I've found a friend who died for me

Hellos...

ok just got back from aunty dawn's house.
She's my tuition teacher, a christian so everytime i leave her house,
i learn something more then just chinese get wad i mean?

ok i gotta go Crossroads soon, ima getting late.
so i try faster finish this post.

Today we went through a compre passage on Lilies.
Here it goes:

On a cliff, there was a lily.
around that lily was wild grass and yea it was just a lily plant.
it had not flowered yet so i look as though it was wild grass.
So the Lily said to itself, I wanna bloom, so that i noe that i am different from you, the wild grass.
So everday, the lily would tell itself i wanna flower, i wanna bloom.

However, the wild grass and the birds who flew by, always told the lily give it up.
Forget it. You are one of us now. there is nothing you can do. juz remain like this.
So everyday the grass and the birds laughed at the lily.
One day, the bud of the lily grown. and still the birds and grass laughed.
they told the lily that even if she flowered, nobody would see or admire the flower.
But the lily told itself, I bloom to tell myself i am a lovely flower.
I wanna bloom to prove my existence. So even if nobody looks or notice me, i still wanna bloom.

So after a period of time, under the laughter of the grass and the birds,
the lilly bloomed.
It bloomed the whitest and loviest flower.
When the grass and birds saw the flower, they stopped laughing and the birds flew off.

And soon because the flower bloomed, it started to reproduce.
so its pollen was carried by the wind and planted on the other parts of the cliff.
and soon after a longer period of time, the whole cliff was covered with lillies.
And then the valley was covered in lillies.

This is for all Christians out there.
We are like the lily, example in school.
You may be the only christian in your class.
You may be the only christian in your work place.
and many will laugh at you, outcast you, stay away from you or ridicule you.

But Fret Not!!!!
Be like the lily and yearn to bloom.
do not be influenced by the ppl of the world.
but rather let them be influence by you.
And soon, the whole cliff and valley will be covered with lillies.

Dwell in God's word daily.
and seek his righteousness. Only then his presence will follow you wherever you go.
God even look after the birds in the air, what more you?
So do not be afraid if your the only christian in your class.
Press on and lead a righteous life. Press on and flower for God.
Show the world how good is he.

I am oso the only christian in my class.
Do not be ashame, but be proud that you have a heavenly father watching over you.
YOU ARE A SON/DAUGHTER OF A KING!!!!!
So Would You walk the way God plan for you?
Will you let him use you?
God Bless You!

ok need to hurry to Crossroads now. Late!
lols byebye=D

back again...

God is totally amazing.
thats wad i've got to say.
Whenever you have done something wrong, and you dunnoe how to solve it,
God is there.
He will first use sermons or ppl to juz come and talk to you tell you that your wrong and then he will provide a way for you to start "solving" your prob.
the rest is how much faith you put in God.

Today i went service in G1 and yea its the youth service.
Pastor Ronald was preaching and i am glad that i went for it because i missed it on Sat.
From the introduction i wrote, you obviously noe that something has gone wrong for me.
no doubt look at the earlier post.

So Pastor Ronald preached about the Beatitudes(dunnoe how spell) =.=
'Blessed are the Peacemakers; For they shall be called Sons of God-Matthew 5:9'
So his sermon convicted me.
He said in order to have peace, you need to be a peacemaker.
In order to be a peacemaker, you need to make peace with God and seek his righteousness.
Once you have done that, you can have peace and make peace with others.
You have the right to tell others wad they have done wrong.
Yes, in this world many will not like it.
Tell the person, Hey you noe, wad you did i dun think it was right, it hurt me alot. But you noe, i decided to forgive you. I hope you will not do it again because it is wrong.
That's how is shld be done, and not how i have done it.

I badly needed to seek peace with God. Cos of wad i did. My actions and such, hurt some ppl.
During the sermon, the holy spirit Convicted me. i confessed and prayed.
I asked how at the end of the sermon during the altar call.
I din went out because i was having a personal time with God. I made peace with him and sought help in the problems i made.
I reflected again with the Holy spirit and he showed me actions i did which is not wad a leader would do.

At the end, God is Good he has forgiven me, he even helped me think of wad i should say to the person i hurt the most, my SL.
After i prayed and after service, Paulina msged me, Wad is my prob and ask me to settle it once and for all.
See how good God is? I was asking how am i gonna approach her? and tell her i am sorry.
So i apologised and told her that i forgave her for wad she has done. Her reply was not so nice, but i apologised and i ask for peace.

Once again to paulina,
It was wrong of me to act the way that i did. Its hard on you being SL.
Even though i have hurt you, please noe that you once have hurt me.
and also i forgive you for that and sorry for wad i have done to you.
Its hard for you to let go and forget it, i noe cos i also couldn't let it go and i acted that way.
But i have already let it go so its up to you.
Some things you have done is also wrong, but it has become a habit for you.
So even though its hard to change, Pls try.
I am not the best senior around, so i do make mistakes.
Therefore, sorry.

hellos... i came from someone's blog.

that person sounded happy, so ima gonna sound happy too^^
wow it seems like i am the one whose the main character on that person's blog.
so happy^^

actually zhichuen shared the limelight with me...
but who cares^^

right.
apparently some ppl are juz not happy that me and zhichuen were too relaxed...
thats it.
Talking about zhichuen, you shld noe its from C.O.
no doubt, he's me junior.
so yea, some ppl are juz not happy we were too relaxed^^

lemme share the happy event that took place^^
on that day, out of 4 years in my life and zhichuen's 3 years,
we were trying to relaxed by not moving BIG instruments and apprently some ppl,
sad were not happy leh!!!
i oso saw with my eyes and zhichuen's that that person was juz moving instruments out of co room,
waiting for others to come take it.
then i saw that person coming out from toilet.

wah better dun continue...
let that person reflect. 3years, how long i tahan.
but, sadly that ever smiling smile on my face, no more...
so its been a nice day.
I prepared my speech liao.
juz waiting for the time to use it, regardless of place and ppl.

Today almost use it ok,
lucky the person second floor i at first floor if i shout liao.
but nvr...

oh my gosh, i nid my cool rhino now...
BYES...

Rhinooooooooooo, whr are you????

Juz finished talking to someone.
wonder if that someone still got come by this blog.
its not that i have feelings for that person but that person was once part of my life.
really treasured that person.
but... i dunnoe why we endup liddat.

So if that someone happens to pass by,
i hope this song brings back those memories.
I'm sorry if i have hurt you in anyway.

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear,
you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you,
and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I used to reach for you when
I got lost along the way.
I used to listen.
You always had just the right thing to say.
I used to follow you.
Never really cared where we would go,
Fast or slow, to anywhere at all.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that
I'd see.We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you,
and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I look around me,
And I want you to be there'
Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.
It's empty, and you're sad'
Cause you miss the love that we had.

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around,
The only one around.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear,
you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?
Yeah.To how it used to be.
To how it used to be, yeah.
To how it used to be.
To how it used to be.

that's the song.
goodnight=)

Hi once again.
been awhile since i last posted.
sry ah.

Ytd was my cousin, JoyJoyJieJie's Wedding.
its was wedding dinner actually.
so wear until very formal.
this is wad i wore:

I am not wearing specs=D
got a silver tie on that shirt dunnoe call wad but its nice and my obermain shoes with jeans^^

then as we enter, we were sitting at the very front. means like there was the stage and the closest table to the stage was us liao.
sat with family and uncle sehboon's family and Darren and his dad^^

then there was this very pretty waitress!
she wore a long sleeved cheongsam top with a long skirt with slits at both sides

all the way up to the upper thighs!
ok the point here is not saying she is sexy, BUT she is preetty!!!!
there were two of them. the other one buang. LOL

from china i think.

then everytime she served tea, i said thankyou.(wrote this for later on)
then suddenly Uncle darrick, Darren's dad said: "Wah! why all the other girls all wear their normal attire, but you wear until so sexy?"
we all stare at him. lols. he made her paiseh lah!!!

then after 2hours like when everybody watching the video,
i went toilet and saw her. that pretty waitress.
so i smiled and she smiled back!!!
then this is the quick conversation.

J: hi, erm sorry for wad my uncle said juz now.
W: oh! its ok, he's not the only one.
J: oh! ok. haha. i'm joshua, nice to meet you.
W: oh hi! i'm ling li pleasure to serve you.

J: you serve very well. (smile)
W: Oh! thanks go tell manager(smile) you are very polite too.
J: haha (smiled) erm, i better be going back .
W: yeah! me too, got many ppl to serve. bye!
J: bye.

My first time i said sth liddat to a girl larhx!!!!
i even got her name!!!!
woots!
lols... but i think she older then me.
anyway i nvr ask for her number.

Then after that quick conversation,
everytime there's a new dish, she serve me first lorhx!!!
then when my drink finished, i turned around and asked the other waitress to get me another cup, but when i turn, THE CUP WAS FULL!!!!!
i was like WAH!! SINCE WHEN...?
then Ling Li walked pass and ask, did i get you the wrong drink?
lols... i smiled and said no, thankyou^^
LOLs...

wahahahahaha^^
anyways, heres wad we ate:
sorry as the photos are from bottom to top.

see how many bowls i ate

Walnut paste!!!!

Ostrich steak?

Braised Fish

Starters, appetizers

Still got Shark's fin, abalone, prawns and scallops.

ya i juz forgotten to take picture, cos too good jiu eat le. LOLs.

yea. still having a moment of infatuation of Ling Li.

LOLs... it will linger for a few days only.

yea. So thats it.

byebye, i will post the group photo i took with my cousins another day.

goodnight^^

The Funniest thing about this post,
is that by the time you realise it doesn't say anything,
it is too late for you to stop reading it!
Haha, Gotcha!

God Bless you.
Byes^^

I juz received news that Pastor Lily juz had a fall...
Pls pray for her... to all christians from Grace Assembly.
pls pray that the surgery will be smooth and God's presence be with her.
Pls pray there wun be any serious injury.

Today is monday.
and its been one month since i last went to aunty dawn's house.
Missed her...
She has been teaching me chinese since Primary 3!!!!!
imagine that!!!
went to her house and after teaching we went lunch together.

I dinnoe she paying for me so i ordered quite a number of things and
went i gave the cashier $5 he return to me and said:" She help you pay already."
Wah! so paiseh larhx...
so next tym i make sure i pay for her^^
hahas....

At her house we did a topic about unhappy singaporeans.
And we "chatted" about being contented.
She told me a story somewhat.
It's about a rich man who lives in a BIG mansion
and a beggar who sleeps on the streets at night and beg for food in the day.
one night the beggar slept outside the mansion's door on the fine lawn.
In the morning when the rich man open the door, he saw the beggar and took pity on the beggar and gave him some food. As soon as the beggar recieved the food, he thanked the richman and said, Your flowers in the garden has such a nice and pleasing fragrance.
As the beggar left the mansion grounds, the richman thought to himself.
"All these years, why didn't i notice the flowers in my garden. all i think and do everyday is how to improve my business." whereas the beggar with little food was so contented and happy that he smiled the whole day and greeted everyone with a cheerful face.

This is an example of being contented.
Would want to be like the beggar or the richman?
Being Content is a great challenge in one's life.
As humans, its our nature to keep wanting more.
You give a man $200 because he wanted to improve his business, he would come back and ask you for $400 more.
You can nvr satisfy humans, for they would always want more.
i think that we shld do something about it.
instead of saying i want i want i want,
we shld change it to i'll skip it, its ok, nevermind.

We shld be contented with wad we have.
Be glad that you have parents.
Be glad that you have arms and legs.
Be glad that you have frens.
Be glad that you can go to school.

if you think you do not have anyone of these, turn to God and trust in him and all these will be given onto you.
It's also written in the bible!!
"Seek first the kingdom of God and his RIGHTEOUSNESS, and all these things will be given unto you" Matthew 6:33

So be contented with what you have!
and not fill yourself with jealousy and envy towards others.
make life much more happier by being contented.
Learn to be contented today!
before i go,
always rmb, God Loves You!
Goodnites^^

HEY you you you you and you over there!
Hellos^^

today was really a fun day out with 7 of my percussionists
too bad for those who can't come and those who dunwan to come...
met at cck mrt.
Raymond, Sebastian, Me, Tricia, Peifang, Weiting and Weiying=)
mrt-ed to AMK and went K-Box-ing.
then we sing until 2pm.

First time i see Peifang so wild? lols
and yeah crapp alot!
like seriously ALOT!!!
the lunch was really nice!!!
the black pepper Chicken!!!
WAH!!! bth liao... keep thinking about it =.=

ok then peifang left and left 6 of us...
so we went to catch a movie...
we watched, THE COFFIN...
ok i dinnoe it was that scary and so, i wasted 8 dollars watching it...
Sry ppl. all my idea...
the show was so scary that Tricia was hugging on to my hand,
weiting and weiying were using the blanket to cover their faces.
I, used the popcorn paper bag to cover my own face too...
LOL!! it freaked me out. it was worst then" The Strangers"

The Coffin.
The whole idea about this show is that they were advertising about a sacred ritual
whereby you lie in the coffin and the monks will pray the "Death Chant" and all your
bad luck and illnesses in your body will dissappear. You can even cheat death itself.
it only happens in Thailand. its like playing around with the spiritual realms.
In the end, the stars of the show dinnoe that their illness and bad luck was transfered to
their loved ones. and after coming out of the coffin, their loved ones died and came to haunt them back. So they went back into the coffin again and somehow manage to reverse it.

After watching this show, i could see that those ppl who actually believed the ritual was somehow Lost!
They had their illness and bad luck but they dunnoe who to turn too!
Rings a bell?
Wad they need is God! If you have an illness, God can HEAL you!
If you are down on your luck, God will open another door for you!
If you are financially empty, God will make a way for you!
We dun hav to rely on these rituals and stuffs. Why?
BECAUSE GOD IS IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING!!!!!

There's a phrase an actor in the show said, which is
"If You Try To Kill Death, Death Will Not Die"
which means if you try to cheat death, death will not die...
and if death will not die then...
you my fren, will turn into a zombie!!!! undead marhx!!!
WOOOOOOO!!!!
lols...

So if you have any problems you face in your life, Turn to God!
God nvr shortchange anyone of us.
Instead, he gives us back double portion of wad we have!!!
Do Not Wait!!!
God Loves You, and he wants the best for you.
Goodnight!
and always remember,
God loves you very very much!!

wah today, first time i loved percussion after so long!!!!!!!!!!
yay!!! the Swiss Percussionists has came back to life!!!!!
woooooooo!!!!
wah and we did technology in record time!!!
from zero to techno!!!!

I dinnoe we still have so much potential...
i thought we couldn't make it in time...
and now, we were doing so fine until the teacher
came and tadah!!!!!
we're almost there!!!!!
alittle bit more!!!

weets percussionists GO!!!!
JIAYOUS!!!!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!
lols...
God lvoes you too btw =)

ok bye

sorry for not blogging for quite some time.

juz no mood lurhx...
not anybody's fault.. haha

ok ya, i went to the chalet.
but i had to skip my drum lessons..
see blur...
cnt help it lurhx...

the chalet was fun even though it was boring...
as in there's nothing to do cept eating, chatting and playing cards/ PSP
but even though i stayed for one night, i muz say that it was really a fun time.
thanks jiawee.

i din sleep the whole night.
end up next day got flu, stomachache, sore eyes and a bruised knee(cos i fell dwn) =(

on friday, was late for C.O. practice...
and yea it was really boring...
not saying that C.O. is boring but for me its because i got nothing to play and
i would be juz sitting there for 4 hours under the aircon...
thats how i got my flu...

Sat almost late for choir practice...
was like the only bass and later on 2 others came... heng =.=
anyway, i decided not to change to tanaz or wadeva anymore...
cos bass i can get the notes better...haha..

then had to miss service...=( cos my brother said there's no service and my parents believed
and they said,:" at least you are paying attention during service"
zzz....
then went to aunty joe house cos joyjoy was having her wedding lunch thingy...
then went far east... and then to woodland civic for a mini concert...
so paiseh about that concert and idunwanna talk about it...

sunday had the ifriends thing in the children church...
again i missed service and hoho, i din hear the msg...
but its about mercy...
the kids were very rowdy and energetic...
lols... they run and scream and shout, wah i climd the stairs to the fifth floor i tired liaoz...
zzz old lerhx...

then went far east again with kahsheng and joel...
and went home lerhx...
tired lurhx...
yea i was oso praying for some ppl...
they were my good frens in church but i think they somehow falling into the sin of the world...
i really hope God can change them and they would oso get right with God...

ok byebye^^