I've found a friend who died for me

Wow!!Today's 29 FEBUARY2009!!!...know wad that means??
its a leap year so muz blog today cos 29 feb only comes once every
4 years!!! today i went to school early not intending to run...n i did
not run today...hahax^^i lazy pig...so nvr run but went down to
canteen wait for aloy n heelon finish running^^...lolx i made a new
enemy today...joseph lorhx...who ask him go be a poser...u ask him
in game have any rare items he cfm say have have...
Example:
joshua: joseph u have brown workglove??(maple)
joseph: that one arhx have larhx...so EASY get de...
joshua: really?? where u get it from??
joseph: hunt one lorhx...
This item cannot be hunted...omgosh...dun believe??go to this thread
http://sea.hidden-street.net/items/glovescommon.php

So ytd i sabo him in dota i toss him over to heelon n let
heelon kill him^^ hahax i so evil^^but who cares...in the
end he kp me wtf i doin of cos i said i using u to attack them
lol...so today joseph din even talk to me hahax...
i was waiting for C.o. the whole day not bcos she was there
but bcos we are going thru the concert songs^^ at first qingdian
wah all the sec4s n some of the sec3s are gone...dunnoe go whr
cept for qinxin felicia qiaohui ernest i tink yup...u noe wad qing dian
sounded dead...i dunnoe wad will happen after my batch of sec4Es
passout...unimaginable...so it sux n broke up into sectionals in the end...
sobx....but ltr we play technology n its the best so far since we play...
but i tink the yangqin qizhou is better cos they got applause after they
play finish while we technology dun hav...so sad but maybe cos evrybody
feel that techno is sian liaoz...

i after co go tuition...leon walk with me to my cher hse's...so gd but he ask me
bring him over the other side of the hill take bus...juz then 1 945 went pass
we were walking at srolling speed n i took a shortcut n hey the same 945 bus
is there it juz arrived...Leon couldn't believe his eyes he got a shock sia...lolx
ltr got tuition until 8...
yup but today is 29 FEBUARY n muz rmb today everything i hav done^^
gd nite all

Today quite high...cos somebody said the annoucements today...hahax
i was hoping for more annoucements...lolx...but bo bian...then ltr during
P.E. we played a game jiawee n his group made up...very fun...its lyk
rugby but different...abit of modifications...ya

After school went to west mall hope to see her there but no hope
de larhx...so went to Subway...n eat. Leon talked bout his new
game he is going to create...it includes all the boys in 4N1 n 4N2
for each of us he may include the person we lyk...lol...its a warcraft
game...hahax ya so hope to play it first with him...

Ltr after slacking with aloy bohui they all at west mall...i went tuition...
n thx aloy for the lift to my tuition teacher's hse...i did a zhuowen there
n i realised i was rather awake...maybe cos i keep on thinkin bout her
yarhx...i may hav let her go but dosen't mean i stop lyking her...so i keep
thinking bout her n i dunnoe y...but this is worst class scenario...
1 sided love...haix...paiinful but i wun show it that i am so obsessed bout
her i will act normal n i will try...

yarhx...i go play dota liaoz...i tryin new hero...yup so byebye^^

Hahax... hi aagain ppl^^...after that episode with fallin in love...
i tried to get back to my normal life again...of cos that would hav
been too difficult...cos sumtimes keep thinking of her...ya...so itsok

ItzOk thats my audi name^^ yarhx...so today was a normal day..
went school by myself n went to the canteen to eat lyk normal days
i love it^^...everything went according to normal only that Leon...
sadd case...he broke up wif his darling...yarhx...and the whole day Emo
aiyo...leon cheer up yea...i oways support u derhx...

After school i waited for Leon then went to canteen eat...saw her haha
but nvm...so ltr i went home n dota... quite boring...lose 2 match..yea
tmr is full orchestra le muz jy for our concert lorhx...yarhx god bless you^^

This Song lol is for HER...even though the odds
are against me but i jus wan Her to noe how i
feel n maybe after this i may give her up but...
i juz wan HER to listen to this song on my blog...
if she still behaves cold towards me n not accept
me...i am lettin it go even though it hurts...cos
i nid to let go in order to go forward again...so
THIS IS THE QUESTION: will u accept me 1 more tym??
if this tym fails which is a 99.99% to get rejected
again...lol i will LET IT GO... n i hope she will look
me up as a fren again n not sum1 she hates...n i
oso hope she can look me up to teach her maths
cos i am gd at it n i noe wad she is learning cos
same course?? So i will let it go...
Wadeva the reply...i respect it...

Today was quite a day for me lolx...i had 4 periods of DnT
guess wad i decided to make...a wheelchair...lolx not juz any
wheelchair...a wheelchair which has treads n wheels...also
got bluetooth so that if sum1 tries to steal it...u press the button
on the control...the chair come back to u^^...hahax but mr Ethan
Wong said sumthing hurtful...he ask won't the product be heavy??
then if it has treads how u going to fold it?? if the patient needs...
to go hospital how is going to go there...sit on the wheelchair all the
way there?? see?? so bad lorhx...i am juz a student not a professional
but he said dun juz tink urself as a student tink urself as a professional
zzz...CRAP...

ltr on the day got P.E. gd news...The philipino is not in my group anymore
yaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!^^...ltr on normal lorhx got hist...nvr bring my notes
i take out another note n gei sai...wah kamal first tym in history...nvr catch
so after hist got chem...ms tan din come in but her "brother?" mr tan came
in...lolx...after that got chinese then go tuition...at first walk until the front
gate then...turn back for my maths test...i forgot sia...kaining was there doing
halfway liaoz...so i took the paper n forgot hw to do pythagoras' theorum...luckily
i rmb last minute...woots n i completed the paper in record tym...i told ms ma to
giv my tym to kaining...guess wad... she said minus 10 marks for being to proud...
COME ON I WAS BEING KIND...but nvm^^

ltr going to go tuition saw huien n paulina walking tgt lyk gd frens...
i walk with them to tuition...n had tuition until...630pm...hardcore study
lolx...ltr go home want to go play audition again...but cnt start so i blog lorhx
...yarhx thats my day...pathetic...

Today...went to school with a mind full of mixed
feelings...happy n sad...u noe makes wad??makes
me worst...happy that i got my helm n sad cos i m
paranoid that SHE may nvr tok to me again...lolx

So i went to school with cassandra n she ask me how
to do displacement of elements...^^ hahax...then ltr i
go canteen meet with leon heelon aloy n danny...wah
all cut hair...ltr zhihui in the hall oso cut hair...cut until
lyk moehog liddat...lolx sumthing lyk troll warlord in dota...

after school i boliaoz waited for leon to have his remedial n
waited for leon zhabor to have maths n then wait again for
the POA remedial to end...before chinese remedial starts...
i saw her again in the bookshop...i scared n was shocked...
dunnie wad to do...ltr she go class take her bag...wah leon
aloy bohui helon danny joseph all pull me to her class n ask
me to go tell her how i feel...OMG... i tink i gave her a big shock
Sry !@#$%^ yarhx...cencored larhx for privacy...

she looked at me lyk she was going to hate me for life...
i knew u couldn't rush love...haiishx too late...anyway i sold
13 c.o. tickets liaoz...hahax^^ then ltr saw her wif sum1 else
tgt wah aloy n leon almost go whack him...lolx of cos this gd
samaritan help him larhx...he so innocent...yarhx...

ltr that nite i talked wif her n felt so much better^^...wish
all the best ^^yup thats today...nite^^

Today i went C.o. lol w8 for qioahui then went to school wif
her...bout HER...hmm...maybe she needs more tym to consider
bout acceptin me...but i really hope its not too long...n heard from
sumwhr that maybe its that she dosen't want or she's afraid...lol
i dunnoe either but i hope at the end i can get HER...yea but i
muz consider her feelins too eh...

yarhx so today at C.o. i try not to emo...yup i acted as normal n hey
its tough...but i am a senior how can i show juniors my EMO-face
so smile n act normal...ltr during break i eat again...eat meefen...
thats all i had for the whole till 900pm?? yup...being lovesick/heartbroken
takes tym to heal n muz be patient n persevere...giv her tym n next tym
ok liaoz...tym heals everything...it sux to feel hearbroken larhx...dam sux
eat wad oso no taste de...see wad no colour de...listen to wad no mening de
lol...

after that went to church...i left very early y??cos i got rpomoted to usher head...
woots^^at least that sth gd for me...hahax...but din noe usher head very tiring
nid run here run there...after svc oso nid to count offerings...but today so many
ppl attend youth service...altgt got $120.15 collected sia...n attendance 65 ppl
thats gd news n all this is possible cos of the love of God...i hope that my love life
will oso hav enuff love n it alrdy has from God my closest fren...Brothers are lyk
fingers but God is my heart take it away from me i will die...

so after church i feel that i hav nvr been unloved...so y EMO...i am lol encouragin
myself...ltr i went home...i played dota...i felt heaven lot better...cos...
of this video the pastor showed us last tym...Never Been Unloved
this is the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=spr9aCNdRbU
this is the lyrics...sing alog with me...

I have been unfaithful
I have been unworthy
I have been unrighteous
And I have been unmerciful
I have been unreachable
I have been unteachable
I have been unwilling
And I have been undesirable
Chorus:
Sometimes, I have been unwise
Ive been undone by what Im unsure of
But because of you, and all that you went through
I know that I have never been unloved
I have been unbroken
I have been unmended
I have been uneasy
And Ive been unapproachable
Ive been unemotional
Ive been unexceptional
Ive been undecided
And I have been unqualified
Chorus:
Unaware, I have been unfair
Ive been unfit for blessings from above
But even I can see the sacrifice you made for me
To show that I have never been unlove

feel lyk crying?? lol relax this tears now are tears of joy
wads there to emo about when I HAVE NEVER BEEN UNLOVED
so thats my pst for today but i will not give up on HER... i will wait on
her until she is willing to accept me...i will wait until u are ready...
God bless you

Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiizzz......still not the answer i wan though
but at least she talk to me^^...i did a conference...
heheh but i call cass She was already in the conf i din
noe she was in at all...but still hearing her voice makes
me feel happy^^ dunnoe y maybe juz lyk tricia said love
is blind... i lyk her she dun lyk me...anyway cnt force...
if i keep insistin of having her...i am not considering her
feelins n i dunwan that i juz wan her to be happy...its not
lyk i am going to take away her freedom...

all the thoughts bout her n me tgt all BOOM!!!...but thats
fate man...u lyk her she dun lyk u...wad can u do...anyway
today i ate sumthing light in 40hours...cos qiaohui, tricia,
cassandra, paulian, john n wailoon cheered me n encouraged
me to eat sth...hahax love u all to...thanks for doin everything
for my sake...but still i appreciate ur efforts even though she
still reject me...but no point Emo-ing...juz hope that i can get
to know her more nia...i oso wan to bu chang her if during this
period of tym i make her sad by tellin her i lyk her or giving
her a shock...but I REALLY LYK HER!!!...

today after C.O.i went chinese tuition...can't concentrate...
everything in my head was HER her n more her...i cant
think bout anything else...i even got a simple question that a
primary 1 student could get it correct wrong...its lyk str8
forward question n i got it wrong...so tew lian...on the way home i
met shermain...she going to watch movie with her brother...
anyway as i alighted at yewtee...i walk home n almost got
knockdown by car...y KEEP THINKIN OF HER LARHX...
lucky i jump away n fall down...ltr the driver came out...
i run lyk mad dog lyk tat...run home lol...wah dam paiseh larhx...
maybe its my looks or maybe its my attitude that juz cant
get her to be with me...but nvm...seeing her smile is the best
thing for me now...
So i wan to thank everyone hu cheer me up...Leon Tricia Cass
Qiaohui John Paulian Wailoon n others if i missed out...
n sry to Her for causing her to be sad...(thats wad i feel even
though she said no but no one can read the heart) n to Heelon
sit beside me n nid to tahan my emoing the whole day...lolx
sry heelon...
ya that shld be all but still i was hoping this wouldn't end lyk
that but in another way but thats only my wishful thinking...
So even though i nvr get her i will still try sumhow or another
n always rmb God Loves You whether u are brokenhearted
or lonely or unsure...u hav nvr been unloved...
Lolx i still lyk HER!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

How could this happen??!!! maybe cos i am a humjikia dun dare
tell the person i lyk her long tym ago...cos i juz told her ytd...
Haiis....not that she reject me but juz lyk normal fren nia lorhx..
dun noe y but i got the feelin she wont be so frenly towards me
liaoz...maybe i am being paranoid but...ii dunnoe...

IEmo the whole day no mood to do anything...i nvr even eat
suring recess n only ate a little bit at bohui's hse...keep thinkin
but her...lol...i see her oso dun dare tok to her...got this uneasy
feelin...poor me...anyway i belief tat i will get a girl sumwhr...

so lyk danny n me shared the same painful moments tgt...
his girlfren got sent home by sum n sunhow he lost hope...
poor danny...his girlfren for 1 month lyk tat...all wasted...
but he say i worst...haiis...i tink its true barhx...first confession
n a kind answer returned...lets juz be frens...danny n me went
toilet n he cried...

The worst thing is tat everyone hu see us goes aroung sayin
HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!! but c'mon my valentine day was
not happy n so was danny...its sad...so heartbroken...i keep thinkin
bout her the whole day...but its funny how can i lyk her...tats how i
felt but on the other side its sayin...i nid to hav her...wow so many
emotions....n i juz dunnoe how to describe...i hope she n i are still
normal frens lyk before pretendin nothing has happen...sobx:(

i think is my prob lehs...juz dunnoe y...she so nice n i tink i dun deserve
her...???i tink tat its my looks or something else...nid some self confidence
in me...heard from hongming she doesn't lyk boys hu lyk her unless she
lyks the guy herself...dammit i dun believe tat...unless i see for myself
but wadeva happy is not going to stop me from going C.o. or being my happy
self...hahax:)

cos of this i scared to tell ppl that i lyk them...cos in the end if they
reject...they wont be the same to u maybe the stay away from u...i
feel so ashame of myself...dunnoe y lol...i saw her at the bookshop n
i dun dare go in to buy my DNT papers...had to ask danny to go in...
ltr some1 poured water onto me...but nvm i was in no mood to get angry
even nigel punch me i oso din feel anything...sobx...then went bohui house
eat 2 fishballs n 2 nuggets...n drank 2 packets of water...then i went home

at home i played dota no mood to play too...got killed many times...
i really wished i din tell her...but too late...but 1 thing for sure is...
the greatest love of all is mine...its from god...his love is higher then the
mountains n deeper then the valley...n nothing can stop god from loving
me...n God loves u all too^^even her...

there's a song...
Now i've found the greatest love of all is mine
since u lay down ur life the greatest sacrifice
then the chorus...but i lyk the prechorus ...so hope tmr
is a better day n C.o. is tmr so i hope to see everybody there...
n hope everyone valentine is better then mine...
hope she's still a fren of mine...

Today my day was okok...sumhow...cos many thingy
happen...first during physics nothing intresting n i din
fall aslp...so impressed...then i slept during Yoong's
lesson n i dun usually slp in class...dunnoe wad happen
ltr Leon come ask me if i confront debbie that day...but
eh...c'mon i was an extra not supposed to be there n i did
ask them to tell each other wad they know n debbie said
tat was confront...ltr tricia tried explain...but debbie dun
wan listen n they went toilet to "tok things out" leavin
tricia sobbing...haiyo...now back to square 1 again...same ppl
tricia n cass n u noe hu...juz wan to say eh i dunwan bother
bout such nonsense liaoz...

Ltr tricia n cass n fangyu n shirley...paiseh put so many "N"s
was tokin in the class n shermain came n she was dam angry
larhx...OMG... if she angry wif me i nothing to say but...this
prob is...JUST A FUCKING MISUNDERSTANDING...how i
know? i know everything dammit...n we were not confrontin
anybody...so cos of this i wash my hands off this case..

ltr i went home n dota i used centaur n know wad...0-12
2nd match 3-10 better abit cos this stupid sniper shot me
until he died...lol...i laughing...then before i blog i dota wif leon
they all...haahx i kinda own but little bit only...little little little
bit...i super tanker lol...but late game we lost...they too gay liaoz

so ltr father wan use come n oooooooooooooooo got to off...
so thats my day today very tired i wan go slp liaoz...gd nite
all...god bless you...

Hi again...hahax i am bloggin hahax...dunnoe i tink
cos wait paulian say throw my blog into pond again
but nvm...today morning...i bought breakfast...not bad
alot of hao liao...noe y??cos i bought it myself^^...ya
ltr in the afternoon my family n i went to my aunty's hse
u see she juz repainted it...duh of cos she wans ppl to go
visit marhx...

at my aunt's hse we play cards of cos got money larhx...
all ten cents... my uncle was banker win big lose big too
lolx...the game is each person gets 3 cards...add the sum
of ur cards n minus the first number...naturally number 10
is the biggest...if u got 20 or 30 u still win...but if u got 21
u sway cos u got to take away the 2 in the front so u left
1...n u lose...i lost alot at first but reclaim them back when i
alter the rules of winning into sumthin deadly...i said all put
10 cent in the middle of the table...then the person with the
most amount takes all...so win big or lose big...i won 2 tyms!!!
there were lyk 8 ppl playin...tats 80cents...hahax

ltr went to beauty world meet with raymond seboobs n lina
to go pool...lina was there with her frens n we all lyk dunwan
play liaoz...when we got there seboobs realised they are all his
classmates...lame shyt...nvm so play until 630pm wen lina boyfren
came...very handsome...so ltr left at 715pm went lot1 go pastamania
n eat...cost me all my money but worth it...we talked bout percussion
bout the gd old days with only...Meipheng Xueying Raymond Melissa
Jieying Sebastian(i did not say seboobs) Tricia n Me^^those were the
best days in C.o. percussion

Got home my mother got mood swing scold me then after that lyk
nothing happen lyk tat...so random larhx...
took my bath n blog liaoz...hahax tats my today lorhx^^

8/2/2008
Hi once again...lol i am bloggin...i noe its long but no tym u see
anyway wad got me to post today is sumting elena send me in
my msn email... i tink that its cool...n better still if u lyk maths
lyk me cos the title already says "the beauty of maths"
heres wad it says:
Beauty of Maths

1 x 8 + 1 = 9
12 x 8 + 2 = 98
123 x 8 + 3 = 987
1234 x 8 + 4 = 9876
12345 x 8 + 5 = 98765
123456 x 8 + 6 = 987654
1234567 x 8 + 7 = 9876543
12345678 x 8 + 8 = 98765432
123456789 x 8 + 9 = 987654321

1 x 9 + 2 = 11
12 x 9 + 3 = 111
123 x 9 + 4 = 1111
1234 x 9 + 5 = 11111
12345 x 9 + 6 = 111111
123456 x 9 + 7 = 1111111
1234567 x 9 + 8 = 11111111
12345678 x 9 + 9 = 111111111
123456789 x 9 +10= 1111111111

9 x 9 + 7 = 88
98 x 9 + 6 = 888
987 x 9 + 5 = 8888
9876 x 9 + 4 = 88888
98765 x 9 + 3 = 888888
987654 x 9 + 2 = 8888888
9876543 x 9 + 1 = 88888888
98765432 x 9 + 0 = 888888888

Brilliant, isn't it?

And look at this symmetry:
<>1 x 1 = 1
11 x 11 = 121
111 x 111 = 12321
1111 x 1111 = 1234321
11111 x 11111 = 123454321
111111 x 111111 = 12345654321
1111111 x 1111111 = 1234567654321
11111111 x 11111111 = 123456787654321
111111111 x 111111111=12345678987654321

Now, take a look at this...

101%

From a strictly mathematical viewpoint;

What equals 100%?? What does it mean to give More
than 100%

Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving
more than 100%?

We have all been in situations where someone wants you
to GIVE OVER100%.

How about ACHIEVING 101%?

What equals 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help answer
these questions:

If:A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
Is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

If:
H-A-R-D-W-O-R- K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

And:
K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But:
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

THEN, look how far the love of God will take you:

L-O-V-E-O-F-G-O-D
12+15+22+5+15+6+7+15+4 = 101%

Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical
certainty that:

While Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close,
and Attitude willget you there,
It's the Love of God that will put you over the top!

It's up to you if you share this with your friends &
loved ones justthe way I did.

Have a nice day & God bless!!!

Powerful isn't it??...yarhx...so today after i went to
my great grandma's hse i went wif qiaohui,cass n jieren
go watch kungfu dunk...n OMG it was amazing...only
that jay chou's hard style sux...but the team's captain...
very gd looking...overall the whole show's awesome...
din regret watchin it..
After that went to qiaohui's hse to play mahjong...lol
got there n her mum ask hu is joshua...cos of sumthing
silly i did...but go qiaohui's hse gd enuff le...u noe how rare
this chance is...nvm...so play mahjong until 8:07pm
then i had to leave for grandma's hse...over there not all
are present so i rather fuged up cos i tot everyone was
there if not i stay at qioahui hse with the rest liaoz...
but nvm...parents played the chinese chess 4 colour slimcards
while i got home earlier to play my comp...yup this my day...
God Bless u^^

hahax...back to postin mood liaoz...suppose to
be xi yue means to stay up late larhx...i heard
the longer u are awake ur parents life will be
longer but in the end kena pangseh by all my
frens nobody to dota wif i go maple my fren
wah so zhun got to go slp...super mass pangseh
larhx...but nvm....

Today class was normal...mr liu fker no chinese
new year celebration de...he go squeeze it into
assembly period...no sense...which school dosen't
celebrate chinese new year on chinese new year's
eve...lame shyt so we got to study...got lesson until
11:10am^^today in school oso lyk kena pangseh...
43 pupils more then 10 pupils nvr come...heelon
zhihui benjamin...all ponteng...then got back maths
result i got 92/100...danny got 96/100 come act in
front of me...knn dun wan tok bout it...chem i got
20.5/30...danny 26/30 act again...physics oso...
i got 10/20 danny got 15/20 come guai lan again...
haiishx i feel lyk wad mr liu said is true...
gofar go tgt...now in class ppl no longer come to ask
me questions liaoz...so dissappointed...all so smart
liaoz...nvm...i work hard can liaoz...y nid to compare

so after school i go home n dota...i wait so long until
game start then the host lag n everybody dc...i was
fked up...at aroun 4:30pm wah dad came home...
saw me on the computer he shout n kp me liaoz...
wads wrong with usin the comp...ltr go grandma house
for reunion dinner hahax saw many of my cousins...
got 1 of my cousins she workin liaoz...n SHE PLAYS DOTA!!!!
omg cos her boyfren plays dota so she plays it too...can
u believe it???!!!!omg but she still noobie^^...yup
so this year xi yue sux n if u nid visitersin ur hse durin
chinese new year call me at 91123341^^hahax
jokin larhx...lol ok tata^^

Today went to school again...with cass...
again sry for not bloggin...n paulina u throw
my blog into river i throw u in first...
So had school then i realised danny too much
liaoz...I helped get first in maths...now he say
is his hard work...u noe hw i feel??!!!...fuged up
ppl build u up n now juz cos u pro in maths chem
physics... U ACT IN FRONT OF ME???...nvm
summore say is ur bloody effort??!!!u gd...still
sit in front of class act...u got a prob next tym
u settle urself...
Anoher idiot i hate...PHILIPINO SLAVE!!!...
aka joseph aka josephine aka josephilipino
maid...bloody hell fake F.A. financial assisstance
he is under F.A. n everyday recess eat more then
me fug...
then ltr skip maths period cos of C.O.performance
in the hall...ltr go back C.O. room for practice...
then got complicated problem between...blahblahblah
blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah...
i headache oso...zzzso now i dunnoe wad to do i going to
bathe...lolx...so byebye...