I've found a friend who died for me

Ok Hi all,

yea, you noe, i am really a super blurrr person...
come to think about it, i sian diao sia...
all my dates start clashing and clashing and clashing!!!!
now i cant go class chalet anymore...
sry jiawee...

I oso Gotten into the Christmas Choir.
and practice is every sat at 11am...
Rings a Bell?
Which means i have to leave C.O. at around break tym to go
to church...
means i'll have to talk to Ms Lim about it...
blur me...

Yea ok and first of all, I wanted that, christians are always being looked at,
always being commented for their actions.
I am not saying or scolding anyone, but its true.
why is this so?
Thats cause we serve a God we are Proud of.
we want to show the world how great God is.
And we are showing him through ourselves.
The reason Being that some other christians still behave like wad
Tagger Eyedropr said is because,
1) It's a habit to them already.
2)They are still not getting right with God

But even so, God still LOVES them and he is willing to forgive if they ask for it.
I rmb a tym when a guest speaker's sermon which says that,
when his daughter runs towards him, and then she would jump towards him and he would catch her and embrace her...
so in this scenario, as the daughter jumps up and clings onto him, he will also do the same.
Why?
Because, if he doesn't catch hold of his daughter as she jumps and clings onto him, she will fall down. Do you think she has enough strength to cling onto her dad?
Its the same with God and us.
Whenever we turn and run towards him, do you think he will juz let us cling onto him and not do anything about it?
NO!!! he would also embrace us and catch us...
its God's strength that supports us, same as the guest speaker which was only by his strength that his daughter is able to be carried and supported by him if not she will fall.
Many a times we turn from God, and feel that God is not there.
However wad we do not noe is, God is still carrying us, but we juz do not want to hang on to him.

You may ask, why is God so stubborn not to let those who sin go?
Reason being, God LOVES us!!!
His love is SO great that no matter how many times we broken his heart, he still forgives us.

Also to eyedropr,
hi.
i dunnoe who you are.
but i think the term "convince" used here is not very good.
i dunnoe about it but somehow or rather it is not a good term to be used.
yea and i also dunnoe how i can "convince" you if you dunnoe who am i.
but if you look closely at into my life, i can say that i have changed.
Leon, rmb Mr Liu's words?
Small things Matters.
Wad you guys are looking for are big changes.
but even so, do you look at the small changes?
In the bible it says, no matter wad sin you make, Murder or even lying, its still sin and should be judged equally.
so i believe no matter wad, you shld oso lookout for little changes in the lives of christians.

And no matter how much we say to "convince" you,
as long as the heart is cold, you still wun turn to Christ.
Am i wrong to say that?
It also takes alittle time for christians to really change their sinful habits.
If you use vulgarities like so very often, can you stop saying it the next day?
I noe how difficult it was because i used to say it like water flowing out of my mouth.
After i got serious with God, it took me 3weeks of prayer to completely stop saying vulgarities.
Thats the change in my life God has help me through, and normally do ppl like you see it?
ok do you even notice it?
And one last thing,
God still loves you and he's still waiting for your salvation now.
God loves you.

i nid to go for CCA liao...
Sry and bye^^

Ok before i start my post, I'm quite sorry i couldn't blog for the last two days.
cos last two days i was helping out at Crossroad47 and i would leave school, rush home, change and leave again. By the tym i got back its quite late already so i could not blog. Sorry =(

I found out that my Hair has a natural Brown colour!
I now am quite proud of it. haha =P
but ytd Mr Yoong Caught my Hair and said :" Why can't you wait until tomorow(which is today) to go and dye it?? I am quite dissappointed with you joshua."
I giggled and said :" Mr Yoong i nvr dye my hair before. Its my natural colour."
He got nothing else to say and went back to topic.

Ok today i would like to share experiences about sharing the Gospel.
Sharing the Gospel is quite an exciting thing for me.
Cos we are sharing about our God to the world!
How great is our God, Our God is an awesome God.
But as we share, i dun understand why many a times, people juz raise other topics or walk away when you are sharing half way.
Quoted From Sumone :" It aches really bad to see your friends not believing after trying to tell them... most of all, you can't do anything about it."

I agree with that statement. I mean because in the bible, it says in Revelations 20:15 that " And whosoever not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire"
We are living in the end days. the overflowing of the holyspirit has begun!
Nations will Fall, Religion will break and everyone will feel the power and work of the holyspirit.
But even so, many will reject it. They are the ones who will be thrown into the lake of fire, Hell.

That's why chrisitans are trying Desperately to save SOULS and have them being in HEAVEN.
The Gospel Is FREE FOR ALL.. Ok, Let me begin.
If you happen to walk past a PSP factory, Giving out Free PSPs for that day only.
Would you stand there and watch others getting the PSPs or, Would you run and grab hold of that PSP?
Its the same logic! The Gospel is FREE but WHY, many dunwan to have it?
The Gospel is as good or even better then the PSP.
PSPs may get you addicted to games while the Gospel brings you Closer to God.
Its also the same whereby i give you Free tickets to a movie.
You would of cos take the tickets and watch the movie rite?
BUT whether or not the movie touches your heart or speaks to you, its up to you to believe it and feel it. ITS THE SAME !!!
i offer you the gospel for FREE and ask you to come to church.
you follow me to church and whether or not the sermon touches you, its really up to you to believe and up to you to open yourself to God.

God Loves You very much.
no matter how far you run or how stubborn you are, He still loves you and will nvr give you up.
When a sinner repents, All of heaven gathers and celebrates the return of that sinner.
so, I pray really hard that all of you my frens out there, will see the truth one day.
God bless you,
Good bye
=DD

You tell me no one would love you
If they could see deep inside
You say your friends might desert you
If they knew the truth you hide,

Well theres one who knows you better than
You know yourself
And he still loves you more than anyone else

Jesus doesnt care what you've done before
How youve rebelled or slammed the door
No matter how far you've run or how long you've been untrue
Jesus doesnt care
He still offers forgiveness to you

For so long you've run from the father
Into a life of sin
And each time he lovingly called you
You turned your back on him

No matter if your failures are great or small
Theres no way to hide them
He already know them all

Jesus doesnt care what you've done before
How youve rebelled or slammed the door
No matter how far you've run or how long you've been untrue
Jesus doesnt care
He still offers forgiveness to you

How many tears will you cry
Till you cry out to the father
An honest plea for mercy he will not deny
Trust him and you're gonna find

Jesus doesnt care what you've done before
How youve rebelled or slammed the door
No matter how far you've run or how long you've been untrue
Jesus doesnt care
He still offers forgiveness to you

This Song, even though i only started hearing it recently,
It convicted me during the lsat youth service...
So badly that i cried...
the first tym i cried for like dunnoe how long...
Cried because of all i have done to my friends and how much i have sin...
I am summore a Leader!!
at first, i cried cause i have done so many things which made many ppl turn away from me...
sometimes i would even think i was so un-holy that God's Protection was away from me...
But God remained faithful to me,
He gave me still another chance to repent and turn to him...
this song really touches and comforts me till now...

To all my non-Christian Friends out there,
you noe, Its not too late to turn to God.
Personally, God can take away all your bitterness in your heart.
God can take away that revengeful heart you have for someone.
God can take away your troubles, your stress and all your difficulties.
He will carry you through.
and as the song suggests,
Jesus doesn't care wad you did before and he still offers forgiveness to you.
If you have unrest and are finding rest and peace in your heart, look to God.
If God can take away my bitterness, So can he take yours away!
Even if you are not ready now, God will always be waiting with open arms
to embrace you and protect you.
If you all really have troubles and say you can't take it anymore,
come to me and i will pray for you or you can leave it in the Prayer request tagboard.
It's not too late!!
But its also not so good to wait.
yup=D

Its true that God is working in me now.
I can sense the Holy Spirit telling me and warning me against little sins
that i wouldn't care last tym.
I used to run out of school halfway during the enrichment module...
But this week, though i was tempted i din do it.=)
and today in the AVA,
the talk on the polytechnics was boring, and most ppl
would juz fall asleep or listen to their mp3.
I used to do either one of that,
But today even though i slept during the start of the speech enrichment,
(Sorry, i was tired, i ask for forgiveness ok?=P)
i took out my mp3 to listen in the AVA, but after listening to 2mins of the song,
i kept it back in my bag as the Holy Spirit told me it was wrong and disrespectful.
so i kept it.
yea.

after that went home lurhx...ya din wanna go C.O. cos today no feel.=X
sry C.o.
ok blog till here today,
buhbyes and rmb,
Jesus doesn't care about wad you have done, he still offers forgiveness with open arms, waiting for you to come back to him.
takecares^^
God Loves You

Hi,

today i went to school as usual...
we were supposed to have an english enrichment which is beneficial for us next year...
the enrichment was boring can?
and so many ppl including those i hang out with all decided to leave after the break...
its like playing truant...
i was tempted at first because since it was the ost examinations,
the guard would easily allow anyone to go out...

at first i was really tempted...
But sth in me reminded me that there's some i will need to answer to next tym...
and imagine wad would God feel when he has seen me do this act...
When he had forgiven me so many times when i re-commit those sins again,
when he sent his only son to die for a sinner like me so i can go to heaven,
so i din wan that to happen... God once took away all my bitterness.
i dunwan them to return to me...
so in the end, i said to myself and the HolySpirit, Ima staying.

so i did stayed and the Lord sent me a song...
to remind me of a covanant i made with him...
the song is "I have decided to follow Jesus"

theres a verse in the song which says:
Though none go with me, I still will follow...

well it comforted me as i sat there alone in class...
ltr i went bukit batok and couldn't collect my SIM card cos need my dad IC...
so went home and i chatted with shunjie, nicole, pastor cuixian too...
LOLs...
now Blogging...
ltr need present a speech for tmr...
so faster end this post...
ok lurhx i end here
byebye

hahax... hellos...

changed the verse liao...
err... very tired so ima going to sleep...
to all my frens out there...
God Loves You
and theres nothing you can do to change that fact^^
because his love is unfailing
because God is love.
lols...

I added a new chatbox for Prayer Requests.
um.. means that if you are sick or anything and need prayer, juz feel free to put it down.
i will pray for you.
i guess it dosen't hurt so much as to put it down.
anything you want me to pray for juz list them down.
eg. exams, worries, sickness and others.

last,
i dunnoe whether i am in love or not...
ahhh!!! i believe God will give me that perfect woman...
God,
Tell me if its her. Tell me if now is the time.
In the name of jesus, Amen.
LOLs...

byess...

LOLs... sry for not updating... is a very busy week for me^^

Monday:
wokeup went school at around 635am...
Was LATE!!!!
then took the bus to this dunnoe wad saloon for enrichment...
very boring...
went lunch at the dunnoe wad prawn noodle coffee shop.
back to school and homed...

Tuesday:
YA!!! was earlyy...
went to the saloon and it sucked again...
then learn how to dye hair...
partner-ed with joseph...
and then dye finish we went eat at the prawn noodle coffeeshop again...
went we were going back...lols...
Xingyan crossed the road nvr see lorry...
haha... i pull her bag then she moved back and bang into me...
in the middle of the road... lols.. dangerous...
[feels very shiok]
then continue with shampoo-ing and then i got a free hir shampoo package...
weees back to school and went C.O with tricia
and finally walk with her to busstop and homed....

Wednesday:
Today nvr go saloon... the pplcame to our school...
LOLs.. i sit at the window and cut and then cut liaoz so many
classes walk pass look inside...
then lucky nobody noe me...
THEN!!!! CLASS 2E5 '05 walk pass...
tio laughed...=.="
then was perming... then they came back ofter one period... Sinyee laughed at me!!!
still got alot more lurhx...
Eh guy cut hair not funny de...
then left school at 10...
cos really dunwan go back cont...
so went home and met with
Heelon, Rauf, Zhongwei, Johnathan, Theron and Rishipal
went JTC, recruit express to find jobs... and submit application forms...
then went home... ltr went out with heelon, weihao and jiawee to eat dinner...
and, I FORGOT I HAVE FREAKING DRUM LESSONS!!!!!!

Thursday:
Went school and the saloon ppl forget to bring the model heads...
LOL
one hours free period... and only got 7 ppl...
left again at 10:30am cos got
Church activity: Primary 6 camp
so as we walked to the gate, the guard stop us cos on wed got 3 non sec4s
oso did the same and the guard got badly scolded... poor thing
so went library slack till 12 then left school...
headed for church which was 3mins walk and met up with the rest
met new fren Kahsheng today!!!
ltr other girls from CJC and dunnoe wads the other one came to help too...
they oso stayed over night...
that night went macs and then eat Alif at around 11++
then was so full... i ate 2 egg 2 kosong plus a milo dinosaur and and ice latte from macs...
was bloated and very full...
back to church and saw eleena and the other girls...
starts new frenship with Nicole, Lengshan, Eleena and Eloise...
yeps... and PSP till next morning...

Friday:
went back to the room and decided not to pon school...
i hum call parents...
so went school... lols... left church with joel and nicole...
very funny... Nicole woke up late and thought she as latee...
then she walk like thunder to the busstop... in the end still nid wait..haha
i role str8 jiu reached back gate lerhx... haha...
then in school... sleep until 10:30 whr its break tym...
then me and fuddin left school...
went home changed and put stuff then head back to church
wah eleena said its better not to go PNP!!!!
sobx... so nvr go... PG speaking lehs!!!
then we went out same thing eat at macs... drank ICEd Latte^^
and back to church... then sth bad happened...
kids these days juz dunnoe who they are messing with...
once the chance is given, they become more daring...
then spent the night with Nicole, Lengshan, Joel, and Issac
play asshole daidi...lols... funfunfun...
slept at 4pm...

Saturday:
Wokeup and slack around then go breakfast...
then they pack up the room...
then slack around and took down the bolster for samuel
and ltr Nicole and the rest came in ask wad we were doing... LOL
they tot we playing sia... haha
then ltr we eat lunch... and off the G1 for Paul Goulet's service...
the service was very good...
then went to grandma's house and homed...
the service part too long lerhx... so wanna noe wad happened, come call me, i will tell you...

goodnites byebye=D

I juzed finished bloghopping...
Really buisong someone...
read the dam blog, Full of arrogance...
really fell very not happy and really want to put up a post to scold him...
butbut he din do anything to me murhx...
so i won't shoot that person...
God Bless that person too...
lols...

OK!!! today, i was LATER then usual when going to school...
cos ytd i slept at 3AM
you noe why?
COS MY HOUSE GOT A BLACKOUT AT 2AM!!!!!
then fixed it at 3AM!!!!
so tired lurhx...
heelon in the morning call me ask me wan eat breakfast
and i reply saying no and I WENT BACK TO SLEEP!!!!
lols... i woke up at 630... left house at 645 reached school at 705...
LOLs...

then go enrichment... hairdressing...
stupid nid cut hair for girls...
i mean girl hairstyles...
then ltr then cut guys hairstyle...
fuddin cut mohog sia... very nice...LOL
i cut Ronaldo hairstyle... then botak with the patch of hair...
LOL

then go home... ya
very tired...
but going dota now byebye

PS: the church next to our school has a Youth Center,
specially for youths... sec1 and abv...
come and visit. it has Xbox 369, Wii and many more!!!
comeby the name of the center is Crossroads47!!!
Do drop by... on thursdays and Fridays...
see you there^^

All about you...

Hear our praises,
Hear Your people sing
Hear our hearts cry,
Your love is everything

And all will hear this sound
As the nations turn to You
And this will be our anthem

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will give you praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your WayAlways

Let our hearts break,
As we praise your name
Let the earth shake,
This is the sound of faith

And all will hear this sound
As the nations turn to You
And this will be our anthem

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will give you praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your WayAlways

And the walls will fall down
and religion will break
And the nations will hear this shout
Can you hear the sound of faith?

Cause we're all about You
Cause we're all about You(4x)

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will give you praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your WayAlways

Cause we're all about You
Cause we're all about You(4x)

And all the walls are falling down
As all the nations praise
And all the world will hear this shout
Can you hear the sound of faith

alrites...

hellos...
today in the morning i woke up later then usual...
dunnoe why... then i used the comp and Dota till my dad
came home from the market...
its so stupid... he like say everyday see me use comp...
and ask me go read newspaper and get to noe wads going on around
the world...then i told him
you everyday bring the papers home after your work you ask me read wad?
he replied read the day before the papers...
i tell him pls i dunwan lag for 1 day...LOLs...

after that went to church...
(random)- i restarted DJMax2^^
okok backback...
I got a job... in church...
LOLs...got cip points but no money...
you may think I am stupid... but you wouldn't understand
why i would do it...
I would be mending the Youth center in church...
Its called Crossroads 47...
for sec1 and above only...
so all my friends... yall can come drop by too....
there's XBox... Wii... foolsball... comps... and board games...
yea meant for youths...

ok then service time...
I today tio own by the sec1 girls...
its super tio own...
so i dunwan to talk about it...
then the sermon was very good...
I mean... ok i dunnoe how to describe how good it was but it was
fantastic, good, special, marvellous, wonderful and many more you can think of...
why?
Its a personal reason...
but the main thing is God took away all the bitterness in me...
thanks to kenneth, Pastor Ronald and Rafael...

After service went eat with usual ppl
Joel, Isaac Soh, Joseph, Sabrina and me... eunice met up ltr...
Isaac lim went meet his parents...
then wait them play finish arcade then go home...LOLs...

yea thats all... byebye

^^

Today is the last dy of exams for this year!!!
weets~

hahax...after collecting the papers,
Mr Sashi walk down the row with a dustbin...
i wanted to throw my entry proof in^^...
but i din...lol...
instead, i tore it into shreds outside the hall...and into the bin afterwards...

When i reached home i play a round of dota and
becos heelon persuaded me, i followed them go swimming...
i told him i dunlyk swimming liaoz he still ask me go...
so i went lorhx...

soon meet up with the same guys^^
Jiawee, Keith, Heelon, Weihao, Weiliang, joseph and myself...
they all go swim but i nvr swim...
i juz look after belongings... and they say why i wan to be a maid...
with the intention of suan-ing joseph...LOLx...
but then there's a saying:
If you wan to be serve, you have to first learn how to serve^^
hahax...

yea after swimming go home...
now gonna dotaaaaaaaaaaa

byebye^^

Ooh ooh
We're no strangers to love
You know the rules and so do I
A full commitment's what I'm thinking of
You wouldn't get this from any other guy

I just wanna tell you how I'm feeling
Gotta make you understand

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

We've known each other for so long
Your heart's been aching but
You're too shy to say it
Inside we both know what's been going on
We know the game and we're gonna play it

And if you ask me how I'm feeling
Don't tell me you're too blind to see

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

(Ooh, give you up)
(Ooh, give you up)
(Ooh)
Never gonna give, never gonna give
(Give you up)
(Ooh)
Never gonna give, never gonna give
(Give you up)

We've know each other for so long
Your heart's been aching butYou're too shy to say it
Inside we both know what's been going on
We know the game and we're gonna play it

I just wanna tell you how I'm feeling
Gotta make you understand

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you....

its nice song ok...
LOLs.... very nice meaning too...
but its not that i am in love lurhx...
juz the song is very nice!!!!!

ITS BEEN 5 DAYS WITHOUT A PHONE FOR JOSHUA....

lolx... ytd slacked the whole day... i mean there's no exams huh?
around 530 heelon arranged to play BBall...
so we were supposed to meet outside cck CC mac...

i reached there on the dot...
however, I could not find anyone... wadsmore, i dun have a phone...TT.TT
poor me... i sat outside Macs hoping that at least sumone who is going to play BBall
reached...

hahax who noes... keith arrived and saw me...
and... he has a phone^^

then we go to the coffeeshop nearby and eat dinner...
then meet weihao and weiliang at the BBall court...
total got 7 ppl go...
heelon, keith. jiawee, weihao, weiliang, joseph and me...
then we pllay first round, i slippers cmi...LOL
so bare footed play and tio 1 blister...

ok nvr second round tahan awhile and then the lights went out...LOL
cos 9oclock liaoz...
so we slack around and jiawee and keith keep making fun of joseph...
he poor thing cos he cnt do anything...LOL...

then went to Mac...
Weihao and heelon go buy water while i hunt for plasters...
LOL...
then i bought one plaster...1 for 0.40 cents...
rip off...

then went to Mac...
i saw Sinting there^^
but i din call her lurhx... cos she doing project with frens...
then over there play PSP then go back to the court and play sia...
lol... weihao lend me his shoes...
and then... playplayplay and my feet started to hurt...
and when i took off the shoes... i saw 2 more blisters on my feet...
very pain...
then my other foot the ankle was aching...
so i couldn't walk properly...
then go home summore i no phone,
and very dark and so many blisters...
LOL...

if they org another game like this...haha i confirm go lorhx...
altogether, the amount of games played,
have the energy use to play those games were spent on laughing lurhx...
so many funny incidents...
such a nice memory to add to my memories...
LOLx...

ok lorhx i go dota liaoz^^ byebye

err...

Today, got no school =P
hahax... so many ppl asking why i nvr go school today...
LOL... like holiday le larhx!!!

spend the whole morning audi-ing...
then break awhile cos eyes pain...
then go play PSP....
LOLx.. no difference actually...

then went back to the comp...
err go hop blogs....
and then audi again... then
heelon wan dota so dota...
until now...

its been a long tym since i used the comp
without and nagging^^
hahax....

those who got play audi before...
come back play leh...
very bored sia one person play...
LOL...

thats all lorhx...
goodluck to those who still have exams...
dun jiayou horhx... very expensive...
juz workhard and try your best^^

byebye...
=DD

YO!!

eh err.. first thing...
is i lost my phone... so dun bother sms-ing stuffs to me or call my phone...
if got anything call my house lurhx...
number is 68948232...

okok err...
for ytd, at church during service,
got this new pastor came to preach.
hahax his name was oso Leon^^

then he shared to us, why must we sing...
nice sermon outline...
but i think toobad he was kinda talking about music
more then singing...

then he oso very emotional leh...LOLx...
he presented a song to us, and half way singing through it,
he cried...-.-
then he preach about how he lost his voice once,
and he cried again...-.-
but overall its good...

then went to grandma's house.
toobad nvr go down...
cos got another family with us...
so cnt go down, for safety returns...LOL
yep so ytd was about it...

i lost my handphone TT.TT
goodbye...

YOYO!!!

hahax... today was maths paper2!!!
its went PRETTY WELL^^
i'm glad... cos i think i flunk paper1... TT.TT

so you see if i juz pass paper1(ok too many ppl its a pass and its good, but for me... its FLUNK!!!)
yep so if i juz pass and i score like maybe 75% for paper2,
liddat horhx= 50=75/200
which is err...o.o
shyt ok i miscalculated but it would be around 4 or 3 marks....

CNTCNT!!!! okok muz score well liaoz... at least A2 plsTT.TT
got back report book today... my perlims the L1B2...11 points...
that means i cnt go sec5N.... TT.TT
but can appeal to stay back...

so i hope my N-lvls i can get 10points^^
i know God will see me through this time^^
thanks God!!!

Thanks Pastor John and Ms Ma for teaching me maths...
i noe i dissappoint you for prelims but i did tried my best in N-lvls...
so i believe God will make a breakthrough for me^^...
thanks for being my dear teachers^^

post till today... hahax...
i shall see who are the people who come my blog regularly...
ltr will blog hop and see who link me liaoz^^
hahax...
daniel has linked me...cos he tagged -.-
LOLx see who the next one^^

OK!!

i am back blogging again...
err...

ya... i dunnoe wad to do now...
ok since running away is not a solution so...
i want to say sorry for the many wrong things i have done...

To debbie,
Sorry. i know your still angry at me for that comment and i have no right to ask you to forgive me. At that point of time, i dinnoe you were that pissed with me. I am such a fool not to notice that. I know wads done cannot be undone, but i dunwan to end our friendship. i am sorry i hurt your feelings. I hope we can still be friends again. Sorry.

To Leon,
hey um... i dunnoe if i did something wrong to you? but it juz seem that you avoiding me nowadays. You keep taking bus home, not that i want you to accompany me but, it is juz too often from last time. i mean the change is drastic. It makes me feel like i have done something wrong. Pls forgive me. Sorry.

To Others who juz feel like whacking me,
Sorry for wad i did to you. Pls tell me ad i have done so i can apologise and learn from it.
Pls i dunwan to lose good friends like you. If it is me, tell me. i will change if you allow me that one chance. Sorry.

To Myself,
I feel that ever since i got that hole in my ear, i start to lose my friends. So i am going to close it at the start of next year. It seems that because of that hole, i ruined the image everyone had of me. But i am still me. So i guess that i will close it and be my "Old" me, the Good and blur sotong/kuku. Sorry for dissappointing so many people. Sorry.

OK i done blogging
God bless you,
goodbye^^