anyways, very sian now.
see ya soon =D
goodnights

2009 Prayer

2009-01-03T06:59:00.001-08:00

I've been reflecting on what i have done in 2008.
since just now when i got home.
Even though this year flew by really fast,
Many things happened.
My life changed for the better!
but sadly it still needs more changes.

Since this year is a really crucial and important year as i have my O lvls.
well, i'm in sec 5.(i'll explain how i feel about this later)

just now before i got home, sth happen and what tiffany said affected me,
like woke me up. That got me reflecting on the past year and what i have done.
my life changed yea? yeah. but there are still some areas in my life where i am lazy, i get myself in-debt(dunnoe how to handle money) and my blurness and carelessness that got me into money-borrowing.

The past year that went by just like that,
ok i did do a good job as an usher head, but there is still room for improvements
like reporting on time.
but thats for ushering. what about in cell? as a leader?
I admit that i have nothing as a cell leader for 2008.
Thats what made me very sad and disappointed, with myself.

i always gave myself that excuse that cos tiffany came in and so she somewhat took on the role of CL. but thats just an excuse to run away from my duty.
this is not Tiffany's fault.
It's mine.

so this year, to Noella and Jake, since you appointed me Cell Leader, I will change and really be a leader in cell. I will step out of my comfort zone.
I really need god to help me with this.
When they chose me as cell leader, i was quite.... like had the shitty feeling like why they wanna choose a failure like me, who cnt even stop a cell member who was fooling around. That made Noella disappointed in me. and it all happened just now.

On the way home, the holy spirit spoke to me.
They wanna make me a cell leader is because God wants to give me another chance.

And about the Sec 5 thing i said just now, yea Junhong was like "hey Joshua, school start already rite? you noe in the afternoon orchard road is very empty?
haha i still on holidays man."

Ok i am not angry at him.
I just felt embarrassed. all my sec 4 frens they are CMs this year.
Jake, Wenhao, Karina, Phuisee.
all of them i mean i am same age as them and they are like mentoring me.
it gives me all rights to not listen to them. But it also tells me that i shld be the one to be a cell leader cos i have the experience for 2 years and i shld be mature enough to be a cell leader.
And about the comment junhong said to me, it really hurt me alot.
really really pain. but i am not angry with him. i'll just offer it up to God.

so for the next coming year,
here is my Prayer:

Dear God,
I come before you again.
I pray that you will be able to use me again.
I pray that you will guide me and allow me to dwell in your presence everywhere that i go that you will always be with me, watching over me.
dear God, help me to be a better leader this year.
Help me with the areas in my life which i am not so good at.
Areas like Responsibility and Money managing.
Dear God, I pray that you will give me responsibility to lead a cell and to raise an usher head for the next generation.
dear God, i also pray that you will help me manage my money too.
I dunwanna owe people money that i can't repay.
Dear God i pray that you would provide for my need because you, My God is a god who provides. Dear God i pray that you would grant my the insight to seperate good and evil. Help me to stand for the things that are righteous and to detest which that are bad. Let also the words that come out of my mouth be words of encouragement and words that you want to speak through me.
Dear God i pray that in this year you will lead me and to help me seek first your kingdom and your righteousness because after that, all these things shall me granted onto me. help me to place you in the center of my life because with you in the centre, everything will be pieced together. Dear God, i pray that you will guide me and lead me, take away too the hurt in my heart and grant me forgiveness to forgive those who hurt me. I commit all these in the name of my Lord Jesus Christ, Amen.

Happy Birthday JESUS!!!

2008-12-25T05:22:00.001-08:00

Hi.

i noe i've not come here for like ages?
hahas but now i am here=D
why?

cos i wanna wish someone a happy birthday today=D
well you see at the top of my blog, it says:
"For God so loved the world, that he sent his only son(down to earth) that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life."-John3:16
wad does this mean?

well it means God loves us so much, that he sent his only son, Jesus Christ, down to earth
just to save us all from going to hell that whoever believes in him, they will go to heaven where God and jesus is waiting for them now.

Which oso means that the day Jesus came down is....... TODAY!!!!!!
thats why is CHRISTMAS!!!!

and...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OFNiHVedwAs&feature=related

watch the video...

thats why today is very special for me and all christians out there.
Because we have the best gift anyone could ever give.
the Gift God has given us, His son, Jesus Christ, Which gave me Eternal Life.
Accept this gift! and you Will recieve all other gifts!!!

today was at church at 745am. (late already)
din eat anything yet.
Phuisee ask me whether i wanted caleb to packet BF for us but he dint in the end...
end up having gastrics.
and was singing in the choir thats why went to church so early
we were so in the mood for christmas.
Sang for 2 services. And i just wanna say, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS over and over and over again...

Happy birthday jesus, Jesus I Love You...=D
i miss choir.
Its sad that all good things have to end.
I miss my fellow brothers and sisters from crossroads too.
You'll always be remembered by me...

Always...
Happy birthday jesus...
Crying now.... byes...
all the good times and memories... touching luh.

Eunice is very nice =D
She got me a blue cup for christmas =D
She thinks about network whenever she sees me =D
She is also nice and friendly and i really love her present alot =D
like seriously, i love her present alot. deep deep, not kidding, seriously.

Pawned

2008-12-03T05:48:00.000-08:00

Today is the last day, last night of my freedom.
LOLs... parents coming back tmr.
no more audi-ing till 3am
no more dota-ing till 4am..
zzz...sian!!!!

Anyways ya!
actually i came with the intention to blog!
but i forgot wad i wanna tell you all...
sorry.

I wanna watch madagascar2!
I wanna watch Bolt!
I wanna watch masquerade!
lols... who wanna come?
My Movie Partner buisong me!!!
doubt she'll watch with me.

maybe i go ask my brother for life?
wasted haha... i planning something...
watched winx club and city of ember with my movie partner...
actually thats our first two shows?

lols... anyways city of ember is really nice go catch it^^
ok i wanna dota liao...
byebye=D

woohoo

2008-11-29T23:24:00.000-08:00

Lols... nvr come by here for awhile cos
everything is going insane for me.

Well you see, my parents brought my 2 brothers to wuxi in china
on holiday and so, you guessed it, i am alone at home with so much freedom.
this is definitely a rare chance alrite.

so i came here juz to change my blog song.
this song is the song i'll be singing with the choir at orchard road on
19,21 and 25dec.
yea so wanna let yall hear first^^
its a nice song.

ok god bless you, goodbyes
=D

The Lily

2008-11-25T23:10:00.000-08:00

Hellos...

ok just got back from aunty dawn's house.
She's my tuition teacher, a christian so everytime i leave her house,
i learn something more then just chinese get wad i mean?

ok i gotta go Crossroads soon, ima getting late.
so i try faster finish this post.

Today we went through a compre passage on Lilies.
Here it goes:

On a cliff, there was a lily.
around that lily was wild grass and yea it was just a lily plant.
it had not flowered yet so i look as though it was wild grass.
So the Lily said to itself, I wanna bloom, so that i noe that i am different from you, the wild grass.
So everday, the lily would tell itself i wanna flower, i wanna bloom.

However, the wild grass and the birds who flew by, always told the lily give it up.
Forget it. You are one of us now. there is nothing you can do. juz remain like this.
So everyday the grass and the birds laughed at the lily.
One day, the bud of the lily grown. and still the birds and grass laughed.
they told the lily that even if she flowered, nobody would see or admire the flower.
But the lily told itself, I bloom to tell myself i am a lovely flower.
I wanna bloom to prove my existence. So even if nobody looks or notice me, i still wanna bloom.

So after a period of time, under the laughter of the grass and the birds,
the lilly bloomed.
It bloomed the whitest and loviest flower.
When the grass and birds saw the flower, they stopped laughing and the birds flew off.

And soon because the flower bloomed, it started to reproduce.
so its pollen was carried by the wind and planted on the other parts of the cliff.
and soon after a longer period of time, the whole cliff was covered with lillies.
And then the valley was covered in lillies.

This is for all Christians out there.
We are like the lily, example in school.
You may be the only christian in your class.
You may be the only christian in your work place.
and many will laugh at you, outcast you, stay away from you or ridicule you.

But Fret Not!!!!
Be like the lily and yearn to bloom.
do not be influenced by the ppl of the world.
but rather let them be influence by you.
And soon, the whole cliff and valley will be covered with lillies.

Dwell in God's word daily.
and seek his righteousness. Only then his presence will follow you wherever you go.
God even look after the birds in the air, what more you?
So do not be afraid if your the only christian in your class.
Press on and lead a righteous life. Press on and flower for God.
Show the world how good is he.

I am oso the only christian in my class.
Do not be ashame, but be proud that you have a heavenly father watching over you.
YOU ARE A SON/DAUGHTER OF A KING!!!!!
So Would You walk the way God plan for you?
Will you let him use you?
God Bless You!

ok need to hurry to Crossroads now. Late!
lols byebye=D

sorry

2008-11-23T01:16:00.000-08:00

back again...

God is totally amazing.
thats wad i've got to say.
Whenever you have done something wrong, and you dunnoe how to solve it,
God is there.
He will first use sermons or ppl to juz come and talk to you tell you that your wrong and then he will provide a way for you to start "solving" your prob.
the rest is how much faith you put in God.

Today i went service in G1 and yea its the youth service.
Pastor Ronald was preaching and i am glad that i went for it because i missed it on Sat.
From the introduction i wrote, you obviously noe that something has gone wrong for me.
no doubt look at the earlier post.

So Pastor Ronald preached about the Beatitudes(dunnoe how spell) =.=
'Blessed are the Peacemakers; For they shall be called Sons of God-Matthew 5:9'
So his sermon convicted me.
He said in order to have peace, you need to be a peacemaker.
In order to be a peacemaker, you need to make peace with God and seek his righteousness.
Once you have done that, you can have peace and make peace with others.
You have the right to tell others wad they have done wrong.
Yes, in this world many will not like it.
Tell the person, Hey you noe, wad you did i dun think it was right, it hurt me alot. But you noe, i decided to forgive you. I hope you will not do it again because it is wrong.
That's how is shld be done, and not how i have done it.

I badly needed to seek peace with God. Cos of wad i did. My actions and such, hurt some ppl.
During the sermon, the holy spirit Convicted me. i confessed and prayed.
I asked how at the end of the sermon during the altar call.
I din went out because i was having a personal time with God. I made peace with him and sought help in the problems i made.
I reflected again with the Holy spirit and he showed me actions i did which is not wad a leader would do.

At the end, God is Good he has forgiven me, he even helped me think of wad i should say to the person i hurt the most, my SL.
After i prayed and after service, Paulina msged me, Wad is my prob and ask me to settle it once and for all.
See how good God is? I was asking how am i gonna approach her? and tell her i am sorry.
So i apologised and told her that i forgave her for wad she has done. Her reply was not so nice, but i apologised and i ask for peace.

Once again to paulina,
It was wrong of me to act the way that i did. Its hard on you being SL.
Even though i have hurt you, please noe that you once have hurt me.
and also i forgive you for that and sorry for wad i have done to you.
Its hard for you to let go and forget it, i noe cos i also couldn't let it go and i acted that way.
But i have already let it go so its up to you.
Some things you have done is also wrong, but it has become a habit for you.
So even though its hard to change, Pls try.
I am not the best senior around, so i do make mistakes.
Therefore, sorry.

steady like siao!

2008-11-22T05:19:00.000-08:00

hellos... i came from someone's blog.

that person sounded happy, so ima gonna sound happy too^^
wow it seems like i am the one whose the main character on that person's blog.
so happy^^

actually zhichuen shared the limelight with me...
but who cares^^

right.
apparently some ppl are juz not happy that me and zhichuen were too relaxed...
thats it.
Talking about zhichuen, you shld noe its from C.O.
no doubt, he's me junior.
so yea, some ppl are juz not happy we were too relaxed^^

lemme share the happy event that took place^^
on that day, out of 4 years in my life and zhichuen's 3 years,
we were trying to relaxed by not moving BIG instruments and apprently some ppl,
sad were not happy leh!!!
i oso saw with my eyes and zhichuen's that that person was juz moving instruments out of co room,
waiting for others to come take it.
then i saw that person coming out from toilet.

wah better dun continue...
let that person reflect. 3years, how long i tahan.
but, sadly that ever smiling smile on my face, no more...
so its been a nice day.
I prepared my speech liao.
juz waiting for the time to use it, regardless of place and ppl.

Today almost use it ok,
lucky the person second floor i at first floor if i shout liao.
but nvr...

oh my gosh, i nid my cool rhino now...
BYES...

Rhinooooooooooo, whr are you????

those days

2008-11-18T04:24:00.000-08:00

Juz finished talking to someone.
wonder if that someone still got come by this blog.
its not that i have feelings for that person but that person was once part of my life.
really treasured that person.
but... i dunnoe why we endup liddat.

So if that someone happens to pass by,
i hope this song brings back those memories.
I'm sorry if i have hurt you in anyway.

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear,
you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you,
and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I used to reach for you when
I got lost along the way.
I used to listen.
You always had just the right thing to say.
I used to follow you.
Never really cared where we would go,
Fast or slow, to anywhere at all.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that
I'd see.We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you,
and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I look around me,
And I want you to be there'
Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.
It's empty, and you're sad'
Cause you miss the love that we had.

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around,
The only one around.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear,
you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?
Yeah.To how it used to be.
To how it used to be, yeah.
To how it used to be.
To how it used to be.

that's the song.
goodnight=)

JoyJoyJieJie wedding dinner

2008-11-17T05:07:00.000-08:00

Hi once again.
been awhile since i last posted.
sry ah.

Ytd was my cousin, JoyJoyJieJie's Wedding.
its was wedding dinner actually.
so wear until very formal.
this is wad i wore:

I am not wearing specs=D
got a silver tie on that shirt dunnoe call wad but its nice and my obermain shoes with jeans^^

then as we enter, we were sitting at the very front. means like there was the stage and the closest table to the stage was us liao.
sat with family and uncle sehboon's family and Darren and his dad^^

then there was this very pretty waitress!
she wore a long sleeved cheongsam top with a long skirt with slits at both sides

all the way up to the upper thighs!
ok the point here is not saying she is sexy, BUT she is preetty!!!!
there were two of them. the other one buang. LOL

from china i think.

then everytime she served tea, i said thankyou.(wrote this for later on)
then suddenly Uncle darrick, Darren's dad said: "Wah! why all the other girls all wear their normal attire, but you wear until so sexy?"
we all stare at him. lols. he made her paiseh lah!!!

then after 2hours like when everybody watching the video,
i went toilet and saw her. that pretty waitress.
so i smiled and she smiled back!!!
then this is the quick conversation.

J: hi, erm sorry for wad my uncle said juz now.
W: oh! its ok, he's not the only one.
J: oh! ok. haha. i'm joshua, nice to meet you.
W: oh hi! i'm ling li pleasure to serve you.

J: you serve very well. (smile)
W: Oh! thanks go tell manager(smile) you are very polite too.
J: haha (smiled) erm, i better be going back .
W: yeah! me too, got many ppl to serve. bye!
J: bye.

My first time i said sth liddat to a girl larhx!!!!
i even got her name!!!!
woots!
lols... but i think she older then me.
anyway i nvr ask for her number.

Then after that quick conversation,
everytime there's a new dish, she serve me first lorhx!!!
then when my drink finished, i turned around and asked the other waitress to get me another cup, but when i turn, THE CUP WAS FULL!!!!!
i was like WAH!! SINCE WHEN...?
then Ling Li walked pass and ask, did i get you the wrong drink?
lols... i smiled and said no, thankyou^^
LOLs...

wahahahahaha^^
anyways, heres wad we ate:
sorry as the photos are from bottom to top.

see how many bowls i ate

Walnut paste!!!!

Ostrich steak?

Braised Fish

Starters, appetizers

Still got Shark's fin, abalone, prawns and scallops.

ya i juz forgotten to take picture, cos too good jiu eat le. LOLs.

yea. still having a moment of infatuation of Ling Li.

LOLs... it will linger for a few days only.

yea. So thats it.

byebye, i will post the group photo i took with my cousins another day.

goodnight^^

joke post

2008-11-11T01:21:00.000-08:00

The Funniest thing about this post,
is that by the time you realise it doesn't say anything,
it is too late for you to stop reading it!
Haha, Gotcha!

God Bless you.
Byes^^

Omgosh!

2008-11-10T03:52:00.000-08:00

I juz received news that Pastor Lily juz had a fall...
Pls pray for her... to all christians from Grace Assembly.
pls pray that the surgery will be smooth and God's presence be with her.
Pls pray there wun be any serious injury.

Today is monday.
and its been one month since i last went to aunty dawn's house.
Missed her...
She has been teaching me chinese since Primary 3!!!!!
imagine that!!!
went to her house and after teaching we went lunch together.

I dinnoe she paying for me so i ordered quite a number of things and
went i gave the cashier $5 he return to me and said:" She help you pay already."
Wah! so paiseh larhx...
so next tym i make sure i pay for her^^
hahas....

At her house we did a topic about unhappy singaporeans.
And we "chatted" about being contented.
She told me a story somewhat.
It's about a rich man who lives in a BIG mansion
and a beggar who sleeps on the streets at night and beg for food in the day.
one night the beggar slept outside the mansion's door on the fine lawn.
In the morning when the rich man open the door, he saw the beggar and took pity on the beggar and gave him some food. As soon as the beggar recieved the food, he thanked the richman and said, Your flowers in the garden has such a nice and pleasing fragrance.
As the beggar left the mansion grounds, the richman thought to himself.
"All these years, why didn't i notice the flowers in my garden. all i think and do everyday is how to improve my business." whereas the beggar with little food was so contented and happy that he smiled the whole day and greeted everyone with a cheerful face.

This is an example of being contented.
Would want to be like the beggar or the richman?
Being Content is a great challenge in one's life.
As humans, its our nature to keep wanting more.
You give a man $200 because he wanted to improve his business, he would come back and ask you for $400 more.
You can nvr satisfy humans, for they would always want more.
i think that we shld do something about it.
instead of saying i want i want i want,
we shld change it to i'll skip it, its ok, nevermind.

We shld be contented with wad we have.
Be glad that you have parents.
Be glad that you have arms and legs.
Be glad that you have frens.
Be glad that you can go to school.

if you think you do not have anyone of these, turn to God and trust in him and all these will be given onto you.
It's also written in the bible!!
"Seek first the kingdom of God and his RIGHTEOUSNESS, and all these things will be given unto you" Matthew 6:33

So be contented with what you have!
and not fill yourself with jealousy and envy towards others.
make life much more happier by being contented.
Learn to be contented today!
before i go,
always rmb, God Loves You!
Goodnites^^

God, The only way

2008-11-09T05:58:00.000-08:00

HEY you you you you and you over there!
Hellos^^

today was really a fun day out with 7 of my percussionists
too bad for those who can't come and those who dunwan to come...
met at cck mrt.
Raymond, Sebastian, Me, Tricia, Peifang, Weiting and Weiying=)
mrt-ed to AMK and went K-Box-ing.
then we sing until 2pm.

First time i see Peifang so wild? lols
and yeah crapp alot!
like seriously ALOT!!!
the lunch was really nice!!!
the black pepper Chicken!!!
WAH!!! bth liao... keep thinking about it =.=

ok then peifang left and left 6 of us...
so we went to catch a movie...
we watched, THE COFFIN...
ok i dinnoe it was that scary and so, i wasted 8 dollars watching it...
Sry ppl. all my idea...
the show was so scary that Tricia was hugging on to my hand,
weiting and weiying were using the blanket to cover their faces.
I, used the popcorn paper bag to cover my own face too...
LOL!! it freaked me out. it was worst then" The Strangers"

The Coffin.
The whole idea about this show is that they were advertising about a sacred ritual
whereby you lie in the coffin and the monks will pray the "Death Chant" and all your
bad luck and illnesses in your body will dissappear. You can even cheat death itself.
it only happens in Thailand. its like playing around with the spiritual realms.
In the end, the stars of the show dinnoe that their illness and bad luck was transfered to
their loved ones. and after coming out of the coffin, their loved ones died and came to haunt them back. So they went back into the coffin again and somehow manage to reverse it.

After watching this show, i could see that those ppl who actually believed the ritual was somehow Lost!
They had their illness and bad luck but they dunnoe who to turn too!
Rings a bell?
Wad they need is God! If you have an illness, God can HEAL you!
If you are down on your luck, God will open another door for you!
If you are financially empty, God will make a way for you!
We dun hav to rely on these rituals and stuffs. Why?
BECAUSE GOD IS IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING!!!!!

There's a phrase an actor in the show said, which is
"If You Try To Kill Death, Death Will Not Die"
which means if you try to cheat death, death will not die...
and if death will not die then...
you my fren, will turn into a zombie!!!! undead marhx!!!
WOOOOOOO!!!!
lols...

So if you have any problems you face in your life, Turn to God!
God nvr shortchange anyone of us.
Instead, he gives us back double portion of wad we have!!!
Do Not Wait!!!
God Loves You, and he wants the best for you.
Goodnight!
and always remember,
God loves you very very much!!

ILOVEPERCUSSION

2008-11-07T04:19:00.000-08:00

wah today, first time i loved percussion after so long!!!!!!!!!!
yay!!! the Swiss Percussionists has came back to life!!!!!
woooooooo!!!!
wah and we did technology in record time!!!
from zero to techno!!!!

I dinnoe we still have so much potential...
i thought we couldn't make it in time...
and now, we were doing so fine until the teacher
came and tadah!!!!!
we're almost there!!!!!
alittle bit more!!!

weets percussionists GO!!!!
JIAYOUS!!!!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!
lols...
God lvoes you too btw =)

ok bye

2008-11-02T16:02:00.000-08:00

sorry for not blogging for quite some time.

juz no mood lurhx...
not anybody's fault.. haha

ok ya, i went to the chalet.
but i had to skip my drum lessons..
see blur...
cnt help it lurhx...

the chalet was fun even though it was boring...
as in there's nothing to do cept eating, chatting and playing cards/ PSP
but even though i stayed for one night, i muz say that it was really a fun time.
thanks jiawee.

i din sleep the whole night.
end up next day got flu, stomachache, sore eyes and a bruised knee(cos i fell dwn) =(

on friday, was late for C.O. practice...
and yea it was really boring...
not saying that C.O. is boring but for me its because i got nothing to play and
i would be juz sitting there for 4 hours under the aircon...
thats how i got my flu...

Sat almost late for choir practice...
was like the only bass and later on 2 others came... heng =.=
anyway, i decided not to change to tanaz or wadeva anymore...
cos bass i can get the notes better...haha..

then had to miss service...=( cos my brother said there's no service and my parents believed
and they said,:" at least you are paying attention during service"
zzz....
then went to aunty joe house cos joyjoy was having her wedding lunch thingy...
then went far east... and then to woodland civic for a mini concert...
so paiseh about that concert and idunwanna talk about it...

sunday had the ifriends thing in the children church...
again i missed service and hoho, i din hear the msg...
but its about mercy...
the kids were very rowdy and energetic...
lols... they run and scream and shout, wah i climd the stairs to the fifth floor i tired liaoz...
zzz old lerhx...

then went far east again with kahsheng and joel...
and went home lerhx...
tired lurhx...
yea i was oso praying for some ppl...
they were my good frens in church but i think they somehow falling into the sin of the world...
i really hope God can change them and they would oso get right with God...

ok byebye^^

2008-10-27T16:35:00.000-07:00

Ok Hi all,

yea, you noe, i am really a super blurrr person...
come to think about it, i sian diao sia...
all my dates start clashing and clashing and clashing!!!!
now i cant go class chalet anymore...
sry jiawee...

I oso Gotten into the Christmas Choir.
and practice is every sat at 11am...
Rings a Bell?
Which means i have to leave C.O. at around break tym to go
to church...
means i'll have to talk to Ms Lim about it...
blur me...

Yea ok and first of all, I wanted that, christians are always being looked at,
always being commented for their actions.
I am not saying or scolding anyone, but its true.
why is this so?
Thats cause we serve a God we are Proud of.
we want to show the world how great God is.
And we are showing him through ourselves.
The reason Being that some other christians still behave like wad
Tagger Eyedropr said is because,
1) It's a habit to them already.
2)They are still not getting right with God

But even so, God still LOVES them and he is willing to forgive if they ask for it.
I rmb a tym when a guest speaker's sermon which says that,
when his daughter runs towards him, and then she would jump towards him and he would catch her and embrace her...
so in this scenario, as the daughter jumps up and clings onto him, he will also do the same.
Why?
Because, if he doesn't catch hold of his daughter as she jumps and clings onto him, she will fall down. Do you think she has enough strength to cling onto her dad?
Its the same with God and us.
Whenever we turn and run towards him, do you think he will juz let us cling onto him and not do anything about it?
NO!!! he would also embrace us and catch us...
its God's strength that supports us, same as the guest speaker which was only by his strength that his daughter is able to be carried and supported by him if not she will fall.
Many a times we turn from God, and feel that God is not there.
However wad we do not noe is, God is still carrying us, but we juz do not want to hang on to him.

You may ask, why is God so stubborn not to let those who sin go?
Reason being, God LOVES us!!!
His love is SO great that no matter how many times we broken his heart, he still forgives us.

Also to eyedropr,
hi.
i dunnoe who you are.
but i think the term "convince" used here is not very good.
i dunnoe about it but somehow or rather it is not a good term to be used.
yea and i also dunnoe how i can "convince" you if you dunnoe who am i.
but if you look closely at into my life, i can say that i have changed.
Leon, rmb Mr Liu's words?
Small things Matters.
Wad you guys are looking for are big changes.
but even so, do you look at the small changes?
In the bible it says, no matter wad sin you make, Murder or even lying, its still sin and should be judged equally.
so i believe no matter wad, you shld oso lookout for little changes in the lives of christians.

And no matter how much we say to "convince" you,
as long as the heart is cold, you still wun turn to Christ.
Am i wrong to say that?
It also takes alittle time for christians to really change their sinful habits.
If you use vulgarities like so very often, can you stop saying it the next day?
I noe how difficult it was because i used to say it like water flowing out of my mouth.
After i got serious with God, it took me 3weeks of prayer to completely stop saying vulgarities.
Thats the change in my life God has help me through, and normally do ppl like you see it?
ok do you even notice it?
And one last thing,
God still loves you and he's still waiting for your salvation now.
God loves you.

i nid to go for CCA liao...
Sry and bye^^

Free things shld be given away

2008-10-23T18:34:00.000-07:00

Ok before i start my post, I'm quite sorry i couldn't blog for the last two days.
cos last two days i was helping out at Crossroad47 and i would leave school, rush home, change and leave again. By the tym i got back its quite late already so i could not blog. Sorry =(

I found out that my Hair has a natural Brown colour!
I now am quite proud of it. haha =P
but ytd Mr Yoong Caught my Hair and said :" Why can't you wait until tomorow(which is today) to go and dye it?? I am quite dissappointed with you joshua."
I giggled and said :" Mr Yoong i nvr dye my hair before. Its my natural colour."
He got nothing else to say and went back to topic.

Ok today i would like to share experiences about sharing the Gospel.
Sharing the Gospel is quite an exciting thing for me.
Cos we are sharing about our God to the world!
How great is our God, Our God is an awesome God.
But as we share, i dun understand why many a times, people juz raise other topics or walk away when you are sharing half way.
Quoted From Sumone :" It aches really bad to see your friends not believing after trying to tell them... most of all, you can't do anything about it."

I agree with that statement. I mean because in the bible, it says in Revelations 20:15 that " And whosoever not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire"
We are living in the end days. the overflowing of the holyspirit has begun!
Nations will Fall, Religion will break and everyone will feel the power and work of the holyspirit.
But even so, many will reject it. They are the ones who will be thrown into the lake of fire, Hell.

That's why chrisitans are trying Desperately to save SOULS and have them being in HEAVEN.
The Gospel Is FREE FOR ALL.. Ok, Let me begin.
If you happen to walk past a PSP factory, Giving out Free PSPs for that day only.
Would you stand there and watch others getting the PSPs or, Would you run and grab hold of that PSP?
Its the same logic! The Gospel is FREE but WHY, many dunwan to have it?
The Gospel is as good or even better then the PSP.
PSPs may get you addicted to games while the Gospel brings you Closer to God.
Its also the same whereby i give you Free tickets to a movie.
You would of cos take the tickets and watch the movie rite?
BUT whether or not the movie touches your heart or speaks to you, its up to you to believe it and feel it. ITS THE SAME !!!
i offer you the gospel for FREE and ask you to come to church.
you follow me to church and whether or not the sermon touches you, its really up to you to believe and up to you to open yourself to God.

God Loves You very much.
no matter how far you run or how stubborn you are, He still loves you and will nvr give you up.
When a sinner repents, All of heaven gathers and celebrates the return of that sinner.
so, I pray really hard that all of you my frens out there, will see the truth one day.
God bless you,
Good bye
=DD

Jesus Doesn't Care About Our Mistakes

2008-10-21T21:30:00.000-07:00

You tell me no one would love you
If they could see deep inside
You say your friends might desert you
If they knew the truth you hide,

Well theres one who knows you better than
You know yourself
And he still loves you more than anyone else

Jesus doesnt care what you've done before
How youve rebelled or slammed the door
No matter how far you've run or how long you've been untrue
Jesus doesnt care
He still offers forgiveness to you

For so long you've run from the father
Into a life of sin
And each time he lovingly called you
You turned your back on him

No matter if your failures are great or small
Theres no way to hide them
He already know them all

Jesus doesnt care what you've done before
How youve rebelled or slammed the door
No matter how far you've run or how long you've been untrue
Jesus doesnt care
He still offers forgiveness to you

How many tears will you cry
Till you cry out to the father
An honest plea for mercy he will not deny
Trust him and you're gonna find

Jesus doesnt care what you've done before
How youve rebelled or slammed the door
No matter how far you've run or how long you've been untrue
Jesus doesnt care
He still offers forgiveness to you

This Song, even though i only started hearing it recently,
It convicted me during the lsat youth service...
So badly that i cried...
the first tym i cried for like dunnoe how long...
Cried because of all i have done to my friends and how much i have sin...
I am summore a Leader!!
at first, i cried cause i have done so many things which made many ppl turn away from me...
sometimes i would even think i was so un-holy that God's Protection was away from me...
But God remained faithful to me,
He gave me still another chance to repent and turn to him...
this song really touches and comforts me till now...

To all my non-Christian Friends out there,
you noe, Its not too late to turn to God.
Personally, God can take away all your bitterness in your heart.
God can take away that revengeful heart you have for someone.
God can take away your troubles, your stress and all your difficulties.
He will carry you through.
and as the song suggests,
Jesus doesn't care wad you did before and he still offers forgiveness to you.
If you have unrest and are finding rest and peace in your heart, look to God.
If God can take away my bitterness, So can he take yours away!
Even if you are not ready now, God will always be waiting with open arms
to embrace you and protect you.
If you all really have troubles and say you can't take it anymore,
come to me and i will pray for you or you can leave it in the Prayer request tagboard.
It's not too late!!
But its also not so good to wait.
yup=D

Its true that God is working in me now.
I can sense the Holy Spirit telling me and warning me against little sins
that i wouldn't care last tym.
I used to run out of school halfway during the enrichment module...
But this week, though i was tempted i din do it.=)
and today in the AVA,
the talk on the polytechnics was boring, and most ppl
would juz fall asleep or listen to their mp3.
I used to do either one of that,
But today even though i slept during the start of the speech enrichment,
(Sorry, i was tired, i ask for forgiveness ok?=P)
i took out my mp3 to listen in the AVA, but after listening to 2mins of the song,
i kept it back in my bag as the Holy Spirit told me it was wrong and disrespectful.
so i kept it.
yea.

after that went home lurhx...ya din wanna go C.O. cos today no feel.=X
sry C.o.
ok blog till here today,
buhbyes and rmb,
Jesus doesn't care about wad you have done, he still offers forgiveness with open arms, waiting for you to come back to him.
takecares^^
God Loves You

Glory To God

2008-10-20T05:49:00.000-07:00

Hi,

today i went to school as usual...
we were supposed to have an english enrichment which is beneficial for us next year...
the enrichment was boring can?
and so many ppl including those i hang out with all decided to leave after the break...
its like playing truant...
i was tempted at first because since it was the ost examinations,
the guard would easily allow anyone to go out...

at first i was really tempted...
But sth in me reminded me that there's some i will need to answer to next tym...
and imagine wad would God feel when he has seen me do this act...
When he had forgiven me so many times when i re-commit those sins again,
when he sent his only son to die for a sinner like me so i can go to heaven,
so i din wan that to happen... God once took away all my bitterness.
i dunwan them to return to me...
so in the end, i said to myself and the HolySpirit, Ima staying.

so i did stayed and the Lord sent me a song...
to remind me of a covanant i made with him...
the song is "I have decided to follow Jesus"

theres a verse in the song which says:
Though none go with me, I still will follow...

well it comforted me as i sat there alone in class...
ltr i went bukit batok and couldn't collect my SIM card cos need my dad IC...
so went home and i chatted with shunjie, nicole, pastor cuixian too...
LOLs...
now Blogging...
ltr need present a speech for tmr...
so faster end this post...
ok lurhx i end here
byebye

Prayer Requests

2008-10-19T07:30:00.000-07:00

hahax... hellos...

changed the verse liao...
err... very tired so ima going to sleep...
to all my frens out there...
God Loves You
and theres nothing you can do to change that fact^^
because his love is unfailing
because God is love.
lols...

I added a new chatbox for Prayer Requests.
um.. means that if you are sick or anything and need prayer, juz feel free to put it down.
i will pray for you.
i guess it dosen't hurt so much as to put it down.
anything you want me to pray for juz list them down.
eg. exams, worries, sickness and others.

last,
i dunnoe whether i am in love or not...
ahhh!!! i believe God will give me that perfect woman...
God,
Tell me if its her. Tell me if now is the time.
In the name of jesus, Amen.
LOLs...

byess...

mon-fri

2008-10-18T07:16:00.000-07:00

LOLs... sry for not updating... is a very busy week for me^^

Monday:
wokeup went school at around 635am...
Was LATE!!!!
then took the bus to this dunnoe wad saloon for enrichment...
very boring...
went lunch at the dunnoe wad prawn noodle coffee shop.
back to school and homed...

Tuesday:
YA!!! was earlyy...
went to the saloon and it sucked again...
then learn how to dye hair...
partner-ed with joseph...
and then dye finish we went eat at the prawn noodle coffeeshop again...
went we were going back...lols...
Xingyan crossed the road nvr see lorry...
haha... i pull her bag then she moved back and bang into me...
in the middle of the road... lols.. dangerous...
[feels very shiok]
then continue with shampoo-ing and then i got a free hir shampoo package...
weees back to school and went C.O with tricia
and finally walk with her to busstop and homed....

Wednesday:
Today nvr go saloon... the pplcame to our school...
LOLs.. i sit at the window and cut and then cut liaoz so many
classes walk pass look inside...
then lucky nobody noe me...
THEN!!!! CLASS 2E5 '05 walk pass...
tio laughed...=.="
then was perming... then they came back ofter one period... Sinyee laughed at me!!!
still got alot more lurhx...
Eh guy cut hair not funny de...
then left school at 10...
cos really dunwan go back cont...
so went home and met with
Heelon, Rauf, Zhongwei, Johnathan, Theron and Rishipal
went JTC, recruit express to find jobs... and submit application forms...
then went home... ltr went out with heelon, weihao and jiawee to eat dinner...
and, I FORGOT I HAVE FREAKING DRUM LESSONS!!!!!!

Thursday:
Went school and the saloon ppl forget to bring the model heads...
LOL
one hours free period... and only got 7 ppl...
left again at 10:30am cos got
Church activity: Primary 6 camp
so as we walked to the gate, the guard stop us cos on wed got 3 non sec4s
oso did the same and the guard got badly scolded... poor thing
so went library slack till 12 then left school...
headed for church which was 3mins walk and met up with the rest
met new fren Kahsheng today!!!
ltr other girls from CJC and dunnoe wads the other one came to help too...
they oso stayed over night...
that night went macs and then eat Alif at around 11++
then was so full... i ate 2 egg 2 kosong plus a milo dinosaur and and ice latte from macs...
was bloated and very full...
back to church and saw eleena and the other girls...
starts new frenship with Nicole, Lengshan, Eleena and Eloise...
yeps... and PSP till next morning...

Friday:
went back to the room and decided not to pon school...
i hum call parents...
so went school... lols... left church with joel and nicole...
very funny... Nicole woke up late and thought she as latee...
then she walk like thunder to the busstop... in the end still nid wait..haha
i role str8 jiu reached back gate lerhx... haha...
then in school... sleep until 10:30 whr its break tym...
then me and fuddin left school...
went home changed and put stuff then head back to church
wah eleena said its better not to go PNP!!!!
sobx... so nvr go... PG speaking lehs!!!
then we went out same thing eat at macs... drank ICEd Latte^^
and back to church... then sth bad happened...
kids these days juz dunnoe who they are messing with...
once the chance is given, they become more daring...
then spent the night with Nicole, Lengshan, Joel, and Issac
play asshole daidi...lols... funfunfun...
slept at 4pm...

Saturday:
Wokeup and slack around then go breakfast...
then they pack up the room...
then slack around and took down the bolster for samuel
and ltr Nicole and the rest came in ask wad we were doing... LOL
they tot we playing sia... haha
then ltr we eat lunch... and off the G1 for Paul Goulet's service...
the service was very good...
then went to grandma's house and homed...
the service part too long lerhx... so wanna noe wad happened, come call me, i will tell you...

goodnites byebye=D

Hellos

2008-10-12T22:59:00.000-07:00

I juzed finished bloghopping...
Really buisong someone...
read the dam blog, Full of arrogance...
really fell very not happy and really want to put up a post to scold him...
butbut he din do anything to me murhx...
so i won't shoot that person...
God Bless that person too...
lols...

OK!!! today, i was LATER then usual when going to school...
cos ytd i slept at 3AM
you noe why?
COS MY HOUSE GOT A BLACKOUT AT 2AM!!!!!
then fixed it at 3AM!!!!
so tired lurhx...
heelon in the morning call me ask me wan eat breakfast
and i reply saying no and I WENT BACK TO SLEEP!!!!
lols... i woke up at 630... left house at 645 reached school at 705...
LOLs...

then go enrichment... hairdressing...
stupid nid cut hair for girls...
i mean girl hairstyles...
then ltr then cut guys hairstyle...
fuddin cut mohog sia... very nice...LOL
i cut Ronaldo hairstyle... then botak with the patch of hair...
LOL

then go home... ya
very tired...
but going dota now byebye

PS: the church next to our school has a Youth Center,
specially for youths... sec1 and abv...
come and visit. it has Xbox 369, Wii and many more!!!
comeby the name of the center is Crossroads47!!!
Do drop by... on thursdays and Fridays...
see you there^^

Song lyrics

2008-10-11T18:34:00.000-07:00

All about you...

Hear our praises,
Hear Your people sing
Hear our hearts cry,
Your love is everything

And all will hear this sound
As the nations turn to You
And this will be our anthem

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will give you praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your WayAlways

Let our hearts break,
As we praise your name
Let the earth shake,
This is the sound of faith

And all will hear this sound
As the nations turn to You
And this will be our anthem

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will give you praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your WayAlways

And the walls will fall down
and religion will break
And the nations will hear this shout
Can you hear the sound of faith?

Cause we're all about You
Cause we're all about You(4x)

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will give you praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your WayAlways

Cause we're all about You
Cause we're all about You(4x)

And all the walls are falling down
As all the nations praise
And all the world will hear this shout
Can you hear the sound of faith

Saturday

2008-10-11T18:19:00.000-07:00

alrites...

hellos...
today in the morning i woke up later then usual...
dunnoe why... then i used the comp and Dota till my dad
came home from the market...
its so stupid... he like say everyday see me use comp...
and ask me go read newspaper and get to noe wads going on around
the world...then i told him
you everyday bring the papers home after your work you ask me read wad?
he replied read the day before the papers...
i tell him pls i dunwan lag for 1 day...LOLs...

after that went to church...
(random)- i restarted DJMax2^^
okok backback...
I got a job... in church...
LOLs...got cip points but no money...
you may think I am stupid... but you wouldn't understand
why i would do it...
I would be mending the Youth center in church...
Its called Crossroads 47...
for sec1 and above only...
so all my friends... yall can come drop by too....
there's XBox... Wii... foolsball... comps... and board games...
yea meant for youths...

ok then service time...
I today tio own by the sec1 girls...
its super tio own...
so i dunwan to talk about it...
then the sermon was very good...
I mean... ok i dunnoe how to describe how good it was but it was
fantastic, good, special, marvellous, wonderful and many more you can think of...
why?
Its a personal reason...
but the main thing is God took away all the bitterness in me...
thanks to kenneth, Pastor Ronald and Rafael...

After service went eat with usual ppl
Joel, Isaac Soh, Joseph, Sabrina and me... eunice met up ltr...
Isaac lim went meet his parents...
then wait them play finish arcade then go home...LOLs...

yea thats all... byebye

Thursday

2008-10-09T03:08:00.000-07:00

^^

Today is the last dy of exams for this year!!!
weets~

hahax...after collecting the papers,
Mr Sashi walk down the row with a dustbin...
i wanted to throw my entry proof in^^...
but i din...lol...
instead, i tore it into shreds outside the hall...and into the bin afterwards...

When i reached home i play a round of dota and
becos heelon persuaded me, i followed them go swimming...
i told him i dunlyk swimming liaoz he still ask me go...
so i went lorhx...

soon meet up with the same guys^^
Jiawee, Keith, Heelon, Weihao, Weiliang, joseph and myself...
they all go swim but i nvr swim...
i juz look after belongings... and they say why i wan to be a maid...
with the intention of suan-ing joseph...LOLx...
but then there's a saying:
If you wan to be serve, you have to first learn how to serve^^
hahax...

yea after swimming go home...
now gonna dotaaaaaaaaaaa

byebye^^

Never gonna give you up

2008-10-08T03:29:00.000-07:00

Ooh ooh
We're no strangers to love
You know the rules and so do I
A full commitment's what I'm thinking of
You wouldn't get this from any other guy

I just wanna tell you how I'm feeling
Gotta make you understand

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

We've known each other for so long
Your heart's been aching but
You're too shy to say it
Inside we both know what's been going on
We know the game and we're gonna play it

And if you ask me how I'm feeling
Don't tell me you're too blind to see

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

(Ooh, give you up)
(Ooh, give you up)
(Ooh)
Never gonna give, never gonna give
(Give you up)
(Ooh)
Never gonna give, never gonna give
(Give you up)

We've know each other for so long
Your heart's been aching butYou're too shy to say it
Inside we both know what's been going on
We know the game and we're gonna play it

I just wanna tell you how I'm feeling
Gotta make you understand

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you....

its nice song ok...
LOLs.... very nice meaning too...
but its not that i am in love lurhx...
juz the song is very nice!!!!!

Wednesday

2008-10-07T20:54:00.000-07:00

ITS BEEN 5 DAYS WITHOUT A PHONE FOR JOSHUA....

lolx... ytd slacked the whole day... i mean there's no exams huh?
around 530 heelon arranged to play BBall...
so we were supposed to meet outside cck CC mac...

i reached there on the dot...
however, I could not find anyone... wadsmore, i dun have a phone...TT.TT
poor me... i sat outside Macs hoping that at least sumone who is going to play BBall
reached...

hahax who noes... keith arrived and saw me...
and... he has a phone^^

then we go to the coffeeshop nearby and eat dinner...
then meet weihao and weiliang at the BBall court...
total got 7 ppl go...
heelon, keith. jiawee, weihao, weiliang, joseph and me...
then we pllay first round, i slippers cmi...LOL
so bare footed play and tio 1 blister...

ok nvr second round tahan awhile and then the lights went out...LOL
cos 9oclock liaoz...
so we slack around and jiawee and keith keep making fun of joseph...
he poor thing cos he cnt do anything...LOL...

then went to Mac...
Weihao and heelon go buy water while i hunt for plasters...
LOL...
then i bought one plaster...1 for 0.40 cents...
rip off...

then went to Mac...
i saw Sinting there^^
but i din call her lurhx... cos she doing project with frens...
then over there play PSP then go back to the court and play sia...
lol... weihao lend me his shoes...
and then... playplayplay and my feet started to hurt...
and when i took off the shoes... i saw 2 more blisters on my feet...
very pain...
then my other foot the ankle was aching...
so i couldn't walk properly...
then go home summore i no phone,
and very dark and so many blisters...
LOL...

if they org another game like this...haha i confirm go lorhx...
altogether, the amount of games played,
have the energy use to play those games were spent on laughing lurhx...
so many funny incidents...
such a nice memory to add to my memories...
LOLx...

ok lorhx i go dota liaoz^^ byebye

Monday

2008-10-06T05:32:00.001-07:00

err...

Today, got no school =P
hahax... so many ppl asking why i nvr go school today...
LOL... like holiday le larhx!!!

spend the whole morning audi-ing...
then break awhile cos eyes pain...
then go play PSP....
LOLx.. no difference actually...

then went back to the comp...
err go hop blogs....
and then audi again... then
heelon wan dota so dota...
until now...

its been a long tym since i used the comp
without and nagging^^
hahax....

those who got play audi before...
come back play leh...
very bored sia one person play...
LOL...

thats all lorhx...
goodluck to those who still have exams...
dun jiayou horhx... very expensive...
juz workhard and try your best^^

byebye...
=DD

Monday

2008-10-06T05:32:00.000-07:00

err...

i lost my phone

2008-10-04T16:53:00.000-07:00

YO!!

eh err.. first thing...
is i lost my phone... so dun bother sms-ing stuffs to me or call my phone...
if got anything call my house lurhx...
number is 68948232...

okok err...
for ytd, at church during service,
got this new pastor came to preach.
hahax his name was oso Leon^^

then he shared to us, why must we sing...
nice sermon outline...
but i think toobad he was kinda talking about music
more then singing...

then he oso very emotional leh...LOLx...
he presented a song to us, and half way singing through it,
he cried...-.-
then he preach about how he lost his voice once,
and he cried again...-.-
but overall its good...

then went to grandma's house.
toobad nvr go down...
cos got another family with us...
so cnt go down, for safety returns...LOL
yep so ytd was about it...

i lost my handphone TT.TT
goodbye...

WOOOOZZIEESSSS!!!

2008-10-02T21:11:00.001-07:00

YOYO!!!

hahax... today was maths paper2!!!
its went PRETTY WELL^^
i'm glad... cos i think i flunk paper1... TT.TT

so you see if i juz pass paper1(ok too many ppl its a pass and its good, but for me... its FLUNK!!!)
yep so if i juz pass and i score like maybe 75% for paper2,
liddat horhx= 50=75/200
which is err...o.o
shyt ok i miscalculated but it would be around 4 or 3 marks....

CNTCNT!!!! okok muz score well liaoz... at least A2 plsTT.TT
got back report book today... my perlims the L1B2...11 points...
that means i cnt go sec5N.... TT.TT
but can appeal to stay back...

so i hope my N-lvls i can get 10points^^
i know God will see me through this time^^
thanks God!!!

Thanks Pastor John and Ms Ma for teaching me maths...
i noe i dissappoint you for prelims but i did tried my best in N-lvls...
so i believe God will make a breakthrough for me^^...
thanks for being my dear teachers^^

post till today... hahax...
i shall see who are the people who come my blog regularly...
ltr will blog hop and see who link me liaoz^^
hahax...
daniel has linked me...cos he tagged -.-
LOLx see who the next one^^

Backkk

2008-10-02T05:59:00.000-07:00

OK!!

i am back blogging again...
err...

ya... i dunnoe wad to do now...
ok since running away is not a solution so...
i want to say sorry for the many wrong things i have done...

To debbie,
Sorry. i know your still angry at me for that comment and i have no right to ask you to forgive me. At that point of time, i dinnoe you were that pissed with me. I am such a fool not to notice that. I know wads done cannot be undone, but i dunwan to end our friendship. i am sorry i hurt your feelings. I hope we can still be friends again. Sorry.

To Leon,
hey um... i dunnoe if i did something wrong to you? but it juz seem that you avoiding me nowadays. You keep taking bus home, not that i want you to accompany me but, it is juz too often from last time. i mean the change is drastic. It makes me feel like i have done something wrong. Pls forgive me. Sorry.

To Others who juz feel like whacking me,
Sorry for wad i did to you. Pls tell me ad i have done so i can apologise and learn from it.
Pls i dunwan to lose good friends like you. If it is me, tell me. i will change if you allow me that one chance. Sorry.

To Myself,
I feel that ever since i got that hole in my ear, i start to lose my friends. So i am going to close it at the start of next year. It seems that because of that hole, i ruined the image everyone had of me. But i am still me. So i guess that i will close it and be my "Old" me, the Good and blur sotong/kuku. Sorry for dissappointing so many people. Sorry.

OK i done blogging
God bless you,
goodbye^^

HI

2008-10-02T01:44:00.001-07:00

HELLO

Peace of mind

2008-10-01T21:43:00.000-07:00

Back again....
going to school soon...
byee....

dying

2008-09-12T05:33:00.001-07:00

YO!

this blog's dying ppl^^....
nvm... let it die for now first....
i after exams then revive it yo...

actually i post this osos i dun think anyone will see^^
so i wun be posting for the tym being,
unless can find tym yo...
so...

bye yo^^

2008-09-06T18:44:00.000-07:00

morning- audi-ed with joel...tried to level... but to no avail...ahhh!!!
then i got ready and went church...

afternoon- in Church, pastor cuixian said sth very meaningful...
she said,
As Christians, we carry the name of God around.
and because we carry the name of God around, people recognises us...
because without the name of God, we are nothing...
Christians-Christ=ian
IAN= I Am Nothing...
yea... and its true...
cos after that pastor ronald said...
God made this earth juz for human beings to live in.
if there is a slight inbalance in the amount of air, we would all die...
and we may think that we are all big and good, and would all lead long lives
without having to lean on anyone.
BUT hey...
God is there to get you to where you are today...
he is in control to him...
Christians say that we will hold on to God and not let go..
but it is actually God holding on to us...
WHY?
cos God LOVES you...

after that went street-E then head to Westmall for dinner...
then while the guys went arcade, me issac soh and sabrina went Macs...
to play PSP =P
saw noella, huishi, tiffany, tiffany's fren, justin, RICKY and got one more...
then went home...

thats it man...
on the mrt saw the bus heading back to school, filled with C.O. ppl...
there were 2 buses^^

so yea...byebye^^

WALL-E SUCKS!!!

2008-09-04T19:16:00.000-07:00

today...

had N lvl english paper 1 and 2...
yea paper one section1 has 6 questions...
i chose question2...
2) write about a place you like to go and why you like it...
i wrote about church...
then i wrote section2...
suppose to be informal from wad i heard...
i go write formal...
then i finish both sections at around 910...
so i decided to write auestion 6 cos i think suestion 2 i write wun get points...
so i wrote aeustion6...
6)Mistakes.

i wrote bout mistakes we make and mistakes others make...
mistakes we make can change our lives...
while mistakes others mostly ruin our lives...
good example would be... joshua and Tsingmin...
you have to admit its true...

then after that paper 2...
i dun have alot of confidence when i did the paper...
Thanks to the stars Tsingmin gave me...
or else i think i would have anyhow did the paper lerhx...
hundred leh...

yea so after paper went home...
audi and then went out...
met Joel, Joseph, Issac lim, Issac soh, sabrina, and Eunice who was late...cos of band...
then wanted to watch DeathRace...
but cnt cos it was NC16...
so they decided to watch Wall-E...

that stupid show was so boring, we had a popcorn fight inside...
i am so amazed that these stupid directors...
whose shows are like trash can make money out of it...
i call that scam...
watch THE HAPPENING oso can cos got scary parts...
BUT this??!!!
NO WAY!!! its an absolute scam...
true WALL-E looks cute...
but motive is to attract ppl to watch only...
stupid...
wadsmore its rated "G"!!!
which mean even newborn babies can go in and solo watch themselves...
at least "PG" need parents cos got some violence and action marhx...
BUT THIS??!!!??!!!??!!!
ITS A "G"!!!!!
damdamdamdamdam!!!!!

after the show, went to arcade...
the girls went DDR-ing...
and joel and issac lim went to play a car game...
so yea...

then went LJS after that...
eat finish then we discovered that Issac lim's bag was worth more then a thousand dollars...
his bag itself already 40+
plus his IVideo-400?
then got his handphone...800bucks...
still got alot of other stuffs...
so who steal his bag will be rich larhx...
lolx...

then went home...
thanks Issac Soh for lending the PSP to me to play DjMax...
woots^^
and sorry tsingmin...X(
yea thats all byebye^^
dun watch WALL-E... ITS A SCAM!!!!!

you suck

2008-09-03T02:09:00.000-07:00

Bottling up is the only choice...
Nobody cares nor am i expecting anyone to care...
Who am i that you should call me brother?

Things have been going down for me...
Since my darn birthday...
C'mon why was i even born?
I'm sure my death would bring joy to the world...

Today's N lvl SS...
total failure...
dun wish to talk about it...
wish i could be like clouds floating carefree-ly in the skies...
not caring for anyone and not being cared for by anyone...
Clouds are nothing important...
juz middle-man telling ppl when its gonna rain,
with no significance in it...
each cloud has its own silver lining...
No one sees mine... why should they too?
So...i'll be a cloud...if i have the chance...
can see the world from up there without the world looking at us...
being the extras on this earth...
Clouds are nothing...

When you're gone, Everything follows you out of my life...
so longs...

true

2008-09-02T07:03:00.000-07:00

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor

And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other

Out here foreverI know we were, yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss you...

To my sister... this song exkplains how my life is going on without you...

not that i want you to come back being my girlfren but ,

juz as that loving Sister you once were to me...

miss you and those days...

Yea... YO!

today N level mother tongue^^

weets... i prepared 7 days of hardwork,

spending about 12 hours everyday Mugging juz for today!!!

and it really paid off^^

(pats on your back)

Good work leh...Ah Hua!!

jiayous...still got 2 more papers and prelims...

Rambo~

Today woke up at 4am...

juz to take a shower...

i feel asleep in the bathtub...=.=

too shiok liaoz...

then i woke up... dress nicee nicee...

put my dad's perfume...

make hair nicee^^

change new earstick...

make sure everything looks good on me...

aiya so got self-confidence then can score marhx? rite?^^

off to school^^

In school...wait at canteen...

after both test were over, which happens to be a favour for me...

i went to C.O. room...

saw a few sec4 there too...

then went lunch with wailoon and paulina...

um...SORRY FOR MAKING YALL LATE...

then went back with them to C.O. room...

mslim saw me and told me to go home...

end up i hide behind the Yun Luo...

then i go read SS textbook...

then Mslim go by backdoor...

she open the door and shout:"HUIERN!! HUIERN!!" then said some stuffs...

I CHUA SAI!!!

I tot she calling me larhx..."ZHIERN!! ZHIERN!! ni gei wo gun hui jia!!!

LOL...

then i read thru the topics until when Full orchestra came...

played Timpani for JIANG JUN LING...

Xu laoshi saw me...LOLx...

too bad cant resist xD

Then Huiern said Percussion GOT IMPROVEMENTS!!!

hahax...Good job^^ jiayous and workhard horhx...

piggies^^

hahax...

yea then went home, by bus... THANKS TO PAULINA!!!

andand Peijin talked to me for the first tym after 2 months?

too bad make this clear...

NO MORE FEELINGS LERHX...sadsad...

so i talk to her too lorhx...

yea... She chinese A1 sia!!! hard believe...O.O->.<-O.O

LOL....

then went home and changed this new blogskin...

cos yea some things in life you lose it, you regret it...

some is due to situations where the other party feels frightened of...

you have no choice...

goodnite yall~

shag...

2008-08-30T17:49:00.000-07:00

Yooo...

yea today was kinda like a break day for me...
wokeup in the morning and slack abit...

actually there's CIP for the sec 2s...
then Mr Yoong said sth like we nid to go?
cos many ppl did not complete 6hours of CIP
i swaysway got only 4 hours-.-
so i dunnoe whether to go...
but since it was in the afternoon, and i have church,
hahax^^
i dint go...
as always, God's more important then anything else...
the last CIP for sec 4s oso i din go... cos clashed with church events...
anyway the CIP sell balloons...
i mean... crazy or wad? sell balloon you think many ppl will buy meh?
i think this idea is stupid lurhx...
not the people who are selling them...

so went to church... was supposed to have a briefing for usher heads.
it starts at 145pm...
and since i was running late, i left my house at 130 juz to catch a taxi...
(it takes me 30mins~45mins to reach church)
so when i was waiting for a taxi, this couple, came and cut me seh!!!
they juz like went in front of me and stand there...
and got 3 taxis past lerhx inside all got people and knowing i was behind them,
the guy still stretch out his hand to flag the taxis!!!
but inside all got people...
i oso saw the lady telling the guy that they have cut me, but the guy juz show some hand gesture which i think say heck care the boy larhx... small boy only dunnid scared...
yarhx i know i small boy... BUT!!!!!! i was very angry and so...
i whispered:"God Bless You"
then i prayed silently...
this is my prayer...

Dear God, as you can see, i am very angry at this injustice done to me.
I offer you my anger dear God, that you may replace it with Grace...
But dear God, please also know that i am running late for the briefing.
so pls in order to help me not to be late and restore justice,
please do a miracle, like sending a taxi to stop infront of me and not them...
in the name of Jesus i pray, Amen...

after that, i waited for 5 mins, and i PROMISE i am telling the truth.
a taxi came... Toyota Crown, Blue colour...
it was coming and the guy stretched out his hand to flag the taxi...
and the taxi driver press the button so the 2 orange light at the side of the car
was blinking... then when the taxi was stopping, IT DROVE PAST THE COUPLE AND STOPPED IN FRONT OF ME!!!!!!
can believe marhx?!!!!!
i MEAN the taxi JUZ STOPPED IN FRONT OF ME LEHX!!!!!!
this is a miracle done by God in front of my eyes, to prove that he is real...
C'MON have you see a taxi driver picking up the second guy and not the first person, at the roadside?

so i smiled like a fool, and i bet the couple saw me...
and went to church...hahahahahahahahax^^
in church, no briefing cos jeraldine's brother got into an accident...
Get well Soon^^
so briefing postpone to next week^^
after church went grandma house...
yea...then homed^^

during church we sang a new song today...
its very nice and i cant seem to find it >=(
ahhs!!!!
asking around then maybe put as blog song^^
hahahahx...
okok byebye^^

aces day

2008-08-29T05:12:00.000-07:00

Tooday...

was cher's day...
Happy cher day...=.=

wasn't feeling my best tooday...
at first got ACEs day workout...
and Mr Yoong rocks at the egyptian jumping thingy^^
c'mon i din jump larhx...
so gay...

then the performance oso very nicee^^
esp the beatbox...
then got one song... i forgot wad song larhx...
NO link to cher's day at all...
its like go up there juz show off can sing very good only...
wahliaoz...
not like other people cannot liddat...

then ltr got cher celebration in class...
Mr Yoong is lucky we din cut his hair^^
then we very smart after the celebrations, he tell us...
who cnt go remedial?
who can go but nid leave halfway?
so in the end had remedial till 1...

after that i went to aunty dawn house...
then over there study lorhx...=.=
reached at 130...go home at 710...
siao and i was studying and memorising phrases and vocabs....
and cos of some stuffs, i couldnt rmb anything for the first 2hours...
then i started to think properly and leave everything until tuition is over...

yea then after tuition went home...
and i DID NOT RUN A MARATHON!!!!!
repeat...
I DID NOT RUN A MARATHON AT NIGHT!!!!
i only ran marathon with my test papers and phrases for the whole afternoon
which explains why i am shag!!!
lolx...

oh yarhx... someone wanted to know wad true love is...
i searched the bible and here is wad it says^^

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.—I Corinthians 13:4-8

^^

2008-08-28T05:43:00.000-07:00

WOOZZIES!!

lolx... ok today was really a take-a-break day for me...
i noe though even though the examinations are coming in like 5 days,
i nid a break...
since monday to wed been studying till 7 at cher's house and rushing homework at night till 930?
can die horhx...
even though i still can take it mentally but physically i cant...=(
tmr's ACES day and i think i am falling sick already...

Many turn of events took placed around me but to my surprise,
I AM LAGGING^^
there are people who detest me,
there are people want to kill me,
there are people who wants to whack me,
but hahax...
i going to tell them, i dun hate you, instead i'll choose to forgive you...
cos i dun feel a single emotion of scared-ness in my life...
juz being paranoid to some people who gone was oways by me side^^

i dunnoe wad to say now...
boohoo then that means only 1 thing...
finish blogging liaoz^^
byebye^^

shag...

2008-08-27T05:05:00.000-07:00

today same lurhx...
stayed back for History...till 400pm...
went to auntydawn house till 700pm...TT.TT
sadly again...for the third tym...
hard core lerhx...
Ns coming...cannot slack lerhx...

to all those studying, jiayous too...
can find me go out to study with you if you have no one to go with^^

at Aunty Dawn's house, saw this poster on the wall...
its part of the scripture.
here it goes...

Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven.

Blessed are they that mourn,
for they shall be comforted.

Blessed are the meek,
for they shall inherit the earth.

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they shall be filled.

Blessed are the merciful,
for they shall obtain mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they shall see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they shall be called children of God.

Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness sake,
for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven.

yups... thats all^^
NOW OFF YOUR COMPUTER AND GO STUDYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

ahhhhh!!!!!

2008-08-26T06:15:00.000-07:00

hellos~

today had some ups and downs^^
Morning~

dunnoe why had muscle ache on my left arm...TT.TT...(DOWN)

during assembly, that dam cher came up again and said some quotes....
i dun find it good or wad u noe...
in fact i find it IRRRRRRRRRRRITATING!!!!!(DOWN)
c'mon larhx, he juz came out of no where... and starts leading morning assembly...
i dun even noe wad he teaches can? idiot seh...

then had chem...nothing much=(
after that had...um...^^ CME!!
yoong showed us a video...LOL
bout sexuality... at first everybody very interested^^
but in the end nothing much larhx...
dun get me wrong^^
i wasn't interested from the start... then after that he started to ask some questions...
he asked jaga... wad is the video trying to say?
jaga replied:" HAVE SEX SAFELY!!!"....LOLOLOLOLX
laughs*

then Yoong said lets find someone with moral sense...
he turned to me^^(UP)
i said um... dun get involve with sex at this age?
then Yoong said actually its... Responsibility!!!-.-

then recess~
go down canteen, nobody derhx^^
then eat liaoz went to find Simon Wong...
he crazy cher-.- say wad marks they changed again...
sian!!
then had english^^
hahax.... got back our paper1...
Yoong went thru the questions...
i did question 6 so took quite long for my paper to come back...
cos every question he would show the model answer and then give back the paper...
stopped at question3...
then had maths...
all i can say was...i survived^^
after that Yoong came in again...
he went thru question 4... then question 5...
questions 5 bout beauty...
and ZHIHUI!!!!
out of the only 3 ppl in class 4n1/2 who attempted that question, GOT THE HIGHEST OF 20 MARKS!!!!!
model essay larhx!!! confirm go into slices of life derhx!!!!
zhihui....last minute then outshine everybody...LOLx...jiayous for Ns^^
then question6^^
my essay was the model essay...^^(UP)
first tym lehx... so very happy^^ all this not possible without God...
first God told me to read that book...
then before paper i prayed for guidence...
and the questioned came out...
Q6) Write about a book which you had read and explain why you like it so much.
hahax^^ i wrote bout that book lorhx^^
21/30^^

then after school waited for Leon to end remedial...
then walked to aunty dawn's house...hahax....
AKATSUKI ROX^^

at A.D's house,
did and memorised composition sentences...
rambo all the way from 345pm to 645pm...
Shag~
at least aunty dawn said
AD: zhiern ni3 yao4 yong4 gong1 do3 shu1 xiang4 xian4 zai4 yi4 yang4...
ru2 guo3 ni3 kao3 "A" wo3 qing2 ni3 chi1 da4 can1..."(UP)
J: (in chinese) but if i get "A", should be i treat you marhx?^^
AD: (in chinese)in all my years of teaching... you are the first to say that...
(shocked)...0.0
then she said a chinese chengyu...dunnoe wad larhx...
but it means teachable and worth teaching^^ (UP)
weets...=DD
after went home,
somethings happen...and most were Downs...
they cancelled the UPs effects so now...
i am neutral...

ok lerhx... now i go revise liaoz...
bye^^

bbco concert...

2008-08-25T04:37:00.000-07:00

Weets^^
i post bout ytd concert ok?
before that...Sorry debbie for making you wait 2hours? LOLx.... srysry
then um...went to tiong bahru...okok before that i shall explain why i am late...
first...
i couldn't find my ezlink card!!!! its with my I.C. so of cos panicked...
and when panicking, i tend to not look with care so really couldn't find it...
then i saw the BBCO ticket while finding my ezlink card... and heng lurhx....
budden-.-... i put it on the table at the corner in my studyroom...
and i cont finding...
to make things short, i took my bro's ezlink card and left,
fogetting to take the dam ticket=.=
blur*

then at tiong bahru, debbie and i went to macdonald, slack there for quite long while...
debbie wore long sleeve and jeans which looked alright. its juz her makeup=p
sry debbie again...^^
not used to it...lol?

then she said i looked lyk a PK!!!!!
PK!!!!=PAIKIA!!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
i am not a PK =(

nvms. reached tanjong pagar and it was raining and hahax... we have no umbrella...
thanks debbie for coming back to fetch me...LOLx
me and raymond were intending to take the starbucks umbrella larhx...

i was wearing sth similar to raymond^^
LOLx...

the concert was...good? only for some songs...
and THERE'S A PERCUSSIONIST WHO LOOKED LYK TAN PUISAN!!!!!!
OMFGOSH!!!!!!
she played the timpani for longteng...
hahax^^ i spotted a mistake^^
ken and xueying did the solo...
ken-no taifeng but no mistakes
xueying-got taifeng but got mistakes^^
LOLx...
overall was still good and i was dazzled by jiawei for a moment^^

and TODAY...
told that someone will not leave her in the lurch...
got probs i settle...
cos of some stuff and i am the main suspect-.-
so being framed i would rather go explain then leave the suspicions there...
so everything turned out ok...
broke of with someone...sadsad...<=(

and today first day of school got that DAM CHEE-NA CHER CAME IN....
spoil everyone's mood...
she give out test paper i tell you how she giv^^
she was supposed to give out 2 pages to one person...since i was sitting with heelon, she gave the cover page to me and the second page to heelon...=.=
then i went to the table to take the missing pages, she say go back to your place and dun touch my things...
SIAO!
then when the paper start, i share with heelon cos dunhave the question...
she came over and said: since when i say can discuss!!!
CHEE-NA 38!!!
china win 50 gold medals, dosen't mean you can anyhow boss us around...
not happy go back china larhx...

then after school went tuition till 7...
went home blog, dinner=shag...
SSSSSSSHHHHHHAAAAAAGGGGGGGG!!!!!
going bathe liaoz^^
byes gdnite^^

cold

2008-08-24T18:01:00.000-07:00

WOOOTS....

today wake up chittao post liaoz....
noe why? COS...
sth very nicee happened...
ytd i opened the windows and sleep...
guess wad....
i din on the fan nor the aircon...
and i was already covering myself with 2 blankets...

LOLX.....
it seriously was very cold ytd night... and its a good way to save electricity...
hahax... i dunnoe whether its because my window is faced directly to an open field...
so nvm...
for all geog students who love the earth SOOOOOOO much^^...
try that.... whole night nvr on fan nvr on aircon....
save electricity...
hahax...
thats it...

bye ltr going to BBCO concert...
jiayous...
byebye^^

framed...

2008-08-23T06:04:00.000-07:00

Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen

Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours

Everything I am for your kingdoms cause

As I go from nothing to Eternity

being framed...

dun worry...

everything will turn out fine....-.-

byebye^^

cnt wait to wear my new ear stud=DD

freak

2008-08-22T04:16:00.000-07:00

DUN LET THAT BI*CH DESTROY US...
YOU HAVE NOTHING TO BE SCARED OF...
JUZ PROVE YOU ARE NOT WAD SHE SAYS!!!!!
WHY YOU SO SCARED OF HER....

IT FREAKING PAINS ME....
I WILL HELP AND SUPPORT YOU!!!!
AND THE LETTER "R" ON MY FREAKING KEYBOARD IS NOT FREAKING WORKING!!!!
AHHHHH......
EVEN MY KNUCKLES ARE BRUISED....
THE WALL IN MY HOUSE CRACKED...
ALL COS OF THAT BITCH....
EVEN WITHOUT HANDS AND LEGS....
I WILL FIND A WAY....
TO GET REVENGE YOU WATCH ME...

NO ONE I REPEAT NO ONE HAS EVER MADE ME SO FREAKING MAD BEFORE...

sucks

2008-08-21T02:00:00.000-07:00

Rumours, gossips destroys everything...
Misunderstandings too... they destroy....
wads left is nothing...
N.O.T.H.I.N.G
thats exactly me...
nothing...
nothing who has nothing left...

it saddening...
pls...
Bring back those days and times...

leon piercing

2008-08-18T02:53:00.000-07:00

Before i start...
THERE'S LOW REMIX^^
ROX BOY!!!!!!!!!!
weets^^ well done franscisco...

Today first tym go school with piercing...
and majority said i paikia=.=
which i am NOT
and then sinyee said i look lyk shyt...T.T
tricia said i not cute liaoz...=.=
i din think i ever was -.-
tsingmin said better then she expect it to be...
paulina and debbie said nicer stuffs which i dunwan put cos^^
ltr tio comment...
And Heelon go scratch my arm today...T.T
abuse me...sobxsobx....
hurt me so much...whole hand red...waaaaaT.T

After school...
sorry Tsingmin i couldn't convice Leon not to pierce...
he cut his hair before he pierce so tmr confirm die...
LOL...
he putting plaster all the way...
hahax... Black music rocks soooooooo much^^
esp B.E.P- Hey Mama...
so nicee^^ sry was listening to it while posting...
slack around then went home...
thats it barhx^^
okok post till here^^
byebye~^^

hellos

2008-08-17T04:22:00.000-07:00

Hellos...
today i stay at home...
emo until 430pm...
met paulina did some stuffs tgt...
dun worry Gerald...=.= nothing of THAT sort^^
then went home and thats it for today...

sorry tsingmin... i noe you dun lyk it... but
i am juz really very sorry...
if by any means i can get your forgiveness pls name it...
Sorry.... how bout another 17 pages o

Byes~
=DDf sorry?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2008-08-16T23:14:00.000-07:00

today was so fine...

UNTIL...
paulina msged me...
the text message was :
Tsingmin =D

AND SHE THINKS THAT ME AND TSINGMIN STEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!
BUT THE ANSWER IS
NO!!!!!!(in your face!!!!)

she is only my SISTER!!!!
satisfied?

aiya i already explain ALOT,ALOT,ALOT AND ONCE AGAIN ALOT of tyms lerhx....
go think wad you guys wan ok^^
for all i care... cos she and me are sister and brothers...
NOTHING ELSE!!!

ok byebye^^

cheerup

2008-08-15T23:19:00.000-07:00

Song dedication to Miss Zoe^^
dun be sad lerhx... it pains me to see you sad too...
trying so hard to do sth for you to cheer you up but nth happens... cheerup... this song for you derhx^^
here it goes:
If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can run away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your sideI promise you,
I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

so cheerup Miss Zoe^^

Today... was worried bout Sister... she emo-ing...T_T
so was kinda worried -- :x
then after assembly went to hall... have SS prelim paper today...x.x
for the SBQ can do...
but for the SEQs...
my confidence lvl was -100...
was worried bout sister then plus cher nvr teach some stuffs...
SO= fail terribly?
i scared next year cannot promote...
i see the first question... saw northern Ireland educational thingy, my mind think skipp liaoz...
then second question bout meritocracy in singapore... have teach but i FORGET!!! so skipped
and i did the third question...GLOBALIZATION!!!!! my overall worst topic!!! but the questions are all do you think this/ do you think that? all these so i do lorhx...

After paper really veryvery tired... then i feeling dam shyt too cos liddat do paper can fail...
so really sad... but i will work harder...
then felt better when going home coscos sister was (to me only) looking better^^
so dun worry ok? Bro promise I will work harder promote to 5n^^
lolx...
waiting for maths tuition cher to come now...
so blog first...

and i wunt play dota until 'N's are over...
say liaoz cannot break...X.X
okok
post till here today...
tmr anyone free nid ppl to go out with can jio me...
bye~

quiz~

2008-08-14T03:36:00.001-07:00

X.X
tsingmin asked me to do a quiz on her blog...
i din see it until now... and its soooooooooooo long liaoz...
so anyways now i free so do lorhx...
since it was july 17 when she asked me to do it...
i shall do it as if i doing it on that day itself...

1)The last person who tagged you is?
Tsingmin... check older messages =.=

2)Whats your relationship with him/her?
Sister/Friend/Junior... yea?

3)First five impression of him/her?
Playful, Popular, Potential Fren, Rich and Fortunate...x)

4)The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
Very long lerhx... support me go to movies with Peijin =.=

5)Most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
Can you be my bro?

6)If he/she become your lover, you will?
have one lerhx... wait till the love fades^^

7)If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she nid to improve on will be?
Be less vulgar-ish ^^

8)If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Ask why larhx!!! Duh...

9)If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
I dunnoe the answer leh...

10)The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Tell how much i appreciate her... =DD

11)Your overall impression of him/her is?
Good sister and tends to bottle up stuffs... dun liddat lerhx... :x

12)How do you think people around you will feel about you?
I oso not them ask me for?

13)The characters you love yourself are?
Dunnnoe... ltr tio comment... dunwan...

14)On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are?
I humji... I not good enough... Not enough self-confidence...

15)The most ideal person you wan to be is?
Carefree man^^

16)For people that care and like you, say something to them:
................
................
Touched~ crying now................T_T

yea thats the quiz tsingmin asked me to do.... SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO long liaoz...
that tym still liked Peijin... if only now still the same...
too bad cnt be done anymore...

trying larhx...

2008-08-14T02:45:00.000-07:00

Trying to forgive... esp now?
yea... um... maybe a few more days to cool down and everything will be back to normal...
you oso take this tym to recover barhx...
shld noe who i am talking bout...

Yea... today... lolx... SHAG!!!
have chinese paper1 paper2
thanks sinyee for lending me dictionary...
thanks tsingmin for helping me ask her...
Thanks both of you...
then when paper start, i stare at the cover page for 5mins...
then i look at the questions for 10mins...
then i wrote my address in letter writing and the guy's address...
by the tym i finished lolx... 30mins gone liaoz...
then i "woke up" LOL
cos ytd night memorised the phrases till 1230am? yea...

then got newspaper report... about teenagers gambling...
MY SMILE COULDN'T BE BIGGER^^
lolx... my efforts the previous night paid off^^
when i see the question, in my mind lyk all the answers slowly print out liaoz...
nicenice lemme copy onto the exam sheet^^
woots!!! (full of confidence)

then return the dictionary to sinyee... mr yoong was asking why i so big still paste that sticker on the dictionary... and i guess by returning to you, it shut him up^^ LOL

paper2 i really tired liaoz... and wad i said was true ain't it?
the short passage with 15 words and 10 blanks...
the 5 words not usable all have the same words rite^^ told you lerhx...
after the li jie ce yan, begin to think how to help with her problems...
therefore, i read the first and second sentence of the passage and look at the rest...
when i tot i read finish le, i dunnoe wad the dam passage was saying, so re-read...
then when attempted to do the questions, i stare at it blankly for a total of half an hour!!!
even though it paid off quite well BUT ITS NOT GOOD!!!!
(dun learn from me)

then finish the paper went back to class to slp... Shag...
wait for tsingmin then went home tgt with her...

And to that someone, not leon...
that jian bitch,
DUN GO AROUND BAD-MOUTHING PEOPLE...
if you have no friends you shld ask yourself wads wrong and not go around brainwashing ppl
by bad mouthing others... you think about it... if your current "friends" noe wad u did,
u think they will still stick with you or not? ask yourself... even your sister oso give you brainwash... the world would be so much better off without bitches like you...
so if u really want to make friends, change your dam attitude and tactics... cos one day you'll be exposed and by then its too late to apologise...

irritating

2008-08-12T05:53:00.000-07:00

OK!!! look izzit the same? not bad eh?LOL

anyways was trying to act mafia with my new look^^
the main thing is the earring^^ not bad eh?
thats the captivating part... LOL
if i liddat walk to school cfm get whack 5 tyms...
and if i walk home liddat cfm get whack 10 tyms...

so i am juz a normal boy who dun dare to fight...
actact nia^^ COSPLAY^^
nvm...=.=
then stay back with nigel they all..
and went back home... saw tsingmin outside the train...
then go with her to the busstop and she saw her primary school fren...

guess wad!!! tio mistaken lolx...
nvm... then i went home i put on the "props"
i scare my brothers... followed by my mother
i sapala towards them went i went down to help take groceries...
lolx...

so i blog till here tonight...
tmr i want to do that again...
and tmr prelims... muz jiayous... to all taking it with me^^
byebye~

Cleared....

2008-08-11T04:09:00.000-07:00

Today... is monday holiday...
i tot got school =.=
lucky tuition teacher told me got no school...
so went her house in the morning till 130pm...
had lunch with family... did some crap...
then went out to meet debbie they all to study...

then leon called said sum1 was angry at me...
then talked for quite long and drain my battery out!
i got home feeling even more guilty becos the person is angry with me...
and at that tym i was thinking of a way to apologise to that person cos i
betrayed that person's trust...

when i reached home i called that person...
that person said was not angry with me...
then i told that person not to use vulgarities again...
and told that person to look under that person's desk tmr..

To that person: i hope after wad u have seen wad i have done, i hope you forgive me...
i juz want to hear the words from your mouth "i forgive you"
pls i hope you can have the confidence to share your troubles and secrets
with me again... i promise crossed my heart that i will not tell anybody no matter
how close is he/she to me or whether he/she threatens to kill my family...
i will keep that secret for you...whos none other then my dear sister... i am sorry

yea so post till here going to bathe liaoz... byebye

bored to death

2008-08-09T23:16:00.000-07:00

Hellos^^

Today is sunday... and i am bout to die...x.x
die of boredom... i dun mind juz going out for a walk but at least have someone go with marhx...
walk alone oso very sian ltr walk half way die...
so now i rotting infront of the P.C

finished my maths worksheet and there's nothing left to do...
juz now went for a haircut...
my poor hair... all gone T_T
now look a little lyk a mohogT.T
sooooooooooooooooooooooooobx.......

play private server oso will sian derhx...
so i stopped and blog...
Leon go cruise...the others dunnoe now nobody around...
alone at home... nobody jio me out...
feel so lonely...
this is urging me next tym muz get a wife...
or else when old le can die...
sooooooooooooo looooooooonely...
the most is drink until high...
but i promised someone i wunt drink lerhx rite SOMEONE??
^^

ok blog until here tonite hope got some events...
heart nids recovery....nid someone close to me to help speed it up...
but ht/she has someone lerhx... so might as well be alone...
goodluck josh...

national day

2008-08-09T05:46:00.000-07:00

WOoooooos....
today is national day... happy birthday...
to joel too... my brother^^ oso today his birthday..

Today i woke up at 9 oclock... AND I THOUGHT IT WAS SUNDAY!!
ok today he invited his frens come our house...
all so young act punk... hahax...^^

then dad TOOK OUT MY PSP AND GAVE HIS FRIENDS TO PLAY!!!
immdiately temperature rose... i flared up...
on my birthday he din lemme play for half a day... then
bro's birthday he let bro's FRIENDS play...

after that he come apologize to him... then Caleb (second brother use my phone play Apologize chorus) cos he oso buisong the friends cos they act punk... so we both bad mood lock ourselves in the bedroom... my dad hear liaoz then say Sorry... your birthday present maybe give me some time i will get for you... then walk out... SUPER TIO OWN!!!
brother's tagg team...

then ltr they went out then played beatup... i own^^
then went church... till 5?
today had a guest speaker... message on commitment...
its very good... at the end God gave me the vision and feelings that the whole church was clothe in white robes of righteousness of the Lord... very strong and real...
so i sang out... and then had de-brief for ushers...

Ltr bought 10 bottles of barcadi and went home...
very nicee... LOL...
i will never drink again... unless on special occasions... PROMISE!
now blogging... DUH
and spamm BEP songs...
singing lyk a Fool... yea so blog till here
HOPES NEIGHBOURS DUN COMPLAIN...

byebye^^

Destroyed

2008-08-08T00:53:00.000-07:00

Congratz... a devoted guy finally given up,

got crushed to the ground...destroyed...

wads left in that shattered heart is friendship...

weak, pathetic friendship...

Sry if i had done anything wrong...

shall not bother you again...

Now very free so post... err... today had national day celebrations...

was expecting it to be boring like last year but, it turned out great...

i love the indian performance... Ashraff sing lyk pop-star sia~

then dunnoe wad happen as was slacking behind... all i noe is got ppl

go out to the front... then I heard singing.

Soon started to sing... very happy...too bad got sore throat...x.x

then ltr got this year's national song...dunnoe wad Shine shine de larhx...

then i sing lorhx... i cannot find the lyrics cos i threw them away...

so sing until dam high^^

i wanted to give the P.A $2 to play again... LOL lyk K-Box...

then after that got photo... i haven ready then all go back to the class liao...

i was walking at the back... hees...

then ltr dismissed then Leon wanted to go movies...

actually is me larhx... so met Tsingmin at Yewtee (Sorry for being latee for 2 minutes)

then went with them go Westmall...( I very extra!!)

lolx... so got 3 of us... then hahax i went home and changed out of my RED shirt...

then i wore a black polo... go so now only Leon and Tsingmin was wearing RED shirts...

hahax liddat then obvious marhx riterite^^

(Tsingmin is going to chop off my fingers...so type while i can...xD)

so watched "Mummy tomb of dragon emperor"

not funny and not scary...juz normal show only... yep~

no comments bout it myself...

then ltr Leon has to go cos got CRUISE!!! then i went with Tsingmin to the mrt...

Saw Joel...this tym only me and her. duncare wear wad colour, confirm tio mistaken liaoz...

tmr i nid to go explain ltr the whole church noe...zzz...

Tsingmin go Lot1 meet her Mum and i went home... wasnt paying attention at anything was juz walking... cos was feeling Perturbed... Got horned 3 tyms by cars...

Thank God i still alive but now... moody lerhx...

dunwan say anymore...

thats all... ltr going out for dinner... at Father's cell group Dinner...

dunnoe if got appetite or not but who cares...

i am invisible...nobody knows...

invisible

2008-08-07T01:38:00.000-07:00

An Empty street... not really... theres sum1...not a ghost...

but me... i feel that i am invisible to you... Saw your face in the crowd, called out your name, but You don't hear a sound... seeing you sad makes me sad too... at least a random smile will do...

thats wads good bout being invisible at times but sadly not all times.......

Today iis the deadline for Dnt...applied glue to the hinges again... hopees it will be strong...

completed my folio today juz in tym...

so after the first 2 periods of Dnt walked back to class with Sadesh

Saw her along the corridor, an as expected... was invisible to her... not even a Hi...

but i could see from her face, shes not feeling good...

Then had maths... LOLx... i did my Dnt din do any maths... hees~

after that had P.E. we, Iraq, got thrashed... coscos benjamin din come, zhihui was in class doing Dnt and gordon was sick... so we lose a terrible 2-14.

then had recess... din eat juz went up to do my Dnt...

then had chem... secretly did my Dnt too... i drew and decorated my name on a piece of paper...

lazy to put up... LOLx...

hmmms~

yea then had english 1 period did summary... then check overall the whole paper i got 63/80

but i dunnoe whether correct lorhx...

then went computer lab2 to do N.E. quiz...

i did as fast as i could with a terrible score of 247'000

cos tsingmin waiting for me...

went back to class then i do the finishing touches of my folio and submit it...

sry horhx...TM... make you wait...

then go home with her... and um...

There is nothing between me and Tsingmin!!! We stay at yewtee so go home tgt cannot arhx?!!! =.="

she and me only brother and sister nia...Not BF/GF!!

cos along the way tio mistaken by alot,alot,alot,alot of ppl from 2e5 all the way to 4t1...

so yea shes my dear sister only^^

ltr going to do Dnt... so now relax first barhx^^

shall post till here today...

I am a blurr kuku!...

nvm^^

byebye~

quick post

2008-08-06T07:07:00.000-07:00

hellos...
this is a quick post...
as i said its a quick post therefore
nothing much is going to be posted.
today practically did nothing...
and in school i forgot wad happen cos u can see
i am racing against tym to complete my dnt folio
deadlines tmr
so i cannot stop and dilly dally...
and so to prevent ppl from asking me to update, i am putting up this quick post...
and one more thing i rmb is that
Tsingmin and her gang went for their performance
audition today... and so i wish them good luck and all the best
i will be cheering for you guys^^
weets^^

ok i shall end my quick posting now byes

better abit!

2008-08-04T05:04:00.001-07:00

Today its my... Look at my birth date =.=
so muz put a post...

Um... Firstly is to thank Tsing Min and Sinyee...
Lolx... i am seriously so touched... for the first tym in my entire life!!!
on the outward expression its juz a happy face but inside, my whole heart overflowing with tears of joy... Thankyou girls SOOO much.... they bought me a cake, lighted it sang me the birthday song... that cake i dunnoe how much but i noe its very ex... its very nice... alot of chocolate... LOLx...^^

Next is... Leon he brought his PSP juz so that i can play it...AGAIN cried in my heart with tears of joy... too bad i deproved... chance of max combo-ing Seeker quite low lerhx...
thenthen thanks Nigel for being the First person to wish me...^^ and for the slapping^^

LOL... lyk i giving NDP speech... if you have your speakers turn it on!! and replay the music^^
hahax...
thanks oso to tricia, peijin, debbie, shermain, yiying, cassandra, Ruoning, Kaining, heelon, danny, Djalil, jiawee, shollehan, Aslam, zul, diyana, Fuddin, Emu and daniel...^^ to gordon pls get well soon^^ missed your laughter x.x

typing this is making me cry... i am so touched this year... its different from past years...
maybe cos yall did much better then wad my family members did...
I thank God for arranging us to meet in Swiss Cottage... Thank God for everyone of you...
Yall will oways have a place in my heart.

today after hist remedial, i went tuition sry my phone no batt... thanks to heelon who used it all up while playing heroslore...

now juz reached back home... i am learning to forgive my dad... my brothers too...
cos i noe and that the HS is convicting me that under all this quarrels and fights... its a BIG and deep river of love which cannot be stopped...^^

yep so thanks so much for all you have done for me people... you guys will oways have a place on my heart and a shoulder ready for you to lean on^^ esp my Sister and Brother...

byebye^^

sux

2008-08-03T01:23:00.000-07:00

Alrite ytd um... normal din go anywhr until night...

din talk with dad too... he very !@@#$$$$%@$#%@
This was what happened...

Joshua=J
Dad=D...DUH!!!

J: daddy can i have my PSP tmr? cos i going to fren birthday bbq then they all got bring so may i have mine back? plsss... i come home then return to you...
D: No! Your N lvl coming hor... 13/14 Aug your exam already better go study...
J: why its juz for 1 day wad?
D: NO! no more negotiation...
J: then you dun give me back why u dun put password on the computer? still gimme play for wad?
D: (diamdiam) then NO means NO...

thats it... pissed...
then so then next day which was 2nd aug...
he come jiao wei with me...
i woke up then i go do Mr Yoong compre and Dnt...
he come ask me go eat... i din say anything...
then he buy back breakfast for me i oso din eat... i give brother eat...
then i go read book ... till 1030 then he fetch brother go school by car...
go and back shld be half hour...
so when he left um... i played comp then he came back this was wad happen...

D: OFF THE COMPUTER!!! TELL YOU SO MANY TYMS ALREADY...
i cutted him
J: I OSO NOT PLAYING GAMES!!! I WATCHING VIDEO GOT WRONG MEH?!!!
D: I TELL YOU HOW MANY TYMS ALREADY DUN WATCH THIS KIND OF VIDEO...
J: wads wrong?
D: your exam COMING your still play computer!!! go study !!
J: YOU NVR SEE WHOLE MORNING I DOING WAD ARHX? THEN MOMENT I WOKE UP...
D:Have your reading book...

i offed the comp go inside my bedroom get ready go out of house liaoz...
then i go eat lunch
my bag was beside me then Dad come jiaowei...

D: later are you going out?
J:.....
D: i asking you a question?
j: go ask mum larhx!!! i go out oso WUNT FAIL N LEVELS ONE!!!
D: you tell her already ?
J: if i nvr tell her i ask u ask her for wad?
D: so are you going church?
i take bible put inside the bag beside me...
D:then you going grandma house?
J: .......
D: how much money you need?
J: you dunwan give me oso can... the most i starve....
D: i thought you going BBQ?
J: then juz now you still ask rubbish?
D: i give you 5 dollar enough already...

then i ask mother for another 10 bucks then he tell me 11oclock go home...
i stormed out of the house...

I forgotten to bring my wallet so go back... then he said this
D: why u come back?
J: take wallet... and cani have my PSP?
D: NO!
J: wads wrong?? now i asking you gimme for half a day!!!
D: NO!!
J: i play PSP half a day WUNT FAIL N LVL LARHX!!!
D:....
J: u think you confiscate PSP liddat can make me top student arhx? whr u get that concept...
D: dun talk to me liddat!!!
J: forget it larhx... tonight i coming home very late... you better not wait for me...

i dashed out of the house...
he called me i rejected 3 tyms....

then after church go BBQ then stayed there until 1215 then went home cos very sian...
then ah ben very tired so go back with him...

then my dad came down to pay taxi...
D: 30 dollars!!! next tym no more going out
J: did i say next tym i wan go out?
D: ya good you jolly well stay at home and study...
J: oh yarhx lyk today i nvr study liddat
D: n lvls coming ltr u fail u watch out...
J: so now u cursing me larhx?
D: i am not cursing you juz stating the facts...
J: state wad facts... is u dun have any confidence in me... might as well stop my schooling...
D:...

then go and sleep liaoz...

today!!!
woke up at 1030...
then i ask him can go lunch at Lot1... nid buy stuffs...
i realised he bought my Brother a crumpler...
he saw me looking at my brother then he said...
joshua your present too expensive...
too bad lolx... i bought my glue by asking my mother for money... cos he dunwan buy it...
then i took bus home... duncare liaoz... make me fedup...
now going out with him...
lolx... he wan start conv with me... then wunt be reply...

too bad...
i angry is cos
1) dunwan return my PSP for half a day
2) no confidence in me passing N s
3) Bais !$^#%^%
4) only see me use comp...

crap ok i seriously gotto go byebye^^
its crap tmr i not going home very early... toobad..
byebye

dnt was fun

2008-08-01T05:19:00.000-07:00

TODAY!!!! is FRIDAY!!!!

um... actually dunnoe happy for wad larhx...

i went to school as early as i could^^ to catch some gd views...

then um... i ran in the morning... weight was heavy 73.2kg...

height 171? then GAN said i nid to be 73.1 to be out...

then he ask me take weight but i drank 250ml of water lerhx... so after school then take...

thenthen got mother tongue...

then physics...

then E.T then recess

din eat cos ltr got weight taking

then dnt... was worried... then i finished making a pulley plus the thingy to connect my LEDs to the side^^

then i go take weight this was wad happen...

Gan told me take off my uniforms cos it adds on to the weight .... i had PE inside so i took off uniform... and den he ask me take off socks and specs... then weight was 73.3...

cos to get out i nid to get 73.1...

then he ask me go pee then i came back and then tadah 72.9kg... LOL

so idiotic lorhx... make a fool out of me...sobx...

then ltr go back canteen and ate a mountain of food^^ then went back DNT...

put epoxy on the hinges and went to watch concert video... peijin's face was charred... i played the mu yu too loud... and i couldn't find my Sis in the Orchestra... LOL

then i went back do abit of stuffs then naufal go take the file and put against the sand machine... alot of sparks flew out seh!!! I laughed lyk siao larhx... then i go try... LOL fun^^ then khairil go take 2 files and i on the vacuum machine then khairil said

GENTLEMEN START YOUR ENGINE then i on the vacuum then sound is lyk a subaru engine larhx... then khairil go make hell lot of sparks fly^^ then he even spit sparks from his mouth^^

very fun when we stop, mr wong juz stepp in... TYCO!!!

then went home with percussion and tats my day^^

byebye^^

then had mother tongue... followed by physics...

hellos

2008-07-31T05:42:00.000-07:00

BOOOO!!!
today um.... i went to school at 600am...
very shiok... lyk ghosthunter liddat... go so early...

lolx... today is last day of july...
and i nid to hand in my dnt next thurs!!!! i haven complete artefact!!!
OMGOSH!!!

nvm lorhx... i wanna itouch!!!
i forogtten wad happen today... all i noe was
dun get a referee from iraq...
and singapore has up-ed its armed force...
iraq ppl tried to bomb but failed... LOL
thats during P.E.

then um...recess bought manymany drinks^^
then got science... followed by english...
then i stayed in class for awhile...

then go dnt... thenthen ummm go home with leon...
we were walking behind tsingmin they all...
LOL....
go home and sleeeeeeeeeeeep...
worried now ltr tonite cnt slp..
ok byes~

2008-07-30T03:31:00.001-07:00

hellos...
long tym since i last post but... haiish...
very bored plus nth to post bout...

eh... today arhx... i only rmb the best part which is after school...
but ended with hist... then stay in class till 3oclock...
then wait for tsingmin to go back with her...
then was late for tuition...
finish tuition audi with the peron i love...
then lol...
my comp is laggin larhx!!!!
i cnt do a proper story mode without lagging...

then ltr going for music class... so thats bout it^^
yup seeyou ppl tmr^^
byes~

mock test answer

2008-07-27T01:45:00.000-07:00

As debbie was telling me, the mock paper was killer...
then she told me the second question killed almost 95%...
i shall post the answer here... lolx^^
but i dunnoe bout the other questions larhx...yep

2)there are total of 29 workers in a factory. there are 7 more female workers then male workers.
a) write out 2 equation that satisfy F and M
b)using simultaneous equation find out F and M

2a) Equation 1: F+M=29
Equation 2: F-M=7

2b)simultaneous equtaion solve larhx!!!
Equation1+ Equation2
Equtaion 3: 2F=36
Therefore, F=18
Sub F into Equation 2

So, 18-M=7
18-7=M
Therefore, M=11

thats it^^...YAY!!!

today stay at home... nothing much...
yea... kinda regretted not following my parents larhx...
gdbye~

TIRED!!!

2008-07-25T05:21:00.001-07:00

today i am very tired.....
first had mother tongue in the morning...
i dozed off while doing zuo ye...
lucky mslim nvr see or else...

thenthen ET...
wad you do in ET? run lorhx...
then had recess...funny thing happened...
i went to first floor water cooler then i on the water...
it shot straight up very high... then i filled my bottle lerhx then i go on again...
sia larhx i tot i offed it then i walk away... then nvr u noe...
then water continued shooting up... then i was lyk OMGOSH!!!
i turned it off... i so kuku^^ but fun eh?^^

then dnt 4 periods... little improvement in my arterfact...
completed my circuit found epoxy glue...
undone stuffs are... pulley system and lever...
nid chiong still got folio...

then went tuition...
dozed off while doing correction.. then had a test...
after test i went home with kaiming...
he called me bitch... and today i was showed the middle finger 2 tyms....
first in the morning by paulina
second by kaiming after i sent him home...

then being traumatize( dunnoe how to spell) and tired...
i went the wrong direction and ended up in a different block...
went into the lift den realised...
i walk towards my home then stepped into the drain...
i then crossed the road and slammed into a lamppost in black...
ltr dad called me i couldn't recognise leh... then i saw him...
went into the lift of my block and i tot i had made it...
too bad i pressed wrong floor =.=
then almost pressed the bell...

went i got home brothers quarrelled...
i ended up being hated and scolded by my brothers whom i tried to break up from fighting...
still i let it go as the bible says
Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of Me(God)

so yea... thats my day^^
byebye~