a week of reflections and a conversation with jeanie
one week has passed=D haha yea many things happened and mostly were bad things... my last week was spent alone. parents are overseas rmb?
i'm feeling fortunate to have some good frens to accompany me and to save me from the boredness. thanks ppl =D
however, even though i have been desperate to go out, wherever i was, i was reflecting. when on the bus, walking, eating, in school and etcetc.. reflecting on wad?
Well, some of the things are about my actions. well i suppose is most of the things i reflected about are about my actions and the rest are about my behaviour. during the week of reflecting, i found out i have been rather impatient, quick to anger and rough...? and its not a good thing... feeling quite dissappointed about myself now. before my parents went overseas, we had some conflicts. Leon, Gordon and Heelon all agreed that it was their fault, and that they would do worst things if they were in my shoes. That means im right. well after thinking about it over a hundred times, i also think im right. Why? Because it was clearly their fault. Esp my mum.
But, thinking back, there was this uneasyness in my heart... as if it was going against my thinking... i guess it was the holy spirit.. because it also gave me a thought on how i shld have reacted. and i was enlightened at why i was wrong... it was due to my actions... Word of God said to submit to authorities.... I find that i have been running dry...in my spiritual walk with God... all my empty promises...and white lies i made to him... Please forgive me...
not only about this but about Arts Night too... my previous post on that band guy.... its proof that im impatient and quick to anger... i will not remove that post to remind and shame myself of my actions and to also change and learn from it, for the better...
Ytd i also had a conversation with Jeanie, my regional leader. I learnt quite alot from her. Many things which i though would be okay for teenagers like us to do. Like getting a stead now? She said things that made me think.. and ya, i feel like i, myself, am not ready for it even though i can claim to love that girl so so much...however its just not time yet.. Thanks Jeanie for that conversation. She made me think like a grown up. like she gave me a little peek at myself from the eyes of adults... and it was amazing and made much more sense... so thanks once again to Jeanie=D
thats my week... i'll change ppl, i promise that! To you, to God, To myself... I will change from today onwards.. goodbye(:
Joshua praised Jesus at 5:17 PM
About Me
JoshuaNg
Singaporean. R-ager
4thAugust 1992
16 years old
UsherHead.Percussionist
jo-shuang-ze@hotmail.com
