How could this happen??!!! maybe cos i am a humjikia dun dare tell the person i lyk her long tym ago...cos i juz told her ytd... Haiis....not that she reject me but juz lyk normal fren nia lorhx.. dun noe y but i got the feelin she wont be so frenly towards me liaoz...maybe i am being paranoid but...ii dunnoe...
IEmo the whole day no mood to do anything...i nvr even eat suring recess n only ate a little bit at bohui's hse...keep thinkin but her...lol...i see her oso dun dare tok to her...got this uneasy feelin...poor me...anyway i belief tat i will get a girl sumwhr...
so lyk danny n me shared the same painful moments tgt... his girlfren got sent home by sum n sunhow he lost hope... poor danny...his girlfren for 1 month lyk tat...all wasted... but he say i worst...haiis...i tink its true barhx...first confession n a kind answer returned...lets juz be frens...danny n me went toilet n he cried...
The worst thing is tat everyone hu see us goes aroung sayin HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!! but c'mon my valentine day was not happy n so was danny...its sad...so heartbroken...i keep thinkin bout her the whole day...but its funny how can i lyk her...tats how i felt but on the other side its sayin...i nid to hav her...wow so many emotions....n i juz dunnoe how to describe...i hope she n i are still normal frens lyk before pretendin nothing has happen...sobx:(
i think is my prob lehs...juz dunnoe y...she so nice n i tink i dun deserve her...???i tink tat its my looks or something else...nid some self confidence in me...heard from hongming she doesn't lyk boys hu lyk her unless she lyks the guy herself...dammit i dun believe tat...unless i see for myself but wadeva happy is not going to stop me from going C.o. or being my happy self...hahax:)
cos of this i scared to tell ppl that i lyk them...cos in the end if they reject...they wont be the same to u maybe the stay away from u...i feel so ashame of myself...dunnoe y lol...i saw her at the bookshop n i dun dare go in to buy my DNT papers...had to ask danny to go in... ltr some1 poured water onto me...but nvm i was in no mood to get angry even nigel punch me i oso din feel anything...sobx...then went bohui house eat 2 fishballs n 2 nuggets...n drank 2 packets of water...then i went home
at home i played dota no mood to play too...got killed many times... i really wished i din tell her...but too late...but 1 thing for sure is... the greatest love of all is mine...its from god...his love is higher then the mountains n deeper then the valley...n nothing can stop god from loving me...n God loves u all too^^even her...
there's a song... Now i've found the greatest love of all is mine since u lay down ur life the greatest sacrifice then the chorus...but i lyk the prechorus ...so hope tmr is a better day n C.o. is tmr so i hope to see everybody there... n hope everyone valentine is better then mine... hope she's still a fren of mine...
Joshua praised Jesus at 2:47 AM
About Me
JoshuaNg
Singaporean. R-ager
4thAugust 1992
16 years old
UsherHead.Percussionist
jo-shuang-ze@hotmail.com
